Relentless

Relentless Part 4

Riley

     My eyes feel so tired, best night sleep I’ve had in a long time. Feeling my surroundings careful not to make any noise, soft sheets surrounding me. Lying on the most comfortable mattress I have ever been on; feels like years I’ve been in my cell with my uncomfortable mattress giving me the worst night’s sleep. Slowly opening my eyes seeing all this white blinding me, white soft bed I’m lying on, hard wooden floors beneath my feet, white draws against a white wall. Curtains deep blue closed to the sun, if it is sunny out I don’t know how long I’ve been asleep or how long I’ve been gone from my old life, my old life is cloudy, faces all blurred when I try and think of who could be missing me at home. Maddox is the only face and name that never went blurry. Often wondered why that was, he was only a good friend as far as I can remember but something about our relationship made it impossible for his face to get blurred. Can hear a voice shouting in the other room, is that Ryder does he still have me. Did I imagine seeing Maddox coming into that cabin or was I hallucinating a rescue attempt? Did I subconsciously want to be rescued by Maddox? Too many questions for me to think about, mind running a million miles a second trying to figure out where I was. I don’t know where I’ve been held for however long in my little dingy cell, this could be another one they’ve moved me to. Dean could want to kill me in a nicer place, I could be left to another guy for him to use me for his pleasure. Maybe Ryder got tired of having me and gave me away, why does that thought hurt? MY heart beating harder in my chest the more I think about Ryder not wanting me anymore. Gripping my chest feeling like it’s beating out of my chest I thought we had something more than being his captive “I must be crazy”.

     Ryder has been seeing me for a long time, seeing me like we’ve been dating I know we have been more that a captive but for now it feels wrong to think of him as my captor and not my boyfriend. Reaching out to my surroundings I get up and search for the bathroom, two doors attached to this room, one out of two. Hearing voices again I quickly avoid the door the voices are coming from and head into the silent one, thankfully there is an ensuite bathroom attached, relief at finding an actual non rusty falling apart toilet. Everything white in here too, tiles, toilet even the shower curtain was white searching around in the shower hearing a voice coming up behind me “you up Riles?” I’d know that voice anywhere without turning around “Yeh I’m up Mad’s. Before you come in. Mind if I use the shower, it’s been so long” staring ahead, can’t read his expression right now. I don’t want to see disgust in his eyes when he looks at me, I just want to wash this day off me, Deans hands were on me not long ago, no matter how much I’ve slept time away he is my last memory, coming into my cell, toying with me touching me. Making me bleed for his pleasure. Thought of what he did to me makes me avoid the mirror, I can’t remember the last time I saw my own reflection. I don’t want to see this damaged version of myself. The new scars, battle wounds from fighting Ryder in the beginning. Got punished more than fed in my cell, “be good kitten you can eat. Bad girls get punished and trust me kitten you won’t enjoy it as much as me” can hear Ryder in my own head telling me to be good. Turning the shower on, standing under the heat washing away my captivity, knowing Maddox was only behind the door, he never stepped out the room. Washing my body remembering what I’ve gone through, squeezing my eyes shut not wanting to relive what’s happened to me. Ryder was right those punishments were all for him, he liked causing me pain, hurting me to make me scream “like those noises kitten, I’ll make you scream in ecstasy when you start to behave my mate” shaking with how he called me his mate, wanting to discipline me when I misbehaved. All I wanted to do was leave him at the start, his touch became softer the more I did as I was told.

     Wrapping my arms around my naked body feeling the water wash it all away, feel myself breaking down. Something I wouldn’t allow myself to in my cell, knowing there was always cameras watching me, I didn’t want him to see how much he affected me, craving his soft touch, hating myself for wanting it. Hearing him call me his mate made my stomach flip, being owned by another person was never one of my fantasies even when I read the romance books, being at another person’s beck and call was never how I saw my life. I saw my life as it was but with Maddox as my husband, we are betrothed. We were before I got taken, Maddox must fill me in if that’s still true after what happened to me, I couldn’t blame him for not wanting me, I’ve been touched now. I let another man touch me, craved it when we were alone, wanting his touch to make the world disappear. Letting me feel things I never knew existed before then, how his touch could feel like lava going through me, burning me up in the best way possible. Crying into the water spray I’m alone now. Ryder won’t be able to touch me again and Maddox won’t want to, I should have Let Dean kill me.

    Door opens behind the shower, “Riles it’s ok, I got you” wrapping his arms around me, fully dressed holding me in his shower whispering sweet things in my ears “I’ve missed you Riles, I’ll make it all ok again Princess. Leave it all to me I got you” squeezing me so tight making me cry harder, turning into his shoulder “thought I’d die in that room. I didn’t think you’d want to be near me when I came back, I’ve done things Mad. Things you’re not going to like” sobbing between words, hoping I’m making sense “ Shhh Princess you are my world nothing will ever change that. Just breath Riles I’ll make everything ok” holding me tighter bringing me onto his lap, bawling harder at his sweet words. Mad reaches up and turns the shower off, carrying me out of the shower into the bedroom, wrapping me up in white fluffy towel “just breath Riles” his words calming me, forgetting I was naked as he covers me. Doesn’t put me down as he lays me down on his bed, holding me close while I whimper in his arms, “Mad” saying his name feels so surreal to me, pleading with him not to let go only the words don’t come, he knows what I’m not saying though. He doesn’t let me go though, holds me till my eyes blink closed, whole world fading away with all my problems.

Maddox

    Feeling her naked body wrapped around me is too much, I know she needs comfort, but my wolf only sees his mate naked in our bed. Keeping my cool and comforting her are hard to do together. My mate needs me to make everything better, not maul her like my last meal. Making my wolf see that we will only push her away if I bite her now, “I got you” I mutter to her crying shaking body hoping that holding her is helping her.

     Her luscious body stops shaking, sighing so quietly if it weren’t for my wolf hearing I wouldn’t have heard her at all “Maddox” a silent plea to keep her safe. I hope I’m reading this right that she doesn’t want me to let her go. After everything she’s still the most beautiful creature ever to walk the earth, listening to her breathing even out hearing her light snores come again. Knowing she’s asleep doesn’t convince me to let her go “mine” saying to her sleeping face, kissing her forehead letting my own eyes close.

     Staying cuddled up to her sleeping barely covered body, feeling her body pressed up against me my chest moving my hips further back or she’ll feel how hard she’s making me. This is no time to get a hard-on. Riley’s been through hell the past few months she doesn’t need to feel me poking her juicy ass right now.

     Leaving her lying in my bed was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. I need to talk to the rest of the pack, find out what they’ve found on the pack who stole my girl. They were under our noses the whole time. Meeting my Beta Jackson at the cabin, surrounded by green it’s our safe place “Jackson when are the rest of the pack getting here” speaking low into my phone, trying not to disturb Riley “Heard you got your girl back Mad, rest of the pack be up here in a few hours. Most of them been up all night searching for Riley. Her scent was all over the city making us chase our tails. They knew how to keep her hidden” walking towards my office. Sitting behind my desk “have you guys found anything on this new pack” grunting coming through the phone “I take that as a no. How can they just appear in our territory without us catching a whiff of them? No acknowledge on their part. Even their Alpha hasn’t come to speak to us about them being here. Either they don’t see us as a threat, or they weren’t planning on being here long enough for us to figure out they were here”  feeling my body grow with anger that’s building inside me “find something more before you and the pack get here” hanging up before he can respond. He of all people know my anger towards the pack that took my girl.

     The guy’s head straight to the bar, back living room became our unofficial meeting room, lots of the guys like a beer when we talk pack business most are bachelors looking for their mates. Hanging here keeps them out of trouble with the locals, they leave us alone if we don’t make trouble in town. Our emotions can get the better of us when were without out our mate, the guys all looking for theirs gets out of hand if they don’t let off some steam in their wolf forms when the urge rises.

    Standing in front of the pack, eager eyes staring into me “I know you are all tired from searching for Riley, thank you for your hard work. You should all know that she’s back safe. We found her with another pack” room erupting into yelps for having her back “Ok guys yes, its great but the problem we still have is another pack took her under our noses. They kept her hidden for months. Right under our noses” Punching into the desk splintering the wood with each syllable forgetting I need to keep my cool in front of my pack right now. Cannot let them see how riled up I am “they had us running around the city looking for her chasing our damned tails without even a hint of where she was” blood boiling at the idea that his hands were on here. Jackson passing me a beer, his attempt to cool me off doing nothing right now to calm me “where was she” Connor shouts. Looking over at Jackson conveying through our mental pack “did you find anything more about this pack?” the pack talking amongst themselves strategizing new ways to decimate this new pack I never found them. I’m sorry Mad but that garage was emptied out. Barely a whiff of them. They knew we would come looking for them looking at each other severing the link “Ok guys I know we need to track them down. Tonight, when the towns asleep we go hunting for these women stealing f***s, leaving them in pieces!” shouting into the pack, everyone growling into the air all feeling the blood thirst.

Riley

     Waking up in Maddox’s arms, feel so small next to his hulking frame. Holding me as I sleep, pulling me into him. Wiggling in his arms to feel him squeeze me more. Maddox has always been my safety net. Always there for me, picking up the pieces when everything gets messed up. Is he still going to hold me like this when he finds outs what Ryder did to me, what I did to him. Guilt growing in the pit of my stomach comparing Maddox to Ryder they both make me feel things. Love the feel of their arms around me, Ryder makes me feel hot like flames bursting through my veins. Maddox makes me feel safe and loved, we’ve kissed before but he’s not as passionate in his want for me, Ryder takes everything from me with just a kiss whereas Maddox starts to k****e a flame but never took it further than that, curled up in his arms is the longest he’s ever held me. Creating a wanting feeling in me if he’s only taken what he wanted from me, made me feel like a woman not a wallflower, like he always has in the past. Lying here listening to the thud of his heartbeat trying to drown out my own thoughts, willing his heartbeat to put me back to sleep.

      Days spent curled up in his bed, watching the sun come up and go down the world going past. Moving only as far as the shower. Maddox being sweet as always cooking for me, helping me clean up and holding me while I cry. Unsure if I’m crying because of Ryder, feel like I’m missing his touch or how sweet Maddox is being with me. My hearts breaking between these two amazing men, both meaning so much to me. Moving out of the bed towards the ensuite bathroom starting to look around his bedroom now I feel like I’m awake again, only thing grounding me through this change back to normal life, Mad letting me lie in his jumbo bed all day and night, cuddling into me at night making me so secure. Now finally looking at all this nice furniture surrounding me, it’s quite different from his apartment I helped him decorate. This is cabin in the wood’s bachelor style, everything polished wood even the comfiest bed I’ve been lying in for what feels like weeks is polished dark wood. The dresser the wardrobe all polished dark wood, even the wooden floors don’t squeak as I walk to the bathroom, everything feels polished and reeks of masculine men. Never a way I’ve seen him before, this place brings him into a whole new light. Turning on his impressive waterfall shower closing the door behind me, trying to be as quiet, he came to bed extremely late last night. What he does at night I wish he’d tell me what he gets up to. Mad was always open with me before all this. He worked at his dads office getting ready to take it over, coming to the studio watching me paint for hours I thought he was a simple guy but the looks of this place there is an entirely different man hidden beneath the exterior.

     Maddox has kept me closer than before, cuddling me when he crawls into bed at night but never more than that. Tries not to disturb me but his touches pleasantly wake’s me. Pushing myself further into his embrace, wiggling my body, moulding myself to him and still he only cuddles me. Need more but he doesn’t do more than hold me. After all that’s happened, I can’t stop myself wondering if what’s happened has changed me in his eyes. I’ve felt pain, taken from my home, my life had changed me. Waiting for the shoe to drop when he drops me back to my parents, telling me goodbye.

    Standing in his shower, watching the water wash away all the grime left on my skin. Scared of stepping put of here and my fears coming to light. Stepping back into my parent’s house after all I’ve been through, putting me back into my sheltered life sounds as much fun as going back to my tiny cell. At least there I felt human touch. Even if it was all in my mind, I had someone keeping me close, making me feel alive. I could take the small beatings he gave me to please his boss, but it was touch I’d crave. When it was just us, featherlight touches down my body. Bandaging me up keeping me fed and watered. Whispering in my ear, talking about us being together outside of my cell. Pipe dream all of it but, he did bring me pleasure along with pain.

     One day soon I hope Maddox talks to me. Days I’ve been here, and I don’t think he’s uttered many words towards me at all. Food and water appearing but the growls I hear in the night remind me of how he used to growl around me. Hearing noises from behind the door, someone’s close by but I never see anyone. This room is a difference version of my little cell. Haven’t even checked if the door’s locked, couldn’t face him if he locked me away the same way Ryder did. Both visiting me the same way, Maddox curls up with me at night, Ryder came into my cell hurt me, then made me feel the pleasure in the pain. Heading back into the bed I’ve taken as mine since Mad brought me here, curling up in the soft sheets, waiting for Mads return. Only comes near me when we crawl’s into bed at night, believing I’m already asleep. Maybe this will be the day he sends me on my way.