The m**********n Game.

Chapter Seven- You Slut

Well. Here I am.

Lying in my bed waiting for someone to smack me across my pale, blushing face.

How could I? How could you? Why did I f*****g do that? Why did you f*****g do that? How am I not throwing up right now?

I’m sinking in a pit of guilt that’s wrapped in a freezing blanket of disgust and humiliation.

I went to go see Sam this morning and she's just as pale as I am. I touched her face and it was cold. Deathly cold and I could still feel it in the tips of my fingers.

"Kalie, sweetie. You haven't gotten out of bed all day."I heard my mom say on the other side of my door. I firmly pushed my pillow on top of my face harder to prevent anyway for me to breathe. I wanted to just die.

I mean, it's totally normal for girls to suck d**k, right? Especially if the guy is a complete f*****g scumbag. Right?

It could have been worse. He could have taken my virginity and I'd regret that for the rest of my miserable High School career.

I keep pushing my face deeper into the pillow and it feels like it's pushing me right back.

There was another knock.

I rose my heavy, brooding head yelling, "Mom, please leave me be!"

It went silent and it gave me chills down my back. The guilt rising further as I backlash my anger toward my loving mother.

"IIt’s Ally, hun."I heard and I felt my cheeks completely redden.

I paused briefly. Confused a bit.

"Come in."I invited with my voice softening.

The door slowly creaked open and I saw Ally dressed in all blue. To her payless Toms. To her spaghetti strap tank top, and teenage typical white girl cotton candy skinny jeans.

She closed the door gently as if she was scared to make any noise at all and I just watched as she calmly paced at the foot of my bed. Ally was examining me. Smiling with her arms folded as if she were some cartoon supervillain.

"H-How do you know where I live?",I heard my voice crack.

She was hesitant but his name came out slowly out of her mouth, "Leo."

I’m not surprised. He's always been full of crazy surprises. Lately, his spontaneous behavior has gotten more senile. I suppose he’s had a lot of time to change since the last time we actually spoke.

"I just wanted to come by and make sure you were alright and see if you came home safe. You left sorta sudden after “what happened” "She says quoting it playfully with her fingers.

"How the hell was I supposed to react?",I questioned reasonably with the tightening clutch of my pillow.

She noticed my anxious behavior and her eyes steadily went to the floor and back up to me.

"You could have a least let him finish yo-" I interrupted her with an unyielding rise of my hand. Argh... I was already sick enough.

She was silenced. Yet, her slow walk in front of me continued.

I couldn’t even look at her. She tangled me into this load of s**t. That sweet girl who was just a locker partner has become an unsuspecting foe has bottled my mind completely.

"I promise. We will always keep the other night a secret. Everyone in that house party has played the game. Don’t feel like a lone wolf. We’ve all done it" She said as if she's trying to convince me like this charade wasn't completely premeditated.

She began to sigh and she sat on the bed with me.

"Kalie, you are very pretty. You are the perfect, pure girl that every guy would want, let alone; need. I've seen you, Kay. In your little box that's surrounded by pillows because you're afraid of getting hurt. Shy to get out of your comfortability. You're scared to be something new and just wasting a better future away just by even being Sam's “sidekick”.” Ally projects.

I felt shut down.

Oh, god…..

Sam.

Hearing her name made my insides squeeze together.

Ally paused once more. The room getting smaller and my anxiety getting the best of me.

"Leo never mentioned anything about you until that day in the classroom. He's always been an open book about his feelings in our group, but when anyone asks more about you. He completely silences. Why is that?"Ally lays stomach flat, looking at me for an answer.

Talk about making matters worse.

"I don't...know” I whimpered.

She nodded and quietly just shrugged.

I puckered my lips to the side still scanning Ally's body language. It's still too....giddy? It’s playful and clearly nonchalant.

Ally sighed and replied, ”Well, then.” With a smirk still on her face. She followed with, ”Oh, by the way! I need something from you.”

I laughed sarcastically before replying, "No. Enough. I don't owe anything to anyone. Especially, you.”

Ally's giggle was deviant. Her head tilted and she answered with, ”Oh? Really?” She had placed her hands on her hips and continued, ”Sweetie, I own you. Don't you know I still have that cute little video of you on your knees getting c*m shot in your throat?”

My body froze and it shattered me. I can feel my stomach churn violently even more.

"Anyway,” She says waving what I said completely off. “I need you to play that game with a couple other guys. They so happened to be at the party and they really--REALLY enjoyed your performance” She winked.

"Are you insane?...."I asked in seriousness.

I paused looking at her with extreme disgust.

"Remember. You have no choice, girly" She says toying and looking at her fingernails unbothered.

“You're not serious …..”I say mostly to myself, looking at her blankly.

She snapped her head up and rolled her eyes.

“Mm. Yeah. I'm totally serious, but it doesn't matter anyway. They're paying. Loosen up.”She says smiling widely.

"Wait, what? What do you mean they are paying? That's illegal!",I say trying to lower my voice down just in case mother was eavesdropping.

"I'm going to be there with you, sweetie. Now make sure you wear a dress or skirt. It’s easy to access."She said standing up from my bed.

She finished with, "Don't be like Sam and be stupid."

That's when my lungs paralyzed.

"Meet me at Denny's after school tomorrow. I'll be sitting in the back. They will be sitting across from us casually and come over when you arrive. Don't be shy. They understand that you are still a virgin. Think of this as--Uhh? A date." She smiled then laughs in between.

I still say absolutely nothing. She pulled her hair to her right shoulder and waves, "See you later, bestie."She tugged.

She went out of my room with pep in her step and all I could do was just watch and descend heavily back onto my pillow.

Screaming loudly into it and held back my burning tears.

What the f**k did I get myself into?