Chapter Seven
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*** Jessamine's POV ***
Levi was standing at my door and demanding to be let in. Part of me did want to open the door and throw myself into his arm and let him mark me, let him make me his completely. And that thought alone is what made me open the window and shift into my wolf as I jumped out of it. How could I be so attached to this man that I didn't even know? It is unnatural and wrong. Mates are wrong, forcing you to love someone that is a complete stranger.
I landed on the grass gracefully and took off into the woods that surround our packhouse. My wolf was unhappy to be running away from our mate but she could see how scared and anxious I was and wanted to help me soothe my mind. We ran through the woods enjoying the breeze that blew through our pure white fur. I have always enjoyed going for runs when I was overwhelmed and today was no different.
I knew that I had loyalty to my father and to my pack and that at the end of the day I would mate with Levi but I would not allow myself to be happy about it. I would never do anything to risk the safety of my pack and if I have to go play Luna for Levi to keep them safe then I will. I will sacrifice my happiness for my pack. My stomach hurt at the thought of never seeing Cal again. It hurt at the thought of leaving my pack, leaving the land I grew up in.
Of course, I considered rejecting Alpha Levi but that wouldn't lead to anything good. Alpha wolves are incredibly possessive and overbearing when it comes to their mates and I don't know what Levi is capable of. My wolf kept trying to tell me that Levi would never hurt us or our pack but I kept ignoring her calming thoughts. I ran for another hour until I found myself by the murky lake that Cal and I would go turtle hunting in when we were younger. It was a muddy, brown lake that housed gators and turtles.
I laid down in my wolf form at the bank of the lake. My head was resting on my front paws as I heard some branches rustling. I looked up to see Cal's brown wolf trotting up to me. He laid down next to me and nuzzled against my neck. I rubbed back and looked over the lake.
"Hi Jessa," Cal spoke quietly in our mind link. His voice sounded so tired and sad. I couldn't find the strength to respond. "Jessa, are you okay?"
"No, I am not okay," I huffed back through our mind link. "This Alpha Levi guy is my mate. My f*****g mate. I don't want a mate." Cal whined and moved closer so our wolves were leaning against each other and using each other's body heat for warmth and comfort.
"We can run away. I will run away with you. Jessa, we can escape all this," he said so quietly I would have thought I imagined it if he hadn't been looking at me with hope-filled eyes.
"You know I can't do that. You know I can't abandon my responsibilities. I thought I would have more time... I thought that I would have a chance to find a different path..." I trailed off thinking about what could have been. Cal closed his eyes and when he opened them I could feel the pain I saw in them.
"I know, it was worth a shot," Cal sighed and laid his head down on his front paws. I licked his muzzle and nipped at him lightly in a playful manner as a ground-shaking growl came from the woods behind us.
I stood up quickly and turned to find a huge pitch-black wolf staring at me with anger, confusion, lust, and what almost looked like fear. Levi. We weren't in the same pack or mated yet so we couldn't mind link so I shifted into my human form. I was completely naked. I was tall and slender and was blessed with very perky and plump breasts as well as a large and plump butt. When I shifted into my human form Levi growled again and jumped between me and Cal's brown wolf.
"It's nothing he hasn't already seen," I said with a small smirk. We were werewolves, after all, none of us were shy about nudity. Levi growled viciously and shifted into his human form. He was so tall and perfectly sculpted. His body looked like he was one of those greek sculptures you would find in a museum. I refused to look down to check how well endowed he was.
"No one is allowed to see you naked but me. You are mine," Levi growled as he stalked towards me. His dark blue eyes were completely black as he gazed at my body. "f**k, you are so beautiful, the things I want to do to you..." I wrapped my arms around myself trying to protect myself from the heat of his lustful gaze. Levi growled again. "Don't ever hide your body from me, you are my mine."
He took a few large steps forward and wrapped me in his arms. His arms were around my waist as he leaned down to nuzzle his face into the nook between my neck and shoulder. He took deep breaths and I could feel his body calming down. He started to stand up straight and took me with him so I had to wrap my legs around his waist so my feet weren't dangling awkwardly. I wrapped my arms around his neck and relaxed slightly. His arms felt so safe and warm, it wasn't fair.
"What did your father mean?" Levi grumbled under his breath, his face still against my neck. I could feel his lips move as he spoke against my skin. I glanced over to where Cal had been laying but he was gone. I felt sad for a moment but quickly shook it away.
"I am the head warrior of my pack, I have always wanted to be independent." I paused, "I don't want a mate that will try to control my life, my decisions. I don't want a mate that the goddess chose for me... I want to choose my mate myself." I couldn't believe I was so honest but I couldn't lie to him. Levi was still breathing in my scent but I could feel his body shaking with anger.
"You are mine, Jessamine," was all he managed to growl out as he pulled me impossibly closer.
"I am loyal to my pack. I am loyal to my family. So I will go with you but I will not ever be happy. This is not the life I want." I said stubbornly. Levi pulled his head back and took off of his hands and grasped my chin. He forced my face to look him straight in the eyes.
"Jessa, I will make you love me, even if it's the last thing I do," Levi growled as he slammed his lips against mine possessively.
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