“Or what?” She stepped in close. Her eyes were bright and lovely and there was nothing behind them at all. “There’s no one here, Lily. No pack to perform for. Just you and me.” She glanced past my shoulder, dismissive. “And the maid. And who’s going to believe a maid?”
I hadn’t known Tamara was there.
She was pressed back against the wall by the servants’ door, a tray forgotten in her hands, her face white and stricken and helpless. I saw the fear on her, the deep reflexive fear an omega learns of anyone above her. I saw the terrible wanting-to-help that had nowhere to go. She was frozen. She could not have moved against Eva to save her own life, and we both knew it.
Eva followed my glance, registered the maid, and dismissed her in the same half-second. Just a servant. Furniture. Nothing that counted as a witness.
Then she looked back at me and slapped me across the face.
It was not a small slap. It rocked my head to the side and lit my cheek white-hot and left my ear ringing. Yet it was so casual, so unhurried, that the shock of it was worse than the sting. It was like she was brushing lint from a sleeve, like I was not even a person you had to work up any feeling of temper to strike.
“That’s for making tonight about you,” she said pleasantly. “This was supposed to be my homecoming. And you had to go and get yourself jilted at the altar and turn every eye in the room.” She smoothed her skirt. “Go to bed, Lily. Stay there. Honestly — do everyone a kindness and don’t come out at all.”
She turned, and the mask came back up between one step and the next. Soft. Precious. Gracious Eva. And she walked back toward the banquet and the mother who loved her and the family that was hers, and left me in the dark corridor with my cheek burning and Tamara pressed against the wall.
Tamara came off the wall the instant Eva was gone. The tray clattered down. She was at my side, hands hovering, her voice a frightened rush.
“Miss Lily, your face, oh Goddess, let me get something cold, let me help you!” Her eyes were wet, and she was reaching for me with a tenderness I did not deserve and could not bear.
Kindness was the one thing I had no defense against. Her hands would have finished me.
“Go back, now,” I snapped. “Just leave me alone.”
She flinched, but she obeyed. She looked back once from the servants’ door, her face crumpling, and then she was gone, because obeying was the only thing she knew.
I walked the long dark corridor and upstairs to the far end of the packhouse.
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Rebel’s POV
At first, all I could feel was darkness pressing me on all sides. Not sleep. Not unconsciousness. I was awake and aware, and the unending darkness had a weight to it.
Then the darkness was shattered by pain. Burning in my lungs. Crushing pressure on my chest. Then—
“Oh my goddess, she’s still breathing!”
The shrill scream dragged me back from wherever I’d been, and I opened my eyes to an unfamiliar bed canopy. Carved wood. Expensive lace fabric.
I felt like death.
My head was throbbing and my neck hurt like a motherfucker — a deep, structural pain that went beyond muscle. It felt like someone had tried to rip my head off my neck, literally.
I pushed myself up on my elbows and looked around at an unfamiliar room, unfamiliar faces, unfamiliar everything.
Then I looked down at myself.
Two things were immediately, catastrophically wrong.
First: I appeared to be wearing a wedding dress. Expensive. Ornate. The kind of dress that took months to make and represented a future someone had been planning carefully. Silk pooled around legs that were —
Second: Those were not my legs.
“Bring me a mirror,” I rasped. Speaking set my throat on fire, like swallowing broken glass, but the burn was almost useful — it was something concrete to focus on while the rest of reality rearranged itself around me. The nearest person, a tall maid with wide frightened eyes, scrambled to the dressing table and returned with a two-sided makeup mirror.
I grabbed it and looked.
The face in the mirror was young, barely kissing adulthood. She had small features, delicately arranged — a nose that was nothing like mine, too refined, too symmetrical. Large eyes, glassy with recent shock. A neck that was long and slender and graceful and ringed at the base of the throat with a bruise that ran the full spectrum from red to deep purple.
Rope burn.
I lifted the mirror higher and stared at that bruise for a long moment.
“That,” I said, touching the nose with one careful finger, watching the reflection do the same, “is not my face.”
The maid clasped her hands and stared at the floor. She chewed her lower lip and said nothing.
“What happened to me?” My voice came out wrong. Too light. Too soft. I had a voice that made rooms pay attention, and this wasn’t it.
The maid spoke to the floor. “Don’t you remember, Miss Lily? The Alpha publicly declared Miss Eva as his rightful daughter. The beta’s son called you an imposter, rejected you, and called off the mating ceremony.” She paused, like she was choosing her next words carefully. “And then you tried to hang yourself from the rafters. Luckily your brother found you and cut you down in time. You almost died!”
Lily.
I turned the name over. It meant nothing to me — or it meant nothing to me. But it meant something to the body. I could feel it the way you feel a word in a language you half remember, something lurking just beneath the surface of conscious thought.
I reached for my own name, my real name, and pain split my skull like a thunderbolt, white and absolute, gone as fast as it came.
I knew one thing with complete certainty in its wake: I was not Lily.
I looked down at my hands. Small. Slender. Long fingers, nails shaped like pale moons, the kind of nails that required maintenance and care. In my life — my actual life, the one that existed in the place before this darkness — I had never managed nails like this. Mine had always been short, practical, the kind that caught on things and broke before they could become anything.
The room tilted.
A memory broke open behind my eyes without warning — not a gentle surfacing but a rupture. A scream that might have been mine. Blinding pain, the kind that came from the outside in, the breaking of something that couldn’t be put back. Bones. Flesh. The specific sensation of impact and then—
Nothing.
Then this canopy bed in a strange room.
“I think I did die,” I said quietly, to no one in particular. The maid made a small, strangled sound. I ignored her.
If I had died and woken up here, wherever here was — this body, this bed, this life — the original owner had vacated at the same moment. The timing felt too precise to be coincidence. One soul out, one soul in, like the universe could not tolerate a vacuum.
I hoped the poor girl hadn’t woken up in my body.
From what I could piece together through the wreckage of my memory, my old body was a total loss.
I became aware of the figure hovering at my shoulder — had been aware of him since I surfaced, actually, the way you’re aware of a heat source in a cold room. I turned my head.
He was also young; maybe twenty or twenty two. Tall and slender, with features that landed somewhere past handsome into something more interesting — pretty, almost, in the way that suggested the handsomeness would come later in life and last longer. His eyes were red. He’d been crying recently and he wasn’t bothering to hide it.
The name came from somewhere inside the borrowed body before my mind had finished forming the question.
“Tristan,” I said.
Something crossed his face. Relief so acute it looked like pain. “I thought you were dead,” he whispered.
I held his gaze. He had cut her down. This boy with the pretty face and the red eyes had found his sister hanging and cut her down and put her on this bed — and I realized in a flash, he had performed CPR.
In my experience, people who did things like that without expectation of reward were either genuinely good or catastrophically compromised. In either case they were dangerous to underestimate.
“I think I was,” I said.
Before I could contemplate that problem any further, the door opened with force. The man who pushed his way into the room was sharp-looking — chiseled jaw, high cheekbones, broad shoulders, hands that carried old scars the way fighters’ hands did. His eyes swept the room and landed on me. They were full of fury. And something underneath the fury that looked, to my practiced eye, a great deal like guilt.
“Lilith Bradford.” His commanding voice filled the room. The maid whimpered. Tristan took a careful half-step back. “Don’t think for one second that pulling a stunt like this is going to change my mind.”
Adrian. His name was Adrian.