Heaven

Chapter 6

Ian took a deep breath. You can do it, you can do it, he chants to himself.

Right that moment he was standing in front of Jamie's apartment. After his session of abusing Irene, he got a call from Jamie. She only asks him to come and Ian of course couldn't wait any longer. He barged out from his house, driving his car and straight to Jamie's apartment.

Ian pushed the bell several time. He felt so nervous. He didn't know why Jamie asks him to come over. Something suddenly rushed into his mind. What if Jamie wants to leave him? No No No! He won't let it to happen. He loves Jamie so much and he can't bear to lose his girlfriend.

When he was deep in his thought, the door was opened and stand Jamie there, with her puffy eyes. Sure, she had been crying the whole time thinking how Ian had cheated on her. She felt betrayed when she read the news that her boyfriend had married with someone else. And the image of Ian kissing his wife named Irene after they had said their vowed, breaking her heart into pieces. She felt betrayed, sad and anger was engulfing her. That moment she hates Ian so much and she didn't bear to see or even heard a single explanation from Ian the day before. But, even it just happened one day ago, Jamie missed Ian so much. She needs Ian in her life. So, she thought she should at least listen to Ian's explanation even maybe, just maybe, the words that came out from Ian will only hurt her.

"Ian." Jamie whispers. Ian looks up and look at Jamie with sad eyes. His heart clenched looking at the sight in front of him. Jamie looks miserable with her eyes puffy, wet cheek and her hair messy.

"Jamie!" Ian came closer to her. "Listen to me babe. I don't love her. I never wanted to marry her. Please don't hate me. I love you so much. You know that I won't do that to you right?" Ian said desperately while reaching for Jamie's hand. But Jamie pushed him away.

"You liar! You still married her!" Jamie shouts, almost bursting into tears again.

"No baby. Its my dad. He planned this. And he was threatening me if I didn't agree with it. I didn't have a choice. You know its hurt me a lot to do this to you. I'm hurting too babe. I don't love her. I don't want her in my life. I only want you. I love you. Babe, please don't do this to me. I want-" Ian's words was cut off when he felt a stinging pain on his right cheek. He looks at Jamie with sad eyes. He thought that  Jamie really hates him.

However, out of sudden, a chuckles slipped past Jamie's mouth.

"You said to much." Jamie said. "I missed you. And I can't bring myself to hate you." She continues.

Ian stares at Jamie, still a bit dumbfounded with what just happened. Then, his lips curls into a wide smile. Well, its worth to get a slap, Ian thought before pulling Jamie closer and kissed her passionately. The kiss was full with desires and needs. Jamie moan into the kiss when Ian slipped his hand under her shirt and rubbing her back.

They can't get enough of each other. They missed each other so much and the kissed wasn't enough yet. So when Ian pulled away, he realized that he already be in Jamie's apartment. He went to the door, close it and locked it before picking Jamie up, bridal style and lays Jamie on her bed.

Moment later, the cloths was discarded to the floor and only left two n***d body on the bed. Jamie was laying flat on the red mattress with Ian was hovering above her.

They didn't stop what they were doing and only continued till they felt exhausted.

Meanwhile at home, Irene was sitting on her bed while hugging her legs. Tears streaming down her cheeks non stop and she let out a whimpers when the sudden pain that came from the newly fresh wound created by non other than Lee Ian, shooting through her body.

Its hurt a lot. She never thought that Ian will act that way. That day, she thought, not only her dream shattered, but her body and her life ruined on Ian's hand.

'Ding'

Irene's phone make a little sound, showing that she got a new message. She wept her tears away and reached out for her phone. The message was from an unknown number.

From: +85xxxxxxxx

Hey Irene, its me, Kim Yohan. Its nice to meet you. Hope to see you again :)

Irene couldn't bring herself to smile or reply to the message. She's also didn't felt like to save the contact even she knew who was that texting her. She felt tired. She puts her phone away and lays her body on the mattress. Slowly, her eyes fluttered closed and she finally drift off to a sleep.

****

Jamie woke up first the next morning. She didn't move and just lays there, staring at Ian's sleeping face. She ran her finger on the other cheek. She smiles as the event of the last night playing in her mind. It was so intense and she thought that night was the best night she ever had with Ian because she knew she still has Ian by her side.

'Even though you said you don't love her, but still, I will make sure to ruin her life.' Jamie whispers to herself. Her finger still running on Ian's face.

"Good morning baby." Ian whispers, his eyes still close but smile already plastered on his face.

"Morning." Jamie replied. Ian leaned in and placed a small peck on Jamie's lips.

"How do you feel?" Ian asked, smiling.

"My back hurt, you know." Jamie answered, giving a small pout to Ian.

"Aww baby, I'm sorry. I'll be gentle next time." Ian said, voice full with concerned.

Jamie let out a small chuckle. Well, she don't mind as long as Ian always by her side. Jamie came closer and snuggles into Ian's neck. Ian hugs her while running his hand on Jamie's bare back. Ian felt happy because finally Jamie still his.

'ding'

A sound came from Ian's phone. He grabbed his phone that he puts on the nightstand and unlock the message while Jamie was still snuggles to him. The message was from Yohan.

"Who's that baby?" Jamie asked, looking up to meet with Ian’s eyes.

"Its Yohan. He wants to meet me to talk about something and also having a breakfast together." Ian explains.

"Yohan had comeback?" Jamie asked, her eyes widened. Ian nods.

"Ohh that's why he calls me yesterday." Jamie said as she got a lot of missed call from her best friend yesterday. But, she didn't bother to call him back because she wasn't in the mood plus she thought Yohan was still in Italy.

"Yeah." Ian said. "Ok now, let's freshen ourselves and meet him. I bet he wants to meet you too." Ian said as he went out from the bed with his body still n***d. But, then he stops on his track as he notice Jamie didn't move. He looks at Jamie with curious eyes.

"Well you know my back kinda hurt and its all your fault." Jamie said, pouting.

Ian chuckles. Well, he got it. He picks Jamie up, bridal style and brought her to the bathroom to clean themselves. Their body felt sticky from that night.

Meanwhile at home,

Irene was struggling to get up from the bed and went to the bathroom. Despite the pain that he felt through his body, he still willing himself to get up. He thought he should move on. He tried to comfort to himself that what Ian did to him last night was nothing compared from what he had done. He blamed himself for what had happened. If he didn't disobey Ian, all this thing won't be happening. After all, he's belong to Ian and he should do what the other asks him to.

Irene took off her cloth that was already being ripped by Ian. She looks at her bare body. It was full with wound and still red. When the tortured ended, Irene couldn't bring herself to treat her own wound. She didn't have the energy to do it. She just cried her heart out. After her body had completely drained of energy, she let herself lays on the mattress and her eyes shuts.

She's just tired.

Tired of the pain, maybe.

And what she hoped for the next day was that everything will be fine.

she hoped she will forget about it completely.

But, when she looks at the wound, her heart hurt so much and at the end she broke into tears.

Irene turned on the shower and as the water came in contact with her body that full with wound, she hissed as it felt stinging.

Later, she couldn't feel the pain anymore as the pain that she felt in her heart was more painful compare to what Ian had done to her body. The tears that stream down her face was now mixed with the shower.

And again, she just let herself cried.

****

The morning in Seoul was so peaceful, Yohan thought. Its been years since he woke in the morning in Seoul.

To remember again the memories, he thought that the last time was when he was nine. Back then, he was so lazy to get up to go to school but his mom was cruel. Well not really cruel but his mom will spray his face with her flower spray that have a strong smell. Its not smelly at all but in Yohan's opinion, he did thought it was smelly.

Later on when its almost at the end of the year and where he will start the school after having a long time holiday, his parents told him that they will send Yohan to Italy and live with his uncle.

Yohan, of course didn't like it. By hearing the those words, its mean that he had to leave his friends. Yohan cried at first but then his mom convince him that everything will be fine, he will meet new friends and also he shouldn't forget his old friend.

The first day he went to school in Italy, he didn't know what to do. He felt awkward because he felt that he didn't belong to this place. He didn't have friend at all. He was alone. That was until he met with Jamie the second day of him in the new school.

Jamie, was really a cute girl. He learns that Jamie already in Italy about 2 months before Yohan moved there. And Jamie the only friend he had and the closes one. Not counting his classmate. He still be friended with them but not really that close.

Not long after, comes Ian. He met with the latter first before introducing him to Jamie. After that, they became close till now.

So, apparently it had been like 14 years since he had woke up from the morning in Seoul and to experience it again made Yohan felt like he was back during his primary school.

He found himself smiling to that. He could feel the stare that was given to him by people in the cafe that he was currently seated. But he pays them no attention. He didn't mind if they thought he's some sort of insane guy who was smiling and grinning from ear to ear that they couldn't see the cause of it. They didn't need to know. Its none of their business anyway.

Yohan took a sipped from his caramel macchiato when suddenly he heard the bell at the door ring and its took his attention. He diverted his gaze to the entrance door and met with a very familiar figure. It was Ian. He smiles but then its flatter as he notice another figure beside the latter, their finger intertwined. Its Jamie!

"Yohan!" Ian calls out from the entrance door as he found Yohan was sitting at one corner of the cafe. Ian was smiling brightly, showing his teeth and he looks like a bunny in Yohan thought. He then walks towards Yohan's table.

Yohan didn't carve a smile when both of them took their seat across of him. He was frowning while staring at them.

"Hye Yohan! When did you comeback?" Jamie asks, snapping him from his own thought. He averted his eyes to Jamie who was smiling brightly. He's really fond of that smile back then but that moment he felt disgusted to see it. He wished to wash that smile away. Not that he hates Jamie. Not that he didn't want to see Jamie happy but well you know about Ian's current status. But seemed like Yohan was the only one that care about his friend's status meanwhile Ian was smiling all too brightly with Jamie by his side. Sure, he knew about their relationship and when he for the first time heard that his friends were dated with each other he felt happy and support them, but now its change. He wasn't sure if he should support their relationship or not. After all, they still his best friends and he didn't want both of them ended up hurting and he also didn't want to hurt them.

"I just arrived here yesterday." Yohan replied in indifferent tone. His face stoic as he fidgeted on his seat.

"What's with that face?" Ian asks. He felt weird looking at Yohan's expression. Its rare to see Yohan that way because most of the time Yohan acted all bubbly and always show his adorable smile.

"Nothing." He sighs. "It just I thought that you already have a wife and you should already forgetting about Jamie." He continues, folding his arm across his chest.

"What is wrong with you?" Jamie asks, frowning. She felt hurt with Yohan.

"There is nothing wrong with me. But what is wrong with you two?" Yohan hissed. "You know he's already have a wife Jamie but why you still want him?" Yohan mocks.

"He doesn’t love his wife so stop f*****g acting that you care about their marriage. It will destroy after all."

"Jamie!" Yohan shouts in disbelief. Jamie was smirking at him.

"Jamie, Yohan, please!" Ian hissed with a gritting teeth. Everyone was looking at them and Ian was trying to hold himself from exploding. He don't want to cause any trouble even that moment he's already clenched his fist and was ready to punch Yohan on the face but thinking that he still his best friend, he couldn't bring himself to do that.

"Fine! I'm sorry. Its not my business to care about your marriage." Yohan sighed in defeated. He should stop acting this way because he didn't want to ruin the friendship that they had built. Well, Ian knew better. Ian knew what he did and Yohan wasn't anyone that can determine his decision. The only thing he could do as a friend was to give him advice. That's what friend for. But, he kept telling to himself that he will not be as supportive as before towards Jamie's and Ian's relationship but still he will kept their friendship.

"Yeah, better keep that in mind." Jamie mocked. Yohan rolled his eyes, felt annoyed with Jamie who giving him that sly smile.

'Ding' 

The message's tone alert Yohan. He tear his gaze away from Jamie and unlocked his phone that he put on the table since he arrived at the cafe.

When he read the message, he couldn't help himself from grinning. He had waited for the reply since last night.

From: Irene

Hye, nice to meet you too. Yeah, I also hope to meet you again soon :)

Even just the text message with that smile emoticon already made Yohan's heart beating faster, he couldn't imagine if Irene already standing in front of him.

"Yahh Kim Yohan! Why are you now grinning huh?" Jamie asked, caught Yohan off guard.

"Could it be the message from someone special?" Ian smirks.

"Yohan have someone special?" Jamie asks, half shouting.

Yohan already blushing with the question.

"N-no. Its just from my friend." Yohan stuttered, scratching the back of his neck.

"Yeah right, friend. A friend that will turn to 'someone special'. We get it." Jamie tease and then both her and Ian burst out laughing.

Yohan didn't reply to them. He sipped his caramel macchiato and hid his smile behind the cup.

Well, maybe, what his friends said will become true one day.

****

Two weeks had passed. Along this two weeks, Irene just stayed at home. What should he did other than staying at home? She didn't have work anymore. Irene sighed when it came through her mind.

The whole time she was at home, she just did what she should do. Cleaning the house, watching television, sleeping and cooking.

Talking about cooking, she will always cook for Ian. Its the least she can do. She tried to take care of Ian's food intake. And she felt happy that Ian still ate what she cooks even he didn't eat at most of the time.

Ever since that night, Irene tried to obey all Ian's order. She didn't want to make her husband mad and hating her even more. Its hurt to know that your husband hate you but Irene was trying her best to change it. She tried to erase the hate that Ian had towards her and tried to replace it with love even she knew its hard to do so.

Turns out Ian didn't really get mad at her or hit her. But still Irene can't run away from Ian's insult. Every time she hears it, she tried to convince herself that this was just a beginning and cheer herself that she can change Ian to love her.

Yet, along two weeks also Irene learns something. She learns about this certain girl named Jamie. She learns that Jamie was her husband's girlfriend. Its hurt to know it but she tried to smile to that.

When she first landed her eyes on Jamie, she thought that Jamie was really beautiful. Her smile can charm anyone. Maybe, that was why Ian fell in love with her, Irene thought.

That made Irene felt horrible. She felt guilty for Jamie because she was sure Jamie was blaming her for taking her boyfriend away. Irene ever thought, if only she disagree with the idea of marrying Lee Ian, she was sure Jamie will live happily with Ian.  Even now she still can see how happy they were, but still Irene felt that she was at fault.

The more hurting part when she knew about their relationship was when Ian, at most of the time will bring Jamie home. No, scratched that part, even yes she was hurting to see Jamie and Ian acting all lovey-dovey in front of her, but what more hurting for ber was when during the night she could hear a screaming, moaning and skin slapping coming from the room across of Irene's.

"f**k! Yes Ian! There!" And a lot more screaming, cursing and even dirty words could be heard coming out from the both of them. 

Irene wasn't an i***t. Sbe knew what they were doing and every time she hears it, she will cry herself to sleep.

Then, even she was hurting, there's still something that can make the frown on her face to fade away and replace with a smile. Its Yohan! Along this past two weeks also she kept texting with Yohan.

Its all started when Irene replied to Yohan's message and then they kept texting with each other. During this time, Irene couldn't stop smiling and giggling to Yohan's messages. It was funny to text with the latter and it made Irene to forget everything that hurting her even just in a short time.

Also, the first day of them texting with each other, Yohan asks her to go out together but Irene refused. Not that she didn't want to meet the blond but just look at herself! Her face had bruises and its still new and even Irene put make up on, its still visible. So, Irene gave a reason to Yohan that she was busy with work and promise to make it up some other time.

And by some other time, she didn't expect that Yohan will ask again after two weeks they had been texting. Irene kept thinking about it. Her bruises on the face already faded and she can put some make up on to some part that still had a clear evidence of bruises. But the problem here was, how she will tell Ian? What if Ian get mad at er? There's a lot of possible things could happen.

She was deep in her thought when suddenly she felt something on her legs and it made her froze on the spot. The gripped on the glass that she had been held, tighten. She looks down and she was guessing right. It was a white fury cat was nuzzling its head on her left leg. How can the cat be in this house? Irene thought. Then she remembered that she opened the back door and forgot to close it back.

Then, when the cat was about to cling on her leg, Irene screamed in horror and the glass in her hand fell, crashing on the floor.

Forgot about the glass that already shattered into pieces, Irene wants to run away from the cat as she could feel that her nose starts to feel ticklish. She couldn't wait any longer or she will keep sneezing.

When she wanted to run away from that cat, she steps on the broken glass. Irene yelps in pain as she also fell on the floor. She looks at her foot and its already bleeding. Irene cried in pain but her cried became wild when the cat approached her and nuzzling its head on her.

"What happened here?" A voice got Irene's attention.

"Ian, please get rid of that cat." Irene cried out while covering her face. She's already sneezing here and there. She felt relieved that at least Ian put the cat outside but her sneezing won't stop. Ughh it was the worst part to Irene.

"Are you okay?" Ian asks in his cold tone while squatting in front of Irene. Irene looks at him. Ian was still in his suit. He just coming back from work.

Irene nods as a reply.

"achoo." She sneeze then scrunching her nose.

Out of sudden, Irene was lifted by Ian, bridal style. Irene yelped but then she kept her mouth shut as she stares at Ian's emotionless face. She tried to hold herself from sneezing on Ian's face.

Moment later, Irene weas put on the couch in the living room and Ian leaves her there. Irene didn't know what Ian wants to do.

"Acoo." Sneeze again. She rubs her ticklish nose trying to stop the sneeze but it won't stop.

Later, Ian came back with first aid kit in his hand. He sat down and puts Irene's leg on his lap. Then, he starts to treat Irene's foot.

"Auchh." Irene winced when Ian put an ointment after cleaning the wound.

"Bear with it a bit." Ian said.

"O-okay." Then, Irene sneeze.

Ian looks up and stares at Irene with a questioning look.

"W-what?" Irene asks and sneeze.

"What's wrong with you?" Ian asks curiously, his hand still working on Irene's wound. "You broke the glass, you ask me to get rid of the cat and you keep sneezing." Ian stated. Irene looks down. She felt embarrassed with Ian. If she told Ian, the latter will probably mocked her.

"I'm sorry." Irene begins. "I know I was clumsy. I scared of the cat and broke the glass. Then steps into it." Irene looks down. "It just I was allergic with the cat's fur and I don't want it to be near me because the fur will make me keep sneezing." She ends her explanation, biting her lower lip. Now, she's waiting for Ian to mock her.

"How cute." She put her head up and stares at Ian who was suddenly froze from bandaging her foot. She hears it right, right? She asks herself.

"What?" Irene quickly claimed her mouth shut. She curse herself for asking it again.

Ian didn't reply and proceeding on wrapping the bandage.

Then, silence fill the room. Irene only stares at her foot before something snapped out from her thought.

"Ian." She calls out. Ian replied with a 'mmm' and its the signed for Irene to proceed. "C-can I hang out with my friend this weekend?" Irene asks carefully. She was still doubting to ask about it but she asks anyway.

"Do whatever you want." Ian replied then got up as he already finished with Irene's foot.

DO WHATEVER YOU WANT

Its hurt Irene to hear it. Its shows that Ian didn't care with what she was doing but what he was just doing just now? Why he acting like he's care about Irene by treating her wound. Ohh please Irene don't you ever dreaming for him to care about you, she told to herself.

Despite the words that hurts Irene, she fished out her phone from her pocket and texting Yohan instead.

To: Yohan

Hye, I think I have time this weekend :)

She clicks the send button before puts her phone away and lays her body flat on the couch. She wants to take a nap and hoping when she woke up that her non-stop sneezing will stop.