Melody Of Love

I Don’t Know What I Want

Rose POV

His kisses on my neck are so soft. I just wanted to get lost in them. It felt as if he’s kissing me out of love. He slowly moves his head to look into my eyes while he takes my hand in his, slowly kissing on my fingers, without breaking the eye-contact. I felt my heart skipping a beat at the intensity his gaze held.

He then started leaning towards my lips, his one hand went to my waist, pulling me more into himself while his other hand came to cup my face. I felt my breath hitch before he pressed his lips to mine, a feeling of utter bliss, making my insides melt. It was magical, sparks erupting throughout my body. His tongue came out to lick my lower lip, and I parted mine to take in some much-needed breath.

He instantly responded to it, sliding his tongue inside my mouth. The kiss deepened, intensifying the sparks flowing through my body, as my back arched up, wanting to get more of him. His hand moved from my face to my chest, feeling me and leaving a trail of shocks behind his touch.

He finally broke the kiss, and slightly pulled away from me, only to trail his lips to my cheek, then to my ear, before kissing and sucking on the sensitive spot just below my ear. A moan escaped my lips, and I started feeling wet at an indescribable place.

“Mi-Michael…” I wanted to ask him to stop, remind him that our marriage is not a real one, but it came out more like a moan than calling him.

“Hmm…” he said between kisses.

There is no denying that I feel something for him, but I can't let this happen. Our marriage is not a real one. I need to stop this. We shouldn't be doing this.

“Michael, stop.” This time I said more firmly, causing him to stop and look at me. “Please” I added, but somewhere, a small part of me wanted him to continue. f**k! I don’t know what I want anymore.

He looked lost for a moment, his eyes filled with desire, l**t, and something else which I wasn’t able to point out. He immediately took a few steps away from me before putting his hand in his hair and looking at me. I looked away from him, not wanting to meet his gaze or look at his beautiful face. I could feel the tension in the air around us, and is it awkward? I just wanted the ground to open up and swallow me.

I walked over to the nightdress section in the walk-in closet, took the first dress that came to my hand, and ran into the washroom, not knowing how to avoid this situation. I put the dress on the hanger and looked at my reflection in the mirror. Cheeks flushed, hair all over the place. My fingers moved to my lips, which are swollen from the kiss.

The kiss was nothing like what I’ve ever thought a kiss could be. It felt as if he was kissing my soul. It felt magical. Oh, God! What’s happening with me? This is a contract marriage, and I have to stay with Michael for a year. I can’t allow myself to have feelings towards him. I can’t allow things to become more complicated than they are. I should distance myself from him.

By the time I took my shower and came back, Michael wasn’t in the room, for which I was relieved since I wasn’t ready to face him after our little makeout session. I went to bed hoping to fall asleep before he comes back.

It’s hardly 2days since we’re married and my feelings are all over the place, God knows what’s gonna happen before the end of the contract. And the worst part is that I don’t know what Michael feels for me. But, if this continues to be the case, then I’m pretty sure that my heart is not safe in this contract marriage.

Today was a great day, I got a chance to see the person he was, the real him and I guess we kinda became friends. Okay, he became mine but I don’t know if I am his or not. I’ve read a lot about him in the tabloids but he’s a completely different person, he’s nothing like what the media portrays him.

Am I falling for him? I think I am… I don’t know, but do I like him? Hell, yes.

And is it a one-sided thing? No, I saw it in his eyes, the s****l attraction is not one-sided.

Michael is so easy to love. It’s not like I didn’t see him doing those simple things like holding my hand, supporting me, arranging the best neurologist for Kate. He didn’t even have to come to the hospital in the first place, but he came. He does these small things that somehow manage to melt my heart, it’s very difficult not to fall in love with him.

But I need to be careful because all of this, this marriage, him taking care of me, all of these, it’s not going to last forever. We will go our separate ways after the contract comes to an end and if I let my feelings get involved in this, even after knowing how this thing is going to end, then I’d be the biggest fool ever.

There’s no way in hell that Michael could love me. He has girls throwing themselves at him all the time. I’m not even good looking. He probably had seen thousands of women who are better than me in everything and probably would have had s*x with many who are more experienced than me. I don’t even know how to properly kiss someone.

I don’t know why he wanted to marry me. He must've had his reasons and once this contract is over, he'll leave me and marry Liza. They are engaged, which means they love each other right? So it’s me who should be careful with this marriage thing. I can't let him get closer to me. I can't let him make his way through my heart. I need to put my walls up. I should stay away from him.