Her Alpha Twin mates (book #3)

melt down

Alora POV

I can't believe what I have done. I've been pulled off a pack member that I swore to protect. What kind of Luna does that. I didn't really give him a chance to explain himself. Instead, I got wrapped up in my own head, lost to my f****d up experience.

Fuck. This is a mess. How did I f**k up so much.

I look down at my hands and see my knuckles swollen but covered in his blood.

My head is finally catching up to my actions, and I look on in horror at the man lying on the ground knocked unconscious with blood pouring from his nose, lip, and a cut above his eye.

I look from him and to my bloody hands.

I feel sick to my stomach with how far I'd gone.

I lost control of myself, and I'm going to be sick.

'Veda' I choke out her name, not understanding how this could happen.

'I'm sorry, I couldn't break through your mental wall,' and I feel the hurt and guilt rolling off of her 'I.. I don't.' I couldn't find the words.

"What happened?" Chris asked, looking between me, Holly and Donna.

"I.." I still couldn't find the words, but I heard Holly start to explain "he was attacking a she-wolf, Luna confronted him and he attacked, Lu-" but I couldn't listen, I had to go. I need his blood off of me.

I ran. I did the opposite of what I should have done and ran. The opposite of what a good Luna should do.

Ran from my mistake.

Ran from my responsibilities.

Ran from the bloodied man.

I ran as fast as my legs would carry me, and I didn't stop until I was in our room.

I slammed the door shut, hoping whoever was racing after me didn't come in.

My heart is racing, my forhead is sweating, and my hands are shaking.

"Please, Alora, let me in." I hear Donna say with a soft knock.

I wipe my hair away from my face, and I feel the wetness on my face from my tears.

I go to the bathroom to splash my face with some cold water.

But as I look up at myself in the mirror, I see the blood on my hands have smeared onto my face and are mingled with my tears.

Shit.

I need to scrub the blood away. I quickly shut and lock the bathroom door and turn on the shower. I kick off my trainers, but as I look down at myself to strip, I see blood. Blood on my top.

I can't help the sob, and with my almost non existant energy, I climbed into the shower. I scrub my hands and face, wanting rid of the blood. I tried to scrub my bloody top wanting all evidence of my f**k up gone. My legs give out, and before I know it, I'm sat on the shower floor with the steaming hot water spraying over me as I sob.

I can't believe what I have done.

The whole time I've been in our room, I've heard knocking and pleads to open the door.

I feel devastated and ashamed at myself and how I lost control.

I thought all my s**t was over with. It's been years. I've found my family and my mates. How could it still be bothering me, I buried it deep in a tight box with no escape, so how could it sneak up on me like that.

I'm not so sure I should be a Luna when I could easily lose the lock that held my past away.

I hurt a member without even thinking about it. I took it across the line without listening, without talking it through, and yes, I know he tried to hurt Jenna, but he should be given a proper punishment.

I think if I actually defended myself and Jenna, then I wouldn't feel this disgusting, I beat him to a pulp without knowing. All I could see, smell, and feel was Sid. I punished Sid for what he did, not Paul, and that is the worst part.

'Veda, I'm sorry.' she must be so disappointed in me. 'I'm not disappointed, I'll always have your back,' she replies, and I lose it more. She is so understanding with me. She's an amazing wolf and was born to be a Luna, but I've messed it up.

I feel her love and understanding blanket me, giving me the strength I need.

There's a knock on the bathroom door and a rattle of the door handle, a sigh came as they realised the door was locked.

I can't smell anything because I have been crying, but whoever it is can go away. I have no intention of opening the door.

I ignore the knocking, but as soon as I hear Aiden and Austins voices, my sobs start again.

"Please, baby, let us in," " Are you ok?" I hear them both say at the same time.

I don't want to deal with them at the minute.

I'm angry at them for blocking me out, telling Ruby where they were going and also not being here when I needed them.

"Leave me alone." I say, hoping they will listen, but it doesn't seem so.

They knock again.

"I don't want to talk to you, go away," I say, my voice stronger this time.

I take a deep breath and stand, peeling my soaking wet clothes off and chucking them on the floor.

I decided to wash and try and centre myself before I had to face them.

"Please, let us in," Austin says through the door, but I ignore him.

'Mates are worried,' Veda said, but I don't answer because I need to focus on getting my head on right to deal with them.

I scrub my body until it was red and washed my hair. I rince the conditioner out and turn off the shower.

I towel dry my hair and body before wrapping the towel around myself.

I take a few more deep but shakey breaths before I open the door.

Both my mates are at the door, but as they reach for me, I dodged them. "Don't" is all I said, walking away from them and into the walk-in closet. It's spacious in here, plenty of room to dress.

I switch on the light and close the door, not wanting my mates to follow me.