#45
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Ria's point of view
What were they telling?
That I like Akash, no no no...
Sorry, they said I love him.
How can I love him?
This is not possible?
He is such a nerd.
He is an engineer.
And I hate engineers.
I never can be like that, he is not my type and I am not his type.
Are they right?
I am really in love or what?
I do not think that I am in love.
No, no this cannot happen.
Yeah!
I am not in love.
If I was in love I would have known.
How can I be so silly.
Yeah!
Falling in love is not my cup of tea.
How can I be in love with the person who does not even care for me.
Yeah!
He does not care for me.
I really cannot fall for him.
This cannot be possible.
Risky things are okay.
But taking this big risk, I cannot afford.
I really cannot afford to do so.
If I will fall for him.
I know what the result will be.
He is never ever going to fall for me.
Never.
I am not at all his type.
So forget it.
He is not going to fall for me..
He is so studious for him studies are everything.
He cannot look up to me.
I am no one to him.
He will really regret being mine.
What will people think about me.
Yes they will make number of dramas.
They will say this girl is after him..
Yes I should stop myself right here only.
If I will fall for him things will not be in my hand all my education will go.
He will not have any problem.
He will be happy.
Because his education will not be affected..what will be affected is my education.
Nothing else.
I will be on stake.
Nothing else.
Things will be put of control.
And I will not be able to control.
That f**k Atul will be happy seeing me like this.
After all he wants this only from me.
He wants me to suffer.
I cannot let this s**t take place.
I do know what people think about me.
I cannot make my fun.
Yes I cannot hand my prestige in others hand.
I am just fed up.
I do not know what to do.
One side he is there who keeps me irritating and on the other hand he is there.
He does not even listens to me.
He does not pays heed to me.
He thinks I am not his type.
And on the other hand Atul is there.
Who thinks that I am the one who is for him.
Amongst both the feelings I am pissed off.
I do not want to hurt him.
But this is the reality that I do not like him.
How can I just say things which I do not mean.
This is it.
Who wants to hurt anyone purposely.
But it is OK.
One day he will get me.
I thought one fine day he will surely get me.
But no.
He never ever got me.
He never even tried to get me.
Why did he not get me.
He said me one question.
He asked me whether I am going to fall for him or not?
I said him, I am not at all going to fall for him.
It is impossible.
How can I just fall for you like this only.
You are not that one.
I did not lie him.
He asked me the same question again.
I again replied him no.
I said no means no.
I cannot fall for you.
He immediately said OK bye
I am not going to talk to you anymore.
After that day Atul never had a convoy with me.
He never was in touch with me.
He did not even listen to me.
I tried to explain myself but he was not at all listening to me.
He was going according to his wish only.
For him my existence was nothing.
He wanted to live his life as per as his desire it was OK.
But we were friends.
He could have respected that.
But he did not want to respect that also.
For him I was his madness.
He wanted me if I will not be in his life he would not be able to survive he said.
What nonsense was that I could not even get.
Like seriously.
He cannot live without me.
Then I also cannot live without your friendship.
I tried to explain myself to him.
Even I had tried social media too to explain him.
But he did not get me.
I tried talking to my different friends and saying what I wanted but he did not..
He said them he does not want to talk to me.
Why?
I am still clueless.
The person whom I liked did not talk listen to me and the person who likes me he also did not pay heed to me.
Why....
Life is so uncertain.
Anything can happen at any moment and anytime.
I never ever imagined this will take place..
It was farewell when things were going very swiftly and nicely.
But that day only took the reverse gear.
That was the turning point of my life.
Things changed that time only.
I never thought Atul will do this thing and Akash will react this way.
That guy confessed his love before everyone.
I could not believe what he was telling is true.
I mean how can it be true, it cannot be factuality.
Things cannot be this way.
It was my mistake also.
When my classmate came to me, I should not have said that Atul loves me genuinely.
His love for me is genuine.
I was the one who said that he loves me.
Instead of that I would have covered things.
but no, in anger I do not even think twice before doing anything.
If i would have thought about that then things would not have gone this way only.
Things would have been better and far way different.
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