The lonely rogue

chapter 5

Everything was dark and the silence was deafening, I had no idea where I was. I must be dead, the rogues must have attacked me after I passed out. I couldn't even feel Rylie anymore. At least if I was dead I wouldn't have to suffer anymore. But I hoped my death wouldn't be this dark and silent. What happened to meeting the moon goddess and then passing over to a better place? The only thing better in this place was the fact that Dean wasn't here. I started walking around, but it didn't really feel like walking. I mean, I was moving my feet, and definitely doing the walking motions, but it felt like I was walking on nothing, no solid ground beneath me. I heard a voice, "Gwen?" I knew the voice. I turned around and saw my mum and Dad, now I knew I had to be dead, why else would I be seeing my dead parents. "Gwen, you shouldn't be here, not yet." My Dad told me, "what happened?" How do I tell my parents that their son, their first born child had turned evil? Had tortured and humiliated me, had allowed his friend to r**e me, and tied me up to become wolf food? I couldn't find any words, I just ran to them and hugged them. feeling the warm embrace of my parents made me feel like the weight of the world had just been lifted off my shoulders, if this was what my afterlife would be like I would be happy to be dead.

My mum was the first to break our embrace, she looked at me with pity in her eyes. "We already know everything, we have seen what Dean has become and we have seen everything that you have been through in the last few days." They knew? "We're so sorry that you have been treated this way" my dad apologised, "We never believed that Dean would be like this, we thought he would step up and take care of you." They knew? how did they know? how could they see it, they were dead? The peace I had been feeling with my parents started to turn into anger, I could feel a rage growing inside me that I had never felt before. "You knew?" I shouted, "If you knew why didn't you stop it? why wouldn't you help me?" My mum started crying, "We wanted to help you Gwen, but we are powerless, we are merely shadows of the people we once were, we begged the moon goddess to help you." I was full of rage now, "Why would you beg the moon goddess for help? I have prayed to her so many times and she never helped me, I don't even have any faith in her anymore, I'm not sure if I believe that she even exists!" I went on a full on rant now, "If you had never got yourselves killed none of this would have happened in the first place. You are my parents, you are supposed to be there for me, to protect me from things like this, but you decided to get yourselves killed by stupid rogues and leave me. if you can't help me, why the Hell would the stupid moon goddess help me?" I knew I sounded like a bratt, and I knew that my parents would never deliberately leave me, but I was so frustrated with everything that I had to take it out on someone. I could see by their faces that my parents didn't take my rant personally. They understood my anger and frustration. my Dad knelt down in front of me "Gwen listen to me. We begged the moon goddess to help you, we told her everything that was happening and she already knew. She promised she was getting you help already. Help is on its way to you Gwen, please don't lose your faith."

I had to think about what my dad had just said, it was a bit late for help to come now, " How can help be on the way to me dad, it's too late. I was attacked by rogues, they killed me." Mum and Dad both looked at me smiling. "No sweetheart" my mum said, smiling "you're not dead, in fact it's time you woke up." My parents both leant in and kissed me on the head, I closed my eye's enjoying the moment, when I opened my eye's again I was back in the woods, still tied to the tree and it was light. The rogues were still here. Two of them were facing the woods, the third one was laying at my feet starring at me. When the wolf saw that I was awake it gave a little "yip" and the three rogues ran off into the woods, back the way that had come from.

"Rylie, what happened." I could feel Rylie's confusion, "I'm not sure, I thought they were going to attack, but it was like they were protecting you" This didn't make any sense, since when do rogues not attack? I was literally an easy meal for them, it's not as if I could have fought them while tied to a tree.

A few minutes later Dean arrived to untie me, he didn't say anything as he loosened the rope, but as soon as I was free he glared at me, "Get home and take a shower, you f*****g stink, then I want the house cleaned from top to bottom." I didn't even acknowledge him, I just speed walked back to the house and went straight up to my room. My bloody sheets were still on the floor, I would deal with them later. I grabbed a towel, my toiletries and a change of clothes and went to the bathroom, locking the door and wedging a chair under the handle again. I stood under the water, appreciating the warmth, before scrubbing myself clean and washing my hair, then I dried and dressed quickly, trying to trap the warmth inside of my clothes, I brushed my teeth and brushed my hair before putting it up in a messy bun, then left the bathroom to start what I knew would be a busy day.

I started in my bedroom, putting my dirty laundry in a basket, making my bed and having a quick tidy round, then I went to Dean's room to tidy. I knocked on the door before going in, thankfully there was nobody in there, but his room was still as disgusting as normal. I collected all of his laundry and changed his bedding, then started cleaning all the crap he had in there, it took quite a while to do, teenage boys are disgusting. I took the basket of laundry downstairs so I could start a load off before I got too loaded down. Downstairs I saw that Dean's douchebag friends were here again, I moved silently so I wouldn't draw any attention to myself and quickly loaded the washing machine then silently went back upstairs. I went to the bathroom and scrubbed in there, it was only a small room so it didn't take me too long. The next room was my parents bedroom. I was nervous about going in there, seeing all of their things, smelling their scent, I wasn't sure if I would be able to handle my grief. I took a few deep breaths before pushing the door open and stepping into the room. It was different in here, I couldn't smell my parents scent anymore and the room was trashed, partly from the rogue attack and partly because it looked like Dean had moved in here.

There were beer bottles, old food, empty pizza boxes and just crap everywhere. I couldn't believe the level of disrespect my brother could have for his own parents. I stepped further into the room and started picking up all of the rubbish, tears running down my face, then I saw something that made me freeze where I stood. Laying, half wrapped in blankets in my parents bed was Dean's date from last night. Totally naked! I didn't know what to do or what to think, I could feel anger spreading through me. This was my parents bed, why the hell was she laying in it like some desperate slut? I knew I couldn't do or say anything or Dean would punish me again, so I carried on tidying, making sure I was a bit louder than necessary in the hopes of getting this b***h out of my parents bed and out of their home. "Hey, what's with all the noise?" slut b***h barbie complained. I couldn't help smiling to myself because my plan had worked. I turned and look at her, faking remorse, "Oh sorry, I never meant to wake you. I was trying to be extra quiet so I wouldn't disturb you."

"Oh it's you" She yawned, "aren't you like the house keeper or something?" I just smiled, "yeah something like that. Can I help you with anything?" Like getting the f**k out of my parents bed, I thought. Slut b***h barbie looked like she was trying to understand what I had said, like I spoke in a different language. Geeze, this girl was dumb. "Um, yeah. could you like maybe stop cleaning so I can go back to sleep?" I was raging now, but I knew I had to keep my cool, "Yeah sure, no problem." I smiled as I left the room.

I took all the rubbish I had collected and headed outside to put it in the dustbin, then I started cleaning the kitchen. The kitchen wasn't too messy, just the dishes, pots and pans from the dinner I had made last night. I quickly did them, then quietly went to the fridge to see what I could eat, I was starving. I grabbed a yoghurt and quickly ate it, then grabbed an apple and stuck it in my pocket to eat later in case I never got a chance to eat again. The only room left to do was the living room where Dean and his friends were, I gingerly walked in the room, Dean turned to look at me, "You can do this room later" he said waving me away. I breathed a sigh of relief that I wouldn't have to be in the same room as them and went back up to my bedroom.

I wasn't sure what to do now, so I pulled out some of my school books, even if Dean wouldn't let me go to school he couldn't stop me learning on my own. I studied for a couple of hours undisturbed by anyone, it almost felt normal, then I took a quick bathroom break. I did my business in the bathroom then stood at the sink to wash my hands when u heard the bathroom door open and then close again. I had forgotten to jam the chair under the door handle. I looked into the mirror and saw the same guy from the other night looking back at me. "Hi little wolf, it's that time again." He grabbed me around the waist, threw me on the floor and pinned me down. I knew the pain I was about to go through as the reality of my life came crashing down around me.