The Rightful Luna

Chapter 18 I Felt The Mate...

Eva's POV.

His words tore me apart. I was beyond astounded and broken that he wanted to reject me.

I expected him to vent his anger on me and yell angrily about how much I hurt him but to reject me was worse than anything else.

I had been rejected once and it was going to happen for the second time. My life was worse than miserable, it had been rendered emotionless and unhappy forever.

I could accept rejection from anyone else but not my Alpha Trent, he shouldn't reject me because it would be death of me. I would not be able to handle another rejection.

"W–what are you saying?" I gasped in tears.

"You heard me properly and I believe your mind is mature enough to understand that you should prepare for my rejection tomorrow" Alpha Trent said coldly.

I had never seen such coldness from him before. There was no single warmth in his eyes, there was nothing but darkness and void.

"Why do you want to reject me?" I asked with tears rolling down my cheeks.

"I owe you no explanation to my decisions, I need you to pre–"

"Then why don't you reject me now?" I tested his patience.

Was there a certain reason for him suspending the rejection or was this just one of his tricks?.

"I don't want to reject you in your ill state because unlike you, I don't love seeing people in pain" He replied, emotionlessly.

Each but of his words hurt so much, it was like my hearts were being stabbed with knives.

"You shouldn't care about someone whom you are about to reject, just reject me if that is what you want. There is no need to suspend things" I said sternly while staring at him but there was no change in expression.

Not even a single strain showed on his face.

"I, Alpha Trent Smith–"

I rushed to him and slammed my lips on his before he could complete his statement. I kissed him like my life depended on because he was my life, oxygen. I was nothing but a corpse without him.

I had no purpose without him, my life would be empty and void.

I pressed my lips harder on his but he refused to open up to me. He tightened his lips and pushed me away.

"Ha!"

He wiped his lips in irritation.

"Don't reject me" I sobbed childishly and wrapped my hands around him.

"I beg you don't reject me, I can't live without you" I cried while tightening my grip around him.

"Let go of me" He grabbed my arms and pushed me slightly away from him.

"You can't live without me, really?" Alpha Trent asked and raised his eyebrows in disbelief. “The last time I recalled your words, you preferred living as a rogue than staying with me” He reminded me.

“You wanted to live as a rogue and I want to grant you your wish" He spat angrily while holding his arms aggressively.

I had never seen such hurt in my eyes before and he never handled me so violently. I had to admit that I messed up big time.

"You desired to live as a rogue, all alone in dark places then I will make sure you get what you deserve. I don't deserve to have a mate like you, I deserve better" Alpha Trent snarled and released my arms.

"This is about my status right?"

"You should shut up your mouth for once and think sensibly because you only act immature and foolish. Do you think that I didn't have a choice to reject you or did you think my life would have been worse if I didn't reject you at first sight?" He questioned furiously.

His scary tone made me shiver and flinch.

" I am the Alpha of Black moon pack and I need no Luna to define my position or my life. I had the choice to reject you and claim a good and suitable female as my Luna but I didn't, instead I chose to be with you and spend the rest of my life with you!"

There was so much pain and anguish in his voice. I had doubted him and said things that had scarred him.

"Eva, I chose you but you made me wistful about it. It was at that time I realized that you were the most selfish person I had ever met. You accused me and allowed me to bleed while you stood there making irrelevant points!" Alpha Trent yelled.

"You weren't concerned about my health, you didn't care if I bled to death in that spot. Who does that?"

"I'm sorry" I sobbed,fat balls of tears were rolling from my eyes down to my throat.

"Sorry can't take everything away, they will always be in my memories and cannot be taken away or changed” Alpha Trent mumbled and relaxed his back on the pillows behind.

" I don't detest you, I could never hate you Alpha Trent; you are my whole life and your life and mine are entwined. I'm sorry for letting my anger get the better of me" I apologized and moved closer to him.

"Stay away from me, I don't want to hear anything from you, I have made up my mind and there is no changing it" He stopped me and said.

He talked like a totally different person. No one's emotions change so quickly.

It was like he never felt anything for me from the beginning.

"Did you ever feel anything for me from the beginning?, apart from the draft that I was your mate; did you ever–"

"I never loved you or cared for you, I only showed you those emotions because you were my mate but I can't continue dwelling in such pretense anymore. You are truly not worth being my mate. Your place is as a rogue" He muttered while staring straight into my eyes.

"Fine, you are free to reject me"

"I wasn't waiting for your permission" He retorted.

I wasn't going to humiliate myself or beg him any longer, he was free to do whatever pleased him.

Even though this rejection would convert me into a rogue and a prey to Liam. I would accept it with my head up high.

"You will exit the pack and never return after this rejection" Alpha Trent ordered.

"Yes, Alpha" I bowed slightly,accepting my fate.

"I, Alpha Trent; reject you, Eva Zeigler as my mate…"

My heart shattered and squeezed in immense agony.

I endured the pain and replied. “I accept your rejection, Alpha Trent "