The Girl And Her Love

#29

My steps were long because I was like my stuff with him not at all ,I don’t know what I was doing was right or wrong but I was not okay with him having it , now I just wonder from how long he has been into collecting all my stuffs .

He followed me downstairs ,”Ria stop, please don’t do this “.

Rohan was standing there aside thinking that should I say something or keep quiet .

I stopped there throwing all the stuff on the center of the table .

“Stop ,okay I am stopping now just answer me from how long you have been doing this ? What’s the point of collecting it and keeping it as a collection ,just have a look by yourself that these many stuffs of mine you are having it in your drawer ,means who does this ? don’t you think it’s kind of cringe .”

“What is cringe in this ? I have feelings for you and your are telling me it’s kind of cringe for you ,I am exhausted Ria with you ,you have rejected me thousand times for god knows what as on ,I don’t want to take care of your but the thought of you not being okay horrifies ,I feel like a sharp knife has been stabbed in my heart because I cannot see you with someone else ,that is why I do all these things because when you talk to someone else I feel a deep kind of jealously ,inside me ,you think I like irritating you no its not like that ,in real that’s the only way I have got to talk to you and I know it very well that if I will come to talk to you ,you will for sure get irritated and dump and not give a damn about me and talking is a very far ,far away thing ,so tell me what should I do ? I have tried my level best that you say yes to me but every time you find different ways to reject me , I don’t know what to do when I see you because I cannot get my eyes off you ,I don’t want to have feeling for you anymore but what should I do because I am unable to feel this way no one else ,I want to get rid of every thing which I have in me but to be hones I am unable to do Ria .

And these are the only thing I have so just tell me if you will take them too what will I do ? I have collected it because I like collecting things which belong t you “.

I was standing like a statue there that what should I say to him .

He then went and brought a steel kind of tin looking similar to a dustbin and I was like what is going I inside his psyche . I gave a look to Rohan in a hope that he might be having idea that what is going in side him but he was blank too like me .

He then again went and brought a matchstick box ,I was getting a clear image kind of thing like may be he is in a mood of burning things .

“Okay ,do one thing that’s the best option as I cannot let you take things which I have collected because I will continuously think about the thing that you have all the stuff and I will find different ways to get the, back so its better lets end it up here “.

I was like is he serious ? means what does he exactly mean by end it up here .

“Don’t give a blank expression like this to me “.He then collected all the stuff and dumped it inside the steel tin ,I was like is he planning to light all my stuff .

He then handed me the matchbox and asked me to burn the whole thing .

“Ria just do it ,you have been heartless all the time ,now please just for me once in life ,do it for me Ria ,burn all the stuff and end it up here ,because if I will not see things may be it will be easy for me to forget things and in a way you will not be bothered by me ,you hate my presence and all ,and I am telling you once its gone ,its gone burn it .”

I was looking in his eyes they were blood shot ,I was in a dilemma what to do ,for the first time I was thinking this much before doing anything ,god please help me out ,my hands were shaking like these are my stuffs ,how could I burn it ? at the same time I was thinking like maybe ,if I burn it ,It will be the best thing for me and him , what to do ?

“Burn it dammed “. He was loud enough ,his words were like a thunderstorm to my ears ,my throat was dry .

I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe counted 1 2 and 3 . Ria just burn it things will be ended here only ,you wanted it see now you getting it ,he will not irritate you ,he will not get on your nerves anymore just one matchstick and your life will be easier then before .

“Okay ,if you want this ,I will do it for you too “. I said and I was at the verge of burning the whole thing then I saw Rishav’s face and I realized that I cannot let my emotions over power me .

I then threw the match box there and took my bag and left him there my last words were ,”I am not doing anything ,you do it on your own if you want to “.

“Ria ,stop “.

I don’t care now what he says its better I left him with what he wants to because he is a jerk ,he is saying something now but will say something the other day .

“Oh ! so now I get it you ae doing it because you want me to die as your psycho lover right ?”

His words were pissing me now ,he had smug on his face ,I and Rohan were at the verge of leaving but no he wants to have a drama here ,okay now let it be this ways because he doesn’t likes peace .

I then went with full confidence , this Ria , is different she has no emotions inside her . Now he is gone .

“You want me to burn things right ? no problem I will do it for you ,its just a mere thing ,where ‘s the matchbox ?”

Lit the stick and 1 2 and 3 the whole stuff ,”Are you sure ?”. his answer was a , “yes “. Which was more of his ego so then the things were gone .

“See they are burning you wanted it this ways right ? I didn’t wanted to do it but you ,yes you provoked me ,now see the fire in the tin ,maybe this fire will burn your feelings for me too . “

He was having tears in his eyes ,I was not ready to do it but he instigated me to do so .” Let me know if your feelings for me are gone or not .”

I said and left him there ,then only I heard honking of a car ,I was sure this is Aunt ,I asked Rohan to come with me ,we went outside ,she and my mom were there .

My mom was surprised to see me there ,and same reaction was of Aunt .

“Ria what are doing here ?”

“Mom actually we were supposed to do some school stuff here so I had to come here with Rohan and when I heard the honking of the car I came out ,as we ae done with it “.

I then looked at Aunt and she was not upset from me but it was my duty to say sorry ,”Aunt ,I am really sorry for everything last night ,I never wanted to do anything like that but it happed maybe because of the outburst of my emotions .”

She kept a hand on my shoulder than caressed my cheeks .

“I m sorry for everything “. She then hugged me and said ,”It’s okay “ . finally a big burden got off my shoulder’s and heart .

“Come inside ,spend some time and then leave “.

“I am really sorry Aunt but I have assignments to do “. I said ,I just hope that Atul has got an idea that her mother is here and he has got his face back to normal and tin cleared .

My mother was still not convinced with the whole scenario but thank god we left his house and the driver drove us back to my house .