Chapter 04 : Face to Fate. Part One
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The girls and I have barely had time to put our masks on when I hear the door behind me opening in a crash and fast steps are heard.
My heart is beating fast and I feel like he can hear it from where he is.
What am I doing? What am I doing? s**t!
« What are you doing, sir ? You have no right to enter our lodge. Get out please. » Said Jodha.
I don’t dare to turn around. I’m so scared and anxious to have him in front of me. I saw him from afar, but this is something else.
I feel like my legs are going to go flat and I’m going to spread out on the floor, yelling at him how cruel he was towards that teenage girl I was.
« I know it’s you. »
He said, ignoring Jodha’s words and taking one more step in my direction.
« Come out or... »
« Leave us alone » I say in a low voice.
A silence of death follows my phrase. It is useless to avoid it. I made this move knowingly, but I never thought he would remember.
Since he forgot me, why would he keep a single detail?
« Are you sure ? » Andrea asks, worried.
« She asked to be left alone, so of course she knows what she’s doing. » The other male voice comes in.
« I’m not talking to you, but to her. »
She replies in a cold, icy tone.
The tension is rising a notch. Andrea has hot blood and when she gets upset, it takes a long time to calm her down.
She gives the guy such a murderous look that I can’t see, but I guess it’s Vincenzo.
« I’m sure, girls. Leave us alone. Please. »
They don’t say anything, but quietly leave the room. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I never thought I’d see him again in this situation.
I had buried the idea of seeing him again one day and I have to face him during the life that I lead in secret. I should never have caused this moment.
« Alyanna. »
he said, his voice having changed tone. If I had not seen him with this woman, I would believe that he is happy.
My breathing becomes more and more jerky and I suddenly look for a door to get out of the room that no longer has enough oxygen.
Why is my body reacting like this...
« Alyanna. » He repeats by taking one more step.
Come on, turn around and face him!
I take a deep breath and remove my mask before facing him and I feel like I am struck by all our moments spent together as if by lightning.
I remember our meeting, the beginning of our friendship, the moment when I realized that I really loved him, our promises, our escapades and finally, that famous day that changed everything and replaced all those sweet memories in bitter memories.
My gaze is so deeply into his that I feel like he feels the same way as me. My eyes are unwittingly moist as we gaze upon each other. Declan is no longer a boy, he is a man. He’s even more handsome than I remember.
He’s even more than I remember. I thought he was already so tall at the time, but now I feel like I have a wall in front of me. His square jaw is decorated with a beard in which I would like to dip my hand and his fleshy lips only accentuate the pain that I feel in my chest.
His eyes are black as if... I don’t know how to describe his look, but mine must be ridiculous, fogged in tears. His eyes are wild and yet so kind at the same time ... he’s too beautiful to be real, to be here in front of me.
« Yes, Declan. » I said, the voice hoarse.
My vision is becoming more and more clouded and as if by magic, that brunette girl of earlier comes to my mind. The kiss they exchanged and their closeness cannot be erased from my memory.
The emotion I feel changes into an indescribable rage and my vision is less and less blurred.
« Why did you come back? » I asked, with a dry tone and my most hateful look.
My question seems to shock him as he blinks before his eyes take a dark hue. So that is the height of his anger, given that he was the one who wanted to see me and had left me years ago. His jaw is clenching, but mine is more.
« I have not come back for you ! » He spits, his tone is harsh and I feel like I am being stabbed in this wound that has never healed.
That’s exactly what I was thinking. He couldn’t have come back for me, it would have been too beautiful!
« Sure, sure, I didn’t expect it to be ! » I said as I tried to go around him, but he grabbed my arm and pressed me against his chest.
« I know how upset you are with me coming back, but I never thought you would be so upset! Then you hate me so much, Alyanna. » He says as we glance at each other.
All the hatred I felt earlier evaporates and I have the feeling that it is the same for him.
I never thought that this would be the way I would get back to him. It’s the worst-case scenario.
My eyes are moistening again and I can’t stop a tear from rolling down my cheek.
He’s wrong.
« I know I should, but I could never hate you. »
I said, my voice hoarse.
« I hate waiting. I always hated it, but I waited for you. I waited for you that night, I always waited for you and you never came again. You never came back... »
My voice breaks at the end of my sentence and I feel tears running down the corner of my eyes. My words seem to trouble him since I see in his eyes confusion and sadness.
But why would he be sad? He’s the one who left.
« I’m gone, but you’re... »
There are some knocks behind the door and we both turn to it.
« Declan? My love, what are you doing? »
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