The Girl And Her Love

# 20

I don’t know how to exactly express myself right now , there is a severe ache in my heart , ache of discovering that the only person I got a crush on recently already has someone else as his girlfriend in his life ,I know everyone has right of living their life on their way but still its painful . I was that much pathetic that I didn’t cared about anything or anyone and the only place I thought suitable for me in the current situation was the roof top .

I went there it’s basically a place where all the water tanks are present ,it was having a different level calmness which was need of the hour for me ,I really wanted peace because the recent waves which have hit me hard on my face and ears I am still into it ,I don’t know how things will go or how I will get out of it all I know right now that I cannot take it anymore as I am tired like anything right now ,I have no energy to fight back ,ask Atul that why he has to be a bastard always ,why he has to do things which piss me off , I just wonder if someone likes the other then just let me know what happiness they get in doing all these rubbish things , in hurting them in ruining their day if this is what people plan to do after liking someone then it is better they do not do anything .

There was a small stool kept there it was kind of in a dilapidated state anyways I don’t care I need a place to sit so without wasting my time , I took a seat on it ,my hands were cupping my face ,I was looking at the open sky ,thanks god it was a windy cloudy day or else the heat would have burnt my skin ,after this much of things in one and half day I was feeling like okay Ria so your parents know the whole story now and even after knowing everything they went to his place and why just to get a sort out thing done ,Wow! Bravo ,now Atul doesn’t gives a damn about anyone why because his likeness for me is an open secret now ,slow claps for this thing ,his mother who always use to adore me now for sure must be thinking ill of me doesn’t matter how much I detest that brat or psycho head somewhere or the other I liked his mother ,this is not the end my classmates now also have an idea that I was into Gaurav and they must be thinking that I rejected Atul because of Gaurav but that’s not the truth is even if someone else would have not been there my answer for his proposal would have been a no only because I could for a moment consider him as my friend but never ever more than that because the truth is I am not interested in him ,I don’t have anything for him so how could I just say a yes for a relationship with him .keeping everything aside the most painful thing right now I am feeling is that I can’t have any kind of future with Gaurav ,why the hell my life is so messed up ,why ? Is it just because I didn’t accepted that brat’s proposal .

I was that much exhausted that I wasn’t able to breathe so the only thing I felt like doing was bowing my head down on my crossed hand and doing nothing just calming my head and the tsunami inside it .

Then only the recess bell rang I guess the recess time was over but my legs were numb and weak I had no energy to face anyone because I have no energy or a heart to listen or take anything because I have my own limits which I cant anyone to test anymore so I thought of skipping the classes will be the best alternative .

I could then hear someone’s foot steps I was like who must be here by this time because the bell for classes already rung so it must be the peon uncle or maybe Aunt . Anyways I don’t give a damn I am not moving .

“Hey , Ria so you are here “. I turned and it was Rishav I was amazed to see him there means I am literally blessed to have him because by his condition I could make out how much effort he would have taken to find me because he was heavily breathing .

I hurriedly wiped the tears on my eyes because I didn’t wanted him to see me crying even though I know that my eyes are blood shot red and anyone could make out how much I would have cried but still .

“Hey how you found me that I am here ?” I asked him finally getting up from the stool I was sitting on from that long time .

He then came near me to answer and asked me to shift so that he can take the seat on the stool because he was tired like anything ,he was perspiring hard ,sweat was dripping down from his forehead .

“How I found you…umm madam because I almost checked the whole school and the only place left was this and let me even tell you I didn’t checked the girls washroom because I knew that very well that you will never sit there firstly you will never prefer to roger him ,one second what you call him “

“Gutter mouth “ we both were laughing this boy really knows magic I guess means how could he make me laugh so easily .

“So the second reason “.

“Obviously the smell duffer “. One second did he called me a duffer how dare he .

“Duffer ? I am not that okay ?”

“you are because just tell me who does all these stuff just for a mere crush “. The only thing which was going inside me was that he knows everything but who told him everything .

“You know it , means who told you “.

He then got up and said ,”Will tell you everything but before that you take a seat here and listen to everything I have for you patiently ,Okay ? you will listen and yeah you should know the rule that you can’t cry .” he then kneeled down in front of me

I was like such a nice communicator he is ,I then sat nicely with eyes darting on him with my ears fully concentrated for whatsoever he wanted to say to me .

“So the thing is that yesterday in the washroom I noticed that how miserable you turned when you saw Gaurav there and I know you very well that you will rarely be bothered to that extent by seeing someone else there and moreover I have noticed that when you get triggered by that Gutter mouth ,Oh god you are spoiling me if Atul will come to know that even I call him Gutter mouth then he might put me in a real gutter …anyways so where was I ?”

“Get triggered …”

“Yeah so as taking last night’s example too also when you created a chaos you didn’t even cared about Aunt ,your mom and the people there but you cared about his presence in the washroom and how pathetic you were feeling was clearly visible on your face . So from that time only I got an idea that yeah she is into him and how could I forget Atul’s creepy line that she already has Gaurav in his heart so how can she let me enter her soul “.

“Shut Up ,Okay ?” I felt like puking then and there means heart and soul,” you know what Rishav some words from some people’s mouth even though they are romantic sound cringy only “

“One second why don’t you just say that whatsoever he says to you sound cringy to you “.

“Actually yes “.

“And I really got tensed for you I wanted to ask you in last night’s party only that you know that he is having a girlfriend but I thought its better I don’t ask you as you were already looking disturbed and when I heard from you that how he came to your place and this all party scenario so I thought its better I don’t ask you today ,but now I really regret it because Atul just use it as a dagger to stab you today “.

Slowly the mood again started getting turned off and Rishav was able to see the change in me .

“Hey Ria come on don’t get upset please if you will start crying here then it will become difficult for me to handle you .”

“I don’t want to cry Rishav but it’s a kind of pathetic feeling inside me ,just tell what wrong I did if I get triggered by him ,I don’t want to do all these things but the truth is I can’t stand him ,his words and you know what he was intentionally pushing me …”.

“Yes I know I asked Sunny ,he told me everything “.

“Oh! That trash bin who can’t handle trash in it “.

“Yeah he, means Ria you and your descriptions hats off“.

“Ria now listen doesn’t matter what happened you need to understand that no one can trigger you until you let them to do so ,no one can harm you until you let someone to do so ,and yeah talking about Gaurav so it has not also been a complete one week you saw him and he is your crush right ?”

“Yes ,he is just a crush “.

“Then simple do you know the meaning of crush ?”

“No ,I don’t “

“See crush means the one we cannot have and he was mere crush only you didn’t even liked him so you should be thankful to Atul that he told you about this thing at the right time because in a way your feelings will go back soon as you know he is mingle , so instead of sitting here and pining , show the whole class and Atul that you are not weak and stupid who cries just because the crush you have has someone else in his life .

Ria just cheer yourself up and my hot friend surely be having someone else in her fate , so just to be honest why are you getting your time pining over the one who is not yours instead find the one who is yours .”

His words were like a booster for me .

He then wiped my tears and asked me to get up .

“So now let’s go back to the class and tell everyone who is the boss “.

“Okay Rishav “. We then went from the rooftop towards our class .

“Hey Ria I am getting scared “.

“What for Rishav “.

“Means we two like ..how to say …means its looking like we are into something means just see yourself you were crying I came running like ,like ,yeah like the Sharukh Khan boosted you up and now you are in a full on fire mood ready to burn people with your hotness “.

“Shut up you are very bad at humor now lets go “.

“Doesn’t matter at least I made you laugh that’s more than enough now let’s go inside “.

“Yeah,I am really excited to see that brat’s reaction he must be thinking that I went to commit suicide or something or locked myself like him but no ,no ,no I am not a dumb head like him ,I guess its going to be too much fun with him he wanted to come to my house now I will be going to his place .”

“I am getting goose bumps you are really planning big “ .

“Actually very big “. i said pushing my hair back .

“ do whatever you wanna do just don’t hurt anyone ,Okay ?”

“Yes I will not “.