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KIn my dreams he comes abd and teases me. Please tell him to come in front of me. It has years I have not seen him. Please tell him to be in front of me. I want to know how he looks like now. I do not know anything about him now. It has been years since we have been apart. Is he mine or is he someone else's. In my dreams he comes and disturbs me. I do not know why he does so to me. What is he up to. Wow, like seriously man. Magic had happened to me, that is why I am like this. He says that he loves me. Please tell him to bring moon for me. Damn why does this happens in my dream only. Why cannot things go accordingly. Akash who are you. Who you are to me. What have you done to me. I was never like this. I do not know what this feeling is called but you have made mr go crazy. I do not know what has happened to me and my heart. My heart was with me only. Earlier it was with me. But now it is not with me. Why this happened to me. I think this is love. I love him. I want to deny things, but even if I want then also I cannot get rid of this. This feeling is extra level nuisance. You did not turn around and see me. I wanted yiu to stop. But you did not stop there for me. What was that harsh feeling of yours. I wanted you to stop for me. Why did this happen. Why this heart has become so crazy. I never thought I will be in love with you. Things will change so easily I do not know. Gid please turn the clock. Things have changed so easily. Why did things change so easily. Where I am here, is because of you only Akash. No matter how much I deny I know I have started having feelings for you. These things are new, but it is for you and only you. Mt heart craves for every single glimpse pf you Akash. You have been there on my mind since the time I got to know what is love. What actually love is I got to know from you. You do not have any idea about my feelings. I want to kill myself and stay away from all these feelings. It is so crazy. Your ada is so damn sexy. Please come to me. Akash, do you even have that idea, how. I feel without you. There is a sense of unhappiness. Things are very complicated
Why the hell did you go away from my life without any reason. Why did you not come back into my life. Was it so easy to go just away from my life. I never knew things were so easy. I was the one who went away like this.
That day I cannot forget in my life. That day everything changed. Rishav just left the city and went away. I really do not know why the hell he did so. Actually I know why he did so. He did so because he wanted to do so. He had started to feel for me. He could not stay away from me. He wanted to live with me. He wanted to have his life with me. He could not believe that he will have to live without me. He did everything fir me. He wanted me to be happy. He never wanted me to hurt. He did not want that there should be more mess in my life. I knew him to be good but I never knew that he is so good. I really was shocked by his behaviour. I could feel that he was very sad but he was very happy for me. I never knew that he is so good. People go heads and high in love. But he went above everything in love. He was very much in love with everything he did. I was shocked by his deed. He did not say anything to anyone. But I know him. I knew why he did so. Why, Rishav why? Our friendship cannot end like this. I went on to different places to find him. Byt could not get any idea about him. No one knew where he is. Everyone was clueless about the reality. But I knew why he did. According to him Akash and I were getting close to each other. So he never wanted to come in between us. He knew we love each other as per him. So he never wanted to disturb us. He never wanted to be in between us. According to him my love and happiness was important. But little does he know that I am not happy. I do not have love, I do not have happiness. I do not have friendship in my life. I do not have anything. I wish he would not have left me. I would not have asked anything else. He wanted my happiness. Now I am only telling him that my happiness is with him. I do not love him. But I like my friendship. I love him as a friend. So yes! I love him. Love is beyond anything. He wanted to give me happiness but I think I was being selfish. That is why god punished me. I know I was doing wrong. But what could I have done. I was helpless. The only thing which I could do was love Akash. I still love him. But he also left me. He never stuck to me. He went away from my life. As though I never existed for him. He was always there in my priority list. It was me who was not there in his priority list. Je never craved for me. I was a fool to love him. He never wanted to make efforts.
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