Because I Hear the Voices

Part One ...Sean

For years, I have been wondering

For years, I have been left in the dark

I do not understand the reasoning,

But I know it left its mark.

I don’t know how I feel - 

And what’s worse I don’t know why?

All I know is that I am not ready yet

It’s not yet time for me to fly,

When I try to express my anger

I somehow have to cry

And I don’t know how to express my feelings

That’s why a part of me had to die,

How easy it was to be a child

How easy it was to understand

How hard it is to grow up now

And somehow learn to stand,

I don’t know what to do

And I don’t know where to go

I don’t even know what I can say

Or if I’ll ever know.