The Affair Revenge

Chapter 28

Cami

I hate myself for not seeing the truth sooner than later. How can i be so blind. He was worst than all the other guys i been trying to stay away from.

“Ugh what the f*** kind of nasty s*** did i get myself into” i felt so disgusted with my self.

“First thing first i gonna get myself tested. And he better of not given me something either. I swear i would chop his d*** off and shive it down his throat. See how he likes having push down there.”

I try best to not think about any of this since i am still at work. Beside everyone already looked at me crazy when i throw the stapler.

I went on through out my day as normal as i can. Trying my best to not show my inter feelings to the world.

The last thing i need right now. Was someone to ask me “what’s wrong, are you okay”.

Because “NO MOTHER F***ers i am not okay, every thing is just the opposite of okay. My whole relationship with my so call soulmate was a lie!”

But i can’t say that. And i won’t.

I don’t need to or want to explain anything to anyone. At least not to them i don’t.

There is only one person who would understand me.The one who i can face this tragic love story too. Only because she was going through it as well. For longer than i was. It may if been my fault as well.

When Eve came to me, i didn’t want to listen to anything she has to say. I thought she was a psycho. Who couldn’t get over her ex and found a way to try to creep her way back in or something.

I thought of all less of Eve. I shouldn’t of done that. I was wrong, i should of been a friend and let her speak.

For a wife to have the courage to face her husband’s mistress, that had to be hard.

I would of never try to speak to her. I simply would of told him to kiss my a** and get the f*** out my house.

I mean who wants to sit down and talk to the girl whom been sleeping with their man. Little long with someone who was in love with him.

All that went throw the window the second i found out Mark was still married.

I have told him before i would not be the other women. And he just lied his way in to my panties.

And my dumba*** pathetic of a human, fell for all his charms and lies.

“How could i of been so blind!” I couldn’t but have the feeling coming in and out all day.

So with everything going on i keep my personal life to my self. I went on to making calls, filing clients paper works. Answering emails and attending meetings all day.

*deep exhale*

“Thank god the day went day fast. Now i just have to clean up my office and turn in my work for the day.” Feeling so relief i made it to the end of the work day with letting my emotions through.

I enter my feeling like complete s***. Not only from the day i had but from the news Jason had for me.

I don’t bother to cook dinner tonight. I just heat up some frozen meal i had. I took my coat off and heels too. Just push them to the side of the closet. I would fix it tomorrow, i was kind of glad i had tomorrow off anyways.

I grab a bottle of wine and my meal. Headed up the stairs and into bed. And no i didn’t get under the sheets. I just sat down over the comforter and blanket i had on the bed.

I turn on the tv to watch some Grey Anatomy. “Time to unwind and watch my favorite show”

After i finish watching the episode where Christine was outside the hospital in the cold yelling about whatever pissed her off. She slip and fell and opps a huge ice impaired her. And of course Owen comes and saves her.

*scoff*

“Ohh yeah right b***h, that not love at first sight”

All these show make you believe thats how love is. And relationship works hard. But nah, they don’t have a clue how it is for real.

I throw aways my trash and drank up my glass before i headed to the bathroom.

I took a long hot steamy shower. Scrub my body down to clean everything from the last year or so. My skin had turn more red then pune.

I pick out my most comfortable sleeping wear. Just some baggie shorts and any graphic t-shirt. I brush my hair and blow dry it. I put some cleanser on my face and head to the night stand by my bed. I open it up and pull of a lotion bottle to rub all over my body. As the tv show was now playing a different episode.

I pure my self anything glass of wine as i grab out my phone from my bag. And charge it on my night stand. I then went over to another drawer and took out my laptop.

I open the laptop and went to my email. I scam through all my emails until i found the one Jason had sent me with all the information.

*take a deep inhale*

I took another sip from my glass as i know i was gonna read some total bulls*** right now. But i know i have to read it for myself.

Opening up Jason email with every detail he found on Eve and Mark. I had read everything over and over again. Trying to see anything that made sense to me.

“Wow what kind of f***ing s**** was this.” As i read the last page in the email

“He is not the guy i fell in love with. And i don’t want to be.”i closed my laptop and finish drinking my glass.

Reading all this information i see where all the lies line up. I knew when he lied to his wife and was with me. I found dated where he was gone but wasn’t with me. Founding more and more dated aline with his cards i see photos of random women he was with.

Some women he hasn’t seen more than once. Others he seen them multiple times. Mark was simply a dirty dog that doesn’t wipe his paws before entering a home.

“How long has Eve knew. Or is she as new to this as i was?”

The thought ran through my head. Trying to remember what she told me that night.

But as my thoughts came back, i relieves i didn’t let her talk. I was cold heart to her, i brush her aside when she come to me.

I had just met her, i didn’t want to believe her words. I didn’t know at the time that she was trying to warn me.

“Ohh gush i told her about my pregnancy and what Mark said about her”

Feeling like a complete bafon

“She must of been hurt, knowing i could of has her husband child.” A tear come down my cheek as the feeling off my loss come back into my head.

I remember asking Mark about kids. He told me he always wanted them but Eve struggle with getting pregnant. Then once she started to get abusive towards him. He told her he couldn’t had kids.

That mad Eve more angry. He thought it would fix the problem but it made things worst for him. That’s when he started to stay late at work and stay in hotels.

Now i know that he really just didn’t want her kids. Or at least he couldn’t wait, so he look else were. Or maybe he the one who didn’t want to have kids. And he just made up excuses after excuses. Just so he didn’t have to have them.

“I’m glad i didn’t have his baby” before this would ache my heart. And now i rise with some joy.

This was a sign that he wasn’t the one. I couldn’t imagine being in the state i am. And had to deal with a child on top of it all. I wouldn’t want to have to explain to them how terrible person their father is.

The memory of that awful day play back in my head. I remember it very clearly.

*Flash back*

(Warning this my trigger some people)

I remember waking to a normal day. Nothing was different beside the little life growing inside of me. I was happy and over the moon. I got out of bed to stare at my loving fiancé as he sleep soundly on his side of the bed.

And just like that acid reflex hit me.”ahh i got to throw up” i throw my hand over my mouth and ran to the bathroom.

Pull the toilet seat up and stuck my head over it. Allowing the puke fest to run its cruse.

After my routine morning sickness, i felt a very sharp pain in my low abdominal. “Ouch, f**k i feel like a have to s**** a kidney stone”

With the cramping crashing my insides i hold my stomach very tightly. Trying to breath through the pain

“Aahhh what the f***” the pain was so bad i couldn’t get up from the floor.

Once the pain ease a little i got up pull my panties down to seat on the toilet.

Feeling the cramp pulsing with every pain. I felt a huge gush of stinky sticky goo fall out.

“Ugh what was that?” Arching my back with the pain as if it help at all.

I was a bit afraid to get up and look in the toilet bowl.But i suck it up and made the movement to grab toilet paper and wipe myself.

As i wrap a few sheets on my hand i wipe myself and as i glance at the paper i was chucks of blood with period blood as well.

“Is this spotting?” I shake my head trying to clam my self down. Trying to not think anything bad.

Went on the clean my self all the way and throw my dirty panties in the trash.

I turn around and saw a horror show in the towel. I hold my tears back, inside i knew all that blood and a soak bloody panty wasn’t normal.

I call the doctor and he told me to come in for a check out. With my heart racing with thought. I hold Marks hand as we wait in the waiting room.

With every cramp i felt, i just bite the inside of my mouth. Knowing something was wrong.

“Everything gonna be okay baby, don’t worry” Mark try to clam me down

I didn’t tell him the full reason why i call the doctor. I just woke him up and said i had really bad cramps and the nurse told me to come in.

After waiting 30 minutes, they call us to the back. They ask my to undress from the waist down and put a paper sheet over myself.

Mark held my hand through the whole process. I was glad he was here to go through all if this with me. I didn’t want to be alone.

“Okay you may feel a but pressure.” Said a nurse who put a condom over ultrasound wand and inserted it inside me.

I closed my eyes and lay my head down for the whole thing.The screen wasn’t facing us, so we couldn’t see anything anyways.

After a few minutes of the nurse looking at the screen and typing on her keyboard she took the wand out and gave me a ton of paper to clean myself.

“Okay, go ahead and clean yourself and get dress. The doctor will be in to talk to you two in a little” smiling at us as if everything was just okay

I look at Mark as i sat back down on the chair. And we both look over at the slightly open door. We could see the nurse speaking to the doctor about us. But can’t hear them.

“Just wait here baby.” Let go of my hand and walk out the room

I look over and watch how Mark ask both the doctor and nurse what going in. Again i couldn’t hear anything. But i just watch their facial expression.

The nurse and a amush face and walk away while handing a folder to the doctor. As the doctor explain to Mark about the baby. I saw Mark gasp with shock eyebrows. And the doctor place a hand on his shoulder to ease him.

Thats when i knew everything wasn’t okay. I knew with out hearing. I knew what the nurse has seen and what the doctor had told Mark.

I was losing my baby. And i held my tummy as i cry and cry. Feeling every second go by, every pain pushing out the life i would never endure.

(End of Flashback)

Cause face it, Mark was a terrible person. For putting women through s***. Mainly for going behind his wife back for all these years.

“Thank god i’m not going to marry him either. I’m calling everyone tomorrow and cancel everything.” With angry and pride i feel the urge to get everything out the way now. But it was late and dark outside now.

“I just can’t wait until i disconnect from Mark from everything. I don’t want to have no ties with. I don’t even want to see his face again!” At that moment i let my rage take over and grab all his clothes and throw it outside.

“Thank god it raining, that his s*** soak there in the mud” grabbing all his shirts, pants, underwear, ties and shoes. I throw all of it out the window”

*evil giggle*

“Good for you Cami, f*** him, and f*** everything he ever did!” I spit out the window as a last memento

I look at the clock and told myself to sleep for tonight. Tomorrow was going to be a long day.

And i did just that of course after watching a few more episodes of my show.

The next day

I woke up feeling joy with full energy to get all my ducks in a row.

So i jump out of bed and started my day. I made my bed with all these god d*** throw pillows. As i finish i look at my made bed and felt gross. Just really really dirty and gross.

“f**k it i’ll just buy a new one.” A grab all the sheets off the mattress and throw them out. I didn’t want to have to sleep in the bed where Mark and I thought we would have a life together.

I grab my mattress solution and spray it all over the mattress. Sparkle the baking soda and let it sit there for awhile. After that i wipe down any stains and then vacuum up all the powder.

*nose inhaling clean air*

“Ahhh so much better now”

My bed look so naked with just two pillows but at least i wouldn’t think of that boy again.

I went on to head to my car and decided to start my day off fresh.

“Hello world, single Cami is coming in” i put my glass on, roll down my windows and speed off the driveway with music blasting.

Singing on too of my lungs as i enjoy the world a bit better than yesterday. I felt like a whole new person.

With a a disgusting slag holding me down.

“I can have another you by tomorrow

so don’t you ever get the thinking

you’re irreplaceable” hell yes Beyoncé, my girl classic hitting good right now

“You got me twisted

you must not know about me, you must not know about me

I can have another you in a minute

Matter facts he’ll be here in a minute

Baby”

Ahh i love my girl Beyoncé

“I’m not a piece of cake

For you to just discard

While you walk away

With the frosting on my heart

So i’m taking back

What’s mine, you’ll miss

The slice of heaven

that i gave to you last night”

Melanie Martinez would always be my go to artist. I just love her music. This was one of her hit songs that got her to the top

Made to a fast food drive thru and i pick up something to eat. And of course i had to grab some kind of coffee to drink too.

Drove around town for a bit, i look around and figure i need to start being out more. Enjoy the fresh air and see the new candy man around here.

Wasn’t hard as there are a lot of good looking men around. Just not they type to settle down, you know. But at this rate i’m not looking for something serious for awhile. Just a nice piece of cake to take a bite of here and there.

*laughing*

Hhaha you guys get my joke, came back to the song. Okay yeah i’m cheesy i know.

But hey i’m single now. Who cares, and yes i know i haven’t broken it off from Mark officially yet. But basically I AM SINGLE.

I will tell him soon, i just need to get everything together at first and then talk to Eve.

“I need to go see her. She needs to know the truth.” After all, she came to me with good intentions. And i spit acid in her face.

Now that i have all the lies in front if me. I can see who Mark truly is. All the dark part of him. Just UGLY.

But over all Eve deserves to know the truth too. She needs to know everything that Mark has been hiding from her.

I hate to see her hurt, i was growing to like her so much. We connect as really good friends. It was odd, it was like that beat friend connection you had after knowing each other for years. And i found that with Eve.

It would be nice after this, she will still see me as a friend. And if not, well i would understand completely.

It just might be too soon to see her though. She probably hates me afterwards. I will give her some time and hope she forgives me. And then i will head over to see her.

I just, first i need to get my stuff settle and then i will go.

I even help her get out of the marriage if she will accept my help. As a friend, i wouldn’t want her to stay with him.

He had all these years to change and he didn’t. He just took advantage of her and treated her like nothing.

I’m just happy i’m getting my self out of the mix and going to start my life. I just need to help Eve as well.