I was on cloud nine . My entire future was in front of my eyes . I was lost after what happened with my brother but with him I thought I found a way to be happy
again . I was very happy but that's the thing about cloud nine it does not last forever . And when I fell , all my hope and dreams get shattered . It was night . I
was sitting in my room reading my favourite novel when I heard a thud on my window . I always had my brother to protect me but after he was gone every little
thing scared me . I heard a thud again . Fear took over me . I thought someone was trying to get in my house through the window . I tried to ignore it at first but
I couldn't . I grabbed a knife in my hand just to be on a safer side , you know . I went close to the window . The window opened and someone jumped in . I was all
ready to attack but then ,
James " Oh God , it's me Elena . "
Elena " What are you doing here ? "
James " Were you planning to kill me ? "
Elena " How was I supposed to know that you were sneaking in my house through the window . "
James " I thought that it will be exciting . "
Elena " I have a door if next time you have to come then please use the door . "
James " After today , definitely I will use the doors . "
Elena " So what are you doing here ? "
James " I was here to surprise you . "
Elena " Oh ! and I ruined it . "
James " Yes , you did . Ouch my head I thing I banged my head against something while jumping in . "
Elena " Wait I will get you something . "
James " No just stay here . It feels good to have you close . "
Elena " Why were you here to surprise me ? "
James " Why shouldn't I be here ? Have you forgotten what happened in the music room ? "
Elena " No I didn't . "
James " It felt so nice . How many boys have you dated ? "
Elena " I have never dated anyone before . "
James " You are kidding right . I mean just look at you , you are beautiful , you are elegant , you have the most beautiful smile in the world . I have never seen such a
beauty . Guys must be dying to date you . "
Elena " No , I don't think so . "
James " And why is it so ? "
Elena " Everyone at school thinks I am a freak , and so would have you if you were an old student . "
James " I don't think so . I will never think that about you . You are certainly not a freak . "
Elena " Really , so tell me what am I ? "
James " You are the most beautiful girl in the world . The girl you every guy wants to fall in love with . "
Elena " How many girls have you dated ? "
James " To be honest I have dated a lot of girls . We can say that I was trying to find my perfect mate but I didn't found her in any of these girls . "
Elena " Am I also one of those girls ? "
James " No you are not . You are different . You are special . I want to tell you something . "
Elena " So tell me . "
James " No not like this . We will act the whole scene again . I will jump down your window and this time you will not attack me . "
Elena " Will you climb up my window all over again ? "
James " I think we can skip this part . "
Elena " Yaa that will be nice . "
James " So shall we start . "
Elena " Yes , go ahead . "
James ( shouts ) " Surprise ! ! ! ! ! ! "
Elena " oh jeez , James you scared the hell out of me , what are you doing here ? Aren't you supposed to be at Bryan's ' Back to school ' party . "
James " I can ask you the same question young lady , aren't you supposed to be at Bryan's ' Back to school ' party . As far as I know you are invited ."
Elena " I was not well today . "
James " What happened to you ? Are you fine ? Do you want me to take you to the doctor ? "
Elena " No, I am fine, it was just headache . "
James " Oh ! I was worried about you . "
Elena " You were worried about me . "
James " Why won't I be , moreover I thought that you are trying to avoid me . "
Elena " Why will I avoid you ? "
James " I don't know you tell , I thought that maybe you are angry about what happened between us at school . "
Elena " No I am not angry about that , you didn't forced me . "
James " Actually I was not talking about the kiss , I meant that I didn't took you in my team for science project actually my friends got me in and I was not able to
pass it on . "
Elena " Oh ! that , no , no , no , why will I be angry about that . "
James " By the way it was about the kiss also , so you don't mind it , it was just casual , right . "
Elena " Yes , off course it was just causal , like casual - casual . "
James " So you are saying that it didn't meant anything to you cause it did meant something to me . "
Elena " No it did , I mean that , Uhhhh ! , I got it you are trying to trap me in your words . "
James " You got me , See I have got you some flowers and this novel may be we could read it . The flowers got ruined but we can still read the novels . "
Elena " I will keep the flowers over here , you know roses are my favourite . "
James " So this is your room . "
Elena " Yup ! "
James " It's beautiful , it just smells like you . "
Elena " You stay here , I will get us something to drink . "
James " No , No I am good, stay here . Talk to me . "
Elena " So I think we should read . "
( James kept his finger on her lips . )
James " Do you really want to read ? "
Elena " What do you mean ? What else can we possibly do ? Do you want to watch something ? "
James " That was just an excuse , I can't stop thinking about you , I feel like I am going crazy about you . The first time I saw you , I thought that you are the most beautiful
girl in this whole world ."
He touched my face and then glided his hands down my curves. It felt like he was touching every nerve of my body. He then came close, grabbed me by my
waist and pulled me closer and brought his lips close to mine and then whispered " I think I like you Elena " and then he slided his lips against mine.
He was running his left hand through my hair and was holding my waist with his right hand. He touched my shoulders and then passed his fingertips all the
way down my body. He took off his t-shirt. I no longer cared about anything, I just wanted to get lost in the moment . . . . . . . . .
I touched his hair as he laid fast asleep beside me. Maybe he was the key to my happy future . I cuddled him and went off to sleep . I woke up after an hour or so
and he was not there , his stuffs were also not there . He didn't left any message or a note . He was just gone . It was strange but I started giving false consolations to
myself . Maybe he had some urgent work and he didn't wanted to wake me. It's sweet right, he thought about me . I thought that I will ask him when I will meet him tomorrow.
25 SEPTEMBER 2018:
Dear diary, I ones read somewhere don't make someone your priority when you are only there option, today I realized it's true meaning. . Scars have the strange
power to remind us that our past is real. Well I have a lot of scars. I tried hard to cover them and ignore them but I failed. My scar, my past reminds me that I am
doomed. And that's my reality. You can try to hide your reality but you cant escape it. It keeps haunting you. For a moment I felt that maybe I could be happy, maybe I
could lead a normal life but that was just my fantasy. Reality is like the sun and fantasy is like the darkness. As soon as the reality sets in fantasy sets out.
What is a nightmare? Is it the horrific dream that you see when you are asleep, no, it's the reality that awaits for you when you are awake. Yesterday ended last
night and today was different. We live in a fantasy world, a world of illusion . The greatest task is to find the reality. Everyone around us where a mask,
they try to present themselves like someone they are not.
I spend the last night thinking about James , thinking about us , what are future could be like . I waited for the sun to rise so that I can see him again . I woke up before the alarm. I know it will
sound very stupid but I just for a while and wondered which color James might wear today so that I can do twinning with him. I ended up choosing a black outfit.
I tried to bake some cookies for James but I ended up burning them all. So I thought I will buy some cupcakes for him. A sweet start of a new chapter of our lives.
I asked Kevin to come a bit early so that we could make a stop at the bakery,
Kevin " Hey , am I late why are you waiting out "
Elena " No , you are not late I was just taking in some fresh air "
Kevin " Why did you ask me to come early, is everything fine "
Elena " Yes everything is fine , actually I wanted to make a stop by the bakery , I have to fetch some cupcakes "
Kevin" Is it your birthday "
Elena " No , don't talk so much , move now "
Kevin " Okay ma'am as you say , The Beanery is famous for it's homemade cupcakes "
We stopped by the beanery , I didn't knew James's favourite flavors , so I got all the flavors that were available . There was a sudden moment of anguish , I wondered
why didn't he try to reach me after what happened yesterday . Wasn't it special for him ? Or was he too shy to talk about it ? Maybe he had some urgent work to
deal to , but he could take out at least a minute to text me . I tried to convince myself literally by giving a thousand of lame excuses . My eyes searched for him
as soon as I entered school premices .