He came to see me today. I looked at him and just smiled as if nothing was wrong... As if I did not want to stand up to him and tell him how he could never love her as much as I would...
Of course, I could not and will not tell him of how I feel. I will be the last person to shatter him. I cannot let him down...
But oh, how I want to.
It's funny because again, I prove to myself how my mother's words still ring true to this day!
I am selfish!
I tell myself that I do not care; I can live without her! I tell myself he deserves her and that he should be happy with her...
But all the while, I covet her with my heart and soul! I consume her day and night in my mind with the passion and desire I have for her!
I know I can never be happy without her... To think that I have accepted my fate
