Personal Journal Entry
May 5
I’ve tried to placate him over and over. I’ve tried to mollify him. I’ve even tried to bargain with him and threaten him, but it does no good. Every time he speaks to me, it’s all about her. That intolerable voice yelling her name. The last one went so wrong. He says she doesn’t count. But it was his fault. I gave her to him. I practically gift wrapped her. It was all his fault. He tries to blame me or blame her, but it was all on him.
Maybe, maybe I can give him another. Maybe I can hold him off. Maybe I can distract him from her for a while. At least for a little while longer.
I’m not ready to lose her yet.
Saturday, May 5
BOBBY lifted Lisa onto the saddle and adjusted the stirrups. He ran a hand down Josey’s flank, then swung himself into Jupiter’s sad
