Chelle
I try calling Zane, but he doesn’t answer, so I text instead. What is happening? To whom do you owe money now?
When he doesn't answer, I try again. Nikolai will pay them off.
I don’t even think twice about getting in deeper with Nikolai. I don’t want to unpack it right now, but I’m probably secretly relieved our thirty days might not be over in less than two weeks. That I might owe him more.
Because I love the way he exacts his due from me.
This time Zane replies. Are you crazy? I was trying to get the money to pay the bratva off. I hate what you’re doing for me.
Grr. Logically, his response makes sense, but it brings up a huge wall of defensiveness. f**k. Him. I chose to do this, and I told him I was fine. I hate the way he makes it feel icky. Sordid and shameful and wrong.
