Let Me Live

Chapter 12: Titan's POV

King Titan’s POV

I couldn’t tell what time it was. The heavy curtains had been drawn over the windows and the lights in the room were as dim as possible. Dr. Marshall didn’t want to turn them out completely in case she had another cardiac episode, which at this point seemed to be a recurring situation. I lost track of the days. I would pass out, wake up to her in arrest, I would push all my energy to her, she would restart and I would pass back out. It had happened a few more times since the council meeting when we discussed her possible identity. I hadn’t even been able to get any information on that. Dr. Marshall had started scolding me, telling me that if I didn’t rest, we were both going to be in bad shape. I politely told him where to stick his warning before I passed out again. I honestly felt like I had been hit with a mountain. Ryker was worried as hell but I could take it. At least I hoped. 

It took me a moment to realize that for once, her and I were alone in the room together. I pushed myself off the bed but had to immediately sit back down after my head started spinning. I took a few breaths and tried to stand again. I made it to a chair beside her bed and used it to brace myself up so that I could look at her. I hadn’t had a moment with all the chaos to actually look at her and now that I was, I couldn’t stop the tears that fell from my eyes. Her eyes were wrapped in gauze to help block out the light. According to the doc, due to her living in almost pitch darkness her whole life, it would be a while before her eyes were able to tolerate anything more than a dim bulb. The left side of her face was bruised and swollen, and she had a feeding tube in her nose. Her hair was still matted but now I could tell that it was the most beautiful auburn color I had ever seen. Her left hand was in a plaster cast with pins sticking up from it.  Both her legs were also clad in plaster. Her other arm was bandaged heavily and they had simply laid a sheet over her torso. I was told they didn’t have a gown small enough for her and with all the bandages and needing to shock her, there wasn’t much point to having one on. Everywhere that wasn’t covered in bandages or plaster had a tube sticking into it! How was I ever going to take away the nightmares for this poor girl? How was I going to heal all her suffering? Someone who has only known pain and torture her entire life, I had to show what love was. I didn’t have the first clue how. 

I wiped my eyes and eased myself into the chair next to her. I was dying to touch her but was so afraid that I’d hurt her. I reached up and as gently as I could, grazed my fingers across her forehead and into her hair. The sparks crawling up my skin from that small touch were enough to nearly send me to the floor, but I refused to stop. I didn’t know when I might get this chance again. I continued to gently stroke her head, not sure if she could feel it or not.

“Hey little beauty, I don’t know if you can hear me, but if you can, I need you to hang on ok? I know you have been fighting f- for so long and I know y- you’re tired but I need you to fight a little lo- longer sweetie. I- I need you to pull through this. I don’t know ho- how yet but I am going to make sure that e- everyday after this, you know only happiness and l- love. You h- have to be ok for me baby… I still ne- need to know what color your eyes a-re. Please, please.” I sobbed and begged and didn’t give a s**t who might be around. The only thing that mattered to me was if she heard me. 

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Creature’s POV

Heavy floating. I feel floating but heavy. Want to wake up. Can’t. Strange smell. Smell makes me feel strange. Not bad, scary. Not know feeling it gives. Wolf says to trust and rest. She is getting strong. Say I will get strong too. Floating in dark. Hear strange noises. Lots of voices but can’t move. Body too heavy. Sometimes no want to wake up, want to stay in place with no pain. Hear man with strange smell’s voice, sounds sad, says to come back. Not know how. Want to see him, want to make him not sad. But know it is trick, will hurt me. No want to fight no more. Want no more pain. Wolf says go to man with strange smell but no hear him anymore. Hear strange scary sounds and others. Heavy going away can move arm but feels strange. Feel itchy on skin. Move other arm. Feel pulling! No! I tied up! I get hurt! Try to open eyes, stuck! Itchy over them! NO! Scream! Loud noises! Pull off itchy! LIGHT! BAD! BURN EYES!

“AAAAHHHH!” Scream! Jerk arm free. Have to get up! Have to fight! Hear feet coming closer! Can’t see! Swing heavy arm! HIT SOMEONE! Person screams! MUST GET UP! Legs no work, tied up! Fall off place, hit floor! Pain! Scary loud noises! Light too bright, can’t see! FIGHT! GROWL!

“Just back away from her! You’re scaring her!” I stop. Man with strange smell is here, try to open eyes, light burns! Wolf says calm and listen. 

“Hey little beauty, calm down ok? No hurt here. No hurt here.” Man says with soft voice. No. TRICK! Back away!

“Turn the lights down furher!” Other voice says. 

“Shhh. It’s ok. No hurt here.” Says words again. Wolf says listen. Too scared! No want to hurt no more. 

“It’s alright, little beauty. No hurt.” Want to listen. Hear him come closer! GROWL! Back up to corner! Trapped! Hurt me now! Swing heavy arm at him. 

“Honey, please don’t swing that arm. You'll hurt yourself.” Man says more soft words. Try to open eyes again, light not so bright but burns, see fuzzy. Giant man sits in front. Can’t see face. He not move. 

“It’s ok. Shhh. No hurt here.” Man says. Voice not sound mean. Wolf wants man, keeps saying strange word. Start to see man’s face. Sad face. Sits and talks soft. Not feel so scared now. Feel light. Man not try to hurt me. Sit for long time. 

“I’m going to come closer now, ok?” Man says words. Comes closer! No! Growl! Man stops and says soft words. Sits again. Still no try to hurt me. Reaches hand out! No, will hurt me! Growl! Try to hit hand away! 

“It’s ok baby. No hurt here. Listen to your wolf.” Giant man knows wolf?! Strange man. Wolf says trust, man says trust. Can’t move. Reaches hand out, press against wall! Duck down! Will hurt! Feel soft touch on head. No hurt! Feel strange feeling. Strange man touches face and says soft words. Wolf is happy! Not know happy! Scary, push hand away. 

“Your highness, we need to get her sedated, her heart rate is still going too fast.” Other voice says words. 

“Hold on just a minute.” Giant man says words back. Touches head again, strange feeling. Want to trust, chest hurts, want to sleep. Big arms wrap around body! Want to fight, strange feeling in body! Stick in arm. Heavy. Sleep.