#37
1154 Words
Ria's point of view
Something was there in between us.
I do not know how to describe this but yes there was something between us for sure.
I do not know how to say.
But the words cannot describe my feeling.
I cannot leave things like this.
The relationship was unnamed.
It keeps me worrying.
I want to figure out things but cannot see anything.
Why is this thing happening to me.
I really do not know why.
Between us there was a weird thing which I do not understand till date.
It is a special feeling.
Those moments were very close to me.
I do not know how I will live without him.
But yeah those feelings are special.
In my eyes you and only you are there.
I do not know how to forget you.
I do not know why you are there in my heart
I want you to not be there
But still you occupy that place in my heart.
Even after struggling so much you hold that special place in my heart.
Akash what are you to me?
What actually you mean to me?
It has been 5 years since I have not seen you but I really do not know how to live without you.
Each and every day I think about you.
You are always there on my mind.
I had crush on you from the moment I had that eye contact with you when we were Engineers Hall.
That very affable gesture of you had my heart.
Never have I felt like that before.
You were so gentle to us
I do not know why that thing is still in my mind.
That gesture of yours created number of series.
That was the moment which brought number of changes in my life.
I really do not know how to handle things.
Why do I still think about you.
Where are you.
My mind always wants to know about you .
What was between us that lead things to go this far.
It was hard to get close to you like this.
I never thought I will be so close to you.
The path on which I used to go all those path are closed.
I really do not know which way to go.
I have anger in me.
My heart aches at times when I think about you.
Why means why.
Why did I even happen to meet you.
Why?
What is my destination.
The whole night goes this way.For once only please come.
I want to say things which were unsaid.
I know we are no more friends but we can be.
For once only please come.
I want to be with you only.
I know we were just mates.
I know there is no love left between us.
There is no guarantee when we shall meet.
Why cannot you come.
I know you do not want to see me.
But I want to see you.
Please come to me.
If we happen to meet each other please handshake with me.
There will be no harm in doing so.
We can still be good to each other Akash.
Looking at my eyes you can show me gestures.
If someone will be with you you can smile from distance.
But smile should so pleasing that we should agree to each other.
Do not do things which you do not want to.
Why will you do that.
The flowers which are closed in my diary I shall destroy for you.
If any one talks about me say that you don't want to talk about this.
Say it was your mistake and you do not want to repeat this mistake.
But that mistake was a pleasant mistake of your life.
You should not deny that we did not know each other.
I know we are not friends.
But something is within us.
We do not know what it is but it is there.
Whenever you will sleep you will surely think about me too.
You will not at all regret thinking about me.All my wishes are lone.
Everything has changed.
I do not know what will happen now.
How will things go.
There is darkness all around in my life.
Everyone has become stranger to me.
Your world is nothing to me.
I don't want anything to ruin everything.
I thought we had something in common.
But I do not know why things became like this.
At least something for better could have taken place.
But no nothing such took place.
Everything is destroyed.
The moon is not mine.
The sky is not mine.
Things which I thought was for no use.
I really do not know what is for me.
I don't think there is something which will help me out.
All my things will get no more happiness.
I thought things were mutual but no nothing is mutual.
I was the one who was thinking too much.
Unnecessarily I was thinking too much you were not mine.
I do not know why things turned this way.
I want you to come back.
I want to live with you.
How will I live without you.
Why did I fall for you.
Why the hell.
Why did the distance come in between us.
Your remembrances are there in my heart .
You are there in my memory.
My heart searches you.
Why are you not coming in my life again.
Damn why.
I want you to be part of my life.
I do not know why you seem so close to me.
I do not know why
I cannot forget you .
I want things to change.
As soon as possible I want things to change.
I cannot live like this.
How far will I go this way.
Why is my God angry with me.
I wish things come to place very soon.
All these years I have had thought of you only.
Nothing is possible without you.
For once only you come back in my life.
I want you to be part of my life.
I want to know what you mean to me.
I keep on seeing the path for your arrival.
The days are passing by but my mind is with you only.
You are like dhruv star in my life.
I want things to come back to track.
I know not why and how you became so important to me Akash.
The feelings for you are growing more and more day by day.
I want to be with you more and more day by day.
I want you in my life.
All my worries will go away when I will be with you.
For once only come here.
Why cannot you come here.
Things will be certain.
I want to talk with you and know why this happened to me.
Why things worsened like this.
Why the hell did I fall pray of this.
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