#43
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What is in my fate I do not know. What god has planned for me, I do not know.
I so wish to know everything, but I know, I will not at all know anything.
The guy who is suppose to be my school mate, whom I have never ever looked with that eye, has now occupied a strong place place in my life. We both have been in same class thrice.
But never did we have a convoy with each other. I do not know what is going on now.
Is it me only who is feeling this or he is also going through the same?
Who will tell me this?
I do not think anyone will be able to tell me all these things.
After all who can know our feelings better than us.
Akash will become so close to me I never thought.
I never thought that he will become that part of my life which will be eternal.
I do not know what he is to me, but he is very important to me.
He is not family but he is not less than family.
Even if I want then also I cannot change things.
Yes!
Things cannot change.
He has occupied that place in my heart.
Flashback
I had an eye contact with Akash when I was there at Engineer’s Hall. I was there with my friend there. There I met him. He is my schoolmate. But never did I think about him like that.
This is the first time when I went there, and had this feeling.
He was so gentle to us.
He was being very kind to me.
We were standing outside, then suddenly he came and said to go there, as there are number of people there. You might not be comfortable there. So, it will be better if you go that side. They are not at all good people. So, it is better that you both should go there and stand.
That gesture of him was enough to take my heart.
I was very happy and pleased by this behaviour of him.
It was so affable.
I mean who does not like a guy being protective.
He was being protective for us. He wanted us to be safe enough.
For a while I was very glad.
Soon that feeling was not there.
I was engaged in my work and he was too.
We were there to take part in a competition.
After giving the competition, I was outside.
When again I saw him, that look of him was very good.
For a while only I was staring him. I just loved his spikes.
His hairstyle has my heart.
I cannot forget that.
The other thing which I liked other than his behavior is his hairstyle.
His hairstyle has created a soft corner in my heart.
I do not know whether it is more than crush or something, but yeah! His hairstyle has my heart.
Seeing him in that hairstyle I had passed my 2 years. That hair which used to move to and FRO his forehead, was bliss to my eyes. Everyday waking up and going to school with an eagerness to see him grew.
I do not know how it grew so, but yeah!
Akash was in next class. I daily used to go along with Disha in the corridors just to have glimpse of him.
He was also aware what was going on but we used to keep shut.
Disha….
Where are you?
I am at my home>
What about you?
I am …..
What happen?
What are you thinking…..
Nothing….
What happen….
Why are you thinking so much.
Ria tell.
Did that Atul anything to you?
Do not ask me….
I am just pissed off.
I really do not know what to tell you.
Why what happen?
Did he really do anything to you?
Yes!
Do not ask me…..
Like seriously, yesterday only he came to my house.
For what?
He was having doubt.
He wanted to solve accounts questions, but he was unable to solve them.
What?
Why was he not able to solve the questions?
Actually, you do one thing you only ask him.
What…..
Arey I was joking…
Why are you taking me seriously?
please do not take, I knew you were in a bad mood that is why I was helping you out.
Wow!
By taking things more in depth you were trying to make my mood gel up?
Like seriously?
Are you serious?
Do not talk to me….
I do not want to talk to you anymore.
What is this Ria….
Why cannot you forget everything, just forget it.
Do not think so much.
You will not at all get anything by thinking so much…..
Arey Disha you are not getting me, what he did was purposely.
Whatever he did was to be with me.
Yes!
He wanted to do things like that just because he wanted to be with me.
He wanted to be close to me and spend time with me. And I am really not interested in doing so.
I do not want anything such.
He can do anything and I will accept it.
It is not at all done. He needs to know his limits.
Beyond that he just cannot go.
That is it…….
Ach tell me one thing…
He does not goes tuition or what.
He goes for accounts tuition.
He can very well ask questions from there, sir will clear all his doubts.
But no he has to ask questions from me only.
And by the way to be specific enough I am not at all good in accounts.
I really do not know how to solve those hectic questions of accounts.
But yes! I can understand accounts. If I want I can score good marks too.
But he does not gets this.
He wants to irritate me like anything.
Why the hell does he do so?
He can at least think for a while by doing so he is insulting himself as well as me.
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