21 Chelle I go to work the next day like nothing happened. Like everything’s normal in my world. I told Janette I got the bruise from running into the doorframe when I got up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Zane texted me at two in the morning to tell me his hand requires surgery. I didn’t reply. I had zero f***s left to give about Zane’s situation. I know I should be grateful to Nikolai for getting me and Zane out of his mess. I am grateful. Except the gratitude rips my heart to shreds. I don’t want to feel anything for him. I want to write this whole thing off. Pretend it never happened. Move on and never, ever look back. I can’t have this level of drama in my life. I don’t run with motorcycle clubs or d**g dealers. I definitely shouldn’t run with the Russian m

