I flopped down on the couch in the front sitting room’s couch and pulled my knees up to my chest. I rested my cheek on top of my knees and closed my eyes, allowing the warmth from the fire to caress my skin. It was comforting, but still wasn’t enough to soothe the worries and doubts from my mind. I was scared senseless. I was proud of myself for keeping it so well hidden though. There was no need to worry anyone else with my troubles. This was something I had to figure out for myself. And despite all my big words and thoughts for change, I had no idea what I was doing or how to go about implementing what I wanted. There was no one here to guide me. Tell me what to do and how to do it. No one to teach me how to be a queen or how to lead and deal with issues the people will certainly have. I
