Smiling stiff

Smiling stiff 2

' what do she want from me, maybe it the new way of bullying this days' she thought.

Safara decided not to say anything and took her bag from the floor and walked to the school building.

“ what make you like this?” asked the girl in blue.

’ what really make me like this?, I used to be a happy girl in pink, dancing with joy like a headless girl, so pure and good but I was spray with dirt, I asked for it to be clean why anyone noticed?, I shouted why don't anyone hear me ?, I have a opinion and choice, why don't anyone listen?, I thought I was suppose to be the main lead of my life but why do I just feel like a pass by, I want to hide , hide away from it, burying it dip down no one can reach or see, so I saw a clown, no matter what he does people laugh because he always smiles and he is happy, at least he has a place where he can be himself and be happy, how I wish I am a clown with a smile, never be sad , I want to dance in joy and never know pain’ Safara think to herself.

“ you don't have to lock it up, hiding it makes you weak” said the girl in blue.

“ what do you know, what do you want , quickly take it and leave ” Shouted Safara angrily.

She was angry , she felt like the girl is doubting her believe, all her emotions pour out, weirdly enough, it was like it has found a comfortable place to come out and don't want to hide anymore, Safara do not like this feeling, it makes her weak and sad but her face is hurting from smiling all days .

“ I want to be your friend ” said the girl in blue.

Safara look at the girl in blue in disbelief, she do not know what kind of emotions waged through her but it felt warm and nice, as tears her eyes .

‘ how long have I cried, i don't think I will remember’ thought Safara.

“ do you want to be my friend ? ” asked the girl in blue.

In fact the girl in blue is very nervous, she looked at Safara standing in front of her nervously, she feels that she do not worth been her friend.

She use to be in darkness, home was like a war with two captains fighting, throwing weapons at each other , she is used to it, the sound of the war is like a music to her ear but then one of the captains leaves, so the war became hers, she couldn't defend herself because she has a little weapon, so she is always defeated, she will seat in her room hugging her knees , crying and looking for comfort, she wish , maybe there is a place in high with peace waiting for her, one day she saw a news of a lonely girl finding peace and everyone remembering her, maybe if she find peace she will be known, they will help defeat the evil captain.