Chaos Series 1: Angel

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"Buburahin mo yung post mo tungkol sa kapatid ko o kakalbuhin kita!?"

Nanlaki ang mata ko nang marinig ang galit na galit na sigaw ni Ellie. She's holding tight on a girl's hair, Ace trying to hold her back while Ezekiel is just standing there. Another female at the other girl's back who seems crying from Ellie's tight grip on her hair.

Oh gosh, this is trouble,  "Ellie!!" Sigaw ko na agad naka-agaw ng atensyon ng lahat. Agad akong napatakbo sa kaniya bago sinubukang alisin ang kamay niya sa buhok ng babae. Pero mahigpit masyado ang kapit ni Ellie na siyang ikina-iyak na sigaw ng babae sa sakit.

"Ellie let go of her hair! Malalagot ka dahil dito!" I screamed, forcing her fingers to unlock and release the poor girl's hair.

"Wala akong pake! Basta and gusto ko ay ang makalbo iyang impakta na 'yan?!" Ellie screamed before started pulling the small amount of her she's gripping which I know it badly hurt the scalp of the girl.

My eyes widened as the girl once again cried, "Ellie ano ba?! Let go sabi! Can't you see she's crying?! Ellie!" I screamed, getting unconscious by the too much attention and eyes looking at us.

"Edi umiyak siya! Matapos niyang ipagkalat na binabayaran ka ni Ezekiel to pleasure his needs?! After she spread fake news that you and Ezekiel are f**k buddies and having friends with benefits?! Na kaya ka naging assistant ni Ezekiel cause you f*****g gave him a head?! Matapos lahat nang 'yon Angel?! Matapos ka niyang palabasing madumi at bayaran?! Sa tingin mo hindi niya deserve ang umiyak ng dugo?!" Sigaw ni Ellie na siyang nakapag patigil sa akin.

My jaw dropped and my hands slowly loosen the grip on Ellie's arm. I started taking small steps while looking around the whole room.

"Totoo ba 'yon? The reason why all of you are staring and looking at me these past days ay dahil don?" I asked, trying to maintain the boldness in my voice even though I'm close on breaking down.

"Angel... Angel ang daming picture niyo ni Ezekiel sa Guillermo Uni ChitChats sa f*******:, hindi mo ba nakikita?" One varsity player asked. My head snap at his direction and my brows furrowed.

"Well no, hindi naman ako kasali sa group na 'yan. That group is full of rumors and false news." I said,

"Eh 'yung lagi ka niyang pinapahiram ng damit? Tapos nakikita kayong magkasamang kumakain ng lunch sa football field?" Another girl opened her mouth. I look at her and once again, my brows furrowed.

"Wala ba kayong kaibigan? Wala ba kayong kasama mag lunch? Why do you have to make such big deals to something na normal naman!?" I screamed in a high pitched voice, making everyone jolt up.

"And why can't you mind your own businesses?! Why do you have to stalk us, take pictures of us eating lunch?! Why do you have to give everything a meaning?! Don't you have a life to live?! Wala ba kayong mga exam and projects na mas dapat niyong inaasikaso imbes na nangingi-alam kayo ng buhay ng may buhay!?" I screamed once again in a high pitched voice that I just tend to use as a kid whenever I'm throwing a tantrum. In a second I faced the girl who's hair is still scattered around her face and few strands still locked in Ellie's hands.

"And you? Wala ka bang sariling kaibigan na lalaki? Wala bang magbibigay sayo ng pagkain? Wala bang magpapahiram sayo ng damit kung may makabubo rin sayo? Kung wala... I'm sad to hear that. Pero that doesn't give you the authority to interfere in my life and take random pictures and give it awful meanings!" I screamed, this time no longer a high pitched voice but just raising my voice.

"I'm sorry Angel, I'm sorry talaga... hindi ko na uulitin!" She cried out,

"Dapat lang! Because what was your reason?! What was the reason kung bakit mo 'to ginawa?! Ano bang kasalanan ko sayo?! I don't even know you and yet here you are spreading false rumors about me!" I screamed, trying to hold back my anger.

Gosh, I can't harm her, I can't harm her. Hindi ko siya pwedeng saktan or else baka kami pa ang lumabas na masama.

"A p********e? Iyon ang gusto mong palabasin?-

"Angel hindi-

"I'm still talking so please, I'm begging you shut your mouth!" I screamed, tears flowing down my cheeks. I saw her jolt up and more tears stream down her face.

"You made it look like I'm a p********e well in fact I'm just being friendly! Wala ka bang kaibigan?! Ang lungkot naman ng buhay mo!" I said, badly wanting to push Ellie's hands away from her and putting my hand in replace and grab thicker strands of her hair. Gustong gusto ko na rin siyang sabunutan!

"Inggit ka lang siguro.." I said which made the whole room fall into silence.

"You're one of Ezekiel's... admirers?" I said before stepping forward.

"And you're jealous because Ezekiel is being a friend and not just a friend but a nice and thoughtful friend towards me. And sa iyo? Hindi ka man lamang niya pinapansin? Oh... I get it now." I said before letting out a laugh.

Gosh... idadaan ko nalang sa tawa. Hindi ko alam kung anong pwede kong gawin kung mas lalo ko lang gagalitin ang sarili ko.

"You're jealous, kasi ikaw hindi ka manlang tingnan ni Ezekiel, while me? He's being a nice friend to me, he's giving me foods and lending me his clothes." I said before taking a deep breath.

"Hindi kita sasaktan, don't worry, I don't want to be the bad guy here. Pero gusto ko lang malaman niyong lahat!" I screamed, looking around the whole room.

"Na lahat ng sinabi ng babaeng ito! Ay pawang mga kasinungalingan lang! She's just jealous and can't keep her own  business and had to trespass someone's." I said, my fist turn into a ball.

"Now if you excuse, the show has ended. There's nothing more to see here." I said before rushing out of the room. Not minding the stares and looks from the students.

That's when more tears started falling down my cheeks. As I take the steps of the stairs with shaky legs and heavy breathing, I felt someone grab my wrist.

"Angel sandali..." I hear Ezekiel said before spinning me around. Gladly we are in the flat part.

"Angel..." he called my name with pity and sadness before pulling me for a hug.

That's when more tears started streaming down my cheeks as I grip on his shoulder, letting go of  the tears I've been holding back awhile ago.

"Ganun ba talaga 'yon? Why does people have to be that awful? Why can't they just mind their own business?!" I cried out, I felt him caress my back and try making me calm down.

"Nakakainis lang Ezekiel! I'm so happy when I'm with you! I'm happy when I see you smile and I hear you laugh, pero bakit ganun? Why do they need to make it look bad? As if may masama tayong ginawa?!" I cried once again and Ezekiel pull me closer to him as I tighten my grip on his shoulders burying my face to his shoulders.

"Ssshh~ just cry it all out Angel, kung ano man yung nararamdaman mo. I know its hard for you dahil ikaw yung nasira, ikaw yung pinag kwentuhan at tiningnan ng masama." He softly said as he caress my back.

We stood there for few more minutes, just me crying my eyes out as he stroke my back gentle. I slowly pull away and wipe my cheeks and eyes.

"Here..." he said, pulling out his white handkerchief and carefully wiping my face.

"Ezekiel..." I called and he softly hum while wiping my face.

"What if you stop courting?" I suddenly said, making him stop on his movements.

"Angel... if we stop, para na rin nating sinabi na tama sila at totoong may namamagitan sa atin. We are just in the courting stage and I'm barely doing the minimum. Marami pa akong pwedeng ipakita sayo. Marami pa akong pwedeng gawin para mapa-oo ka. Angel don't let them destroy kung anong meron na tayo, kahit yung pagkakaibigan palang natin." He said and I slowly nod. Immediately realizing what he mean.

Oo nga naman, why am I so selfish? He have done so many good things to me already. And he's right, para na rin naming sinabi na tama sila kung titigil kami. Kung hindi talaga totoo ang mga sinasabi nila at magkaibigan lang talaga kami ni Ezekiel, wala dapat kaming itigil at itago pa. Except sa panliligaw niya.

Me and Ezekiel decided to have some snacks first in the cafeteria so calm myself down. I know our driver is waiting for us already but I also know he understands. Hindi lang ito ang time na na-late kami sa usual dismissal time namin. We sometimes get late and our reason is project, meetings, or extended classes. Our driver don't even care as long as he's doing he's job to bring us back and forth to school. And sometimes guard is in events and malls.

"Are you feeling better?" Ezekiel softly ask, I look at him and nod before putting down my kamote cue and slowly nodding.

"Yes, I feel better now. Thank you." I said and he smiled, his eyes also not visible.

"Asaan na kaya si Ellie and Ace? I feel bad that I left her there." I said and I hear Ezekiel flick his tongue.

"Don't feel bad, you need to let out your emotions kanina, and if you stayed there, who know kung anong pwede mong gawin." He said and I slowly nod.

We stayed there for few more minutes until Ellie and Ace showed up.

"Hey... saan kayo galing?" I hesitantly ask, Ellie look at me and sigh.

"Sa guidance... it was nothing, I just need to make mom and dad sign these papers. No big deal, parang itlog lang ng ostrich."

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