18
I filtered out of Book Boyfriends Wanted with everyone else. Since I arrived with Goldie, she was my ride home, but I wasn’t completely ready to leave yet.
“Are you okay?” Goldie asked.
I stood on the sidewalk and looked at O’Kelley’s. I was still scared. There were still a lot of unknowns. But I wanted to be brave and give us a chance.
“I think so,” I said after a minute.
“Do you want me to wait for you? I don’t mind. But if he’s going to give you a ride home, that’s okay, too.”
“I don’t even know if he’s here.”
“He’s always there. And if he wasn’t, I think he’d show up if you asked him to.”
“Am I crazy?” I asked her. I felt crazy. I felt like I hadn’t felt since I was half my age and was with Nick. When I was young and free and thought I had the whole world in front of me. I’d
