Chapter Four: Rules, Tension, and Dangerous Smiles
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I should have left.
That was the logical thing to do.
Any sane person would have walked straight out of Ethan Blackwood’s penthouse the second he looked at them with those cold blue eyes and enough emotional damage to destroy a small country.
Instead, I stayed.
Which honestly explained a lot about my life choices.
Ethan watched me carefully from across the room after that smile disappeared from his face again.
Like it had never happened.
Like I imagined it.
The silence between us stretched long enough to become awkward.
Then longer.
Then somehow not awkward at all.
Outside the windows, snow drifted slowly over Manhattan while the city buzzed beneath us in distant lights and movement.
Warm golden light filled the penthouse.
Soft jazz played quietly somewhere behind me.
And Ethan Blackwood kept staring at me like I was either fascinating or deeply concerning.
Possibly both.
“Well?” I asked finally.
“Well what?”
“Are you firing me already?”
One dark eyebrow lifted slightly.
“You assume you’re hired?”
“Oh please,” I scoffed. “Your mysterious billionaire sister already likes me.”
“She likes stray cats too.”
“Are you comparing me to a stray cat?”
“You have the same survival instincts.”
Rude.
Accurate.
But rude.
I walked slowly around the living room while pretending not to be intimidated by literally everything.
The penthouse looked like one of those homes from magazines where nobody actually lived.
Perfect furniture.
Perfect lighting.
Perfect city view.
And somehow still emotionally empty.
My fingers brushed lightly across the edge of a bookshelf.
Books everywhere.
Not fake decorative books either.
Real ones.
Marked pages.
Folded corners.
Tiny details that made the place feel more human.
“You read a lot,” I said.
“I’m trapped here a lot.”
The answer came quietly.
Too quietly.
The sadness hidden beneath the words hit me before I could stop it.
I turned toward him slowly.
Ethan stared out at the city instead of at me now, jaw tight, expression unreadable.
And suddenly I understood something terrifying.
He wasn’t cold because he enjoyed it.
He was cold because feeling too much probably hurt.
Before I could respond, he looked back at me sharply like he regretted saying anything vulnerable at all.
“There are rules,” he said.
Ah.
There it was.
The emotional walls returning.
I crossed my arms. “This sounds threatening already.”
“You don’t ask personal questions.”
“Okay.”
“You don’t treat me like I’m fragile.”
“Fair.”
“You don’t lie to me.”
I paused slightly at that one.
“Specific.”
His eyes held mine steadily.
“People lie when they pity you.”
Something twisted unexpectedly in my chest.
Because for the first time since meeting him, Ethan sounded tired instead of sarcastic.
Not physically tired.
Soul tired.
The kind of exhaustion people carried silently.
I swallowed carefully. “I don’t pity you.”
“You just met me.”
“I know.”
“Then why don’t you?”
The question landed softly between us.
And for some reason, it felt important.
I looked at him for a long second before answering honestly.
“Because you’re still here.”
Confusion flickered briefly across his face.
I stepped closer slowly.
Not too close.
Just enough that the air changed slightly between us.
“Most people would’ve given up,” I said quietly. “But you’re still fighting even if you pretend you’re not.”
For one dangerous second, Ethan just stared at me.
The entire room felt still.
Heavy.
Like something invisible had shifted again.
Then suddenly—
His phone rang loudly.
The moment shattered instantly.
Ethan looked away first, jaw tightening in irritation.
“Saved by technology,” I muttered.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
He answered the call without taking his eyes off me.
“Yes.”
Silence.
Then colder:
“I said no.”
Another pause.
His expression darkened visibly.
“I don’t care what the board thinks.”
Board?
Interesting.
The businessman side of him appeared instantly.
Sharper.
More intimidating.
Even sitting in a wheelchair, Ethan somehow controlled the entire room without trying.
Power radiated naturally from him.
Honestly?
It was distracting.
Very distracting.
He ended the call abruptly and tossed the phone onto the couch beside him.
“You look annoyed,” I observed.
“I am annoyed.”
“Want me to fight someone for you?”
To my surprise, he laughed softly again.
God.
That laugh was dangerous.
Like the universe personally wanted to ruin my emotional stability.
“You flirt with everyone this quickly?” he asked casually.
My heartbeat immediately betrayed me.
“What?”
A slow smirk touched his mouth.
Oops.
He noticed.
“I’m not flirting,” I lied terribly.
“You’re terrible at lying.”
“Okay, first of all—”
“You get nervous and talk faster.”
I opened my mouth.
Closed it again.
Because annoyingly?
He was right.
Ethan looked entirely too pleased with himself.
“You enjoy this,” I accused.
“You make entertaining facial expressions.”
“You are unbelievably irritating.”
“And yet you’re still here.”
The words landed differently than they should have.
Softer.
Almost curious.
Like he genuinely wanted to know why.
Honestly?
I wasn’t sure myself.
Maybe because beneath the sarcasm and arrogance, Ethan felt heartbreakingly lonely.
Or maybe because when he looked at me, it felt like he actually saw me.
Not the struggling waitress.
Not the disappointing daughter.
Not the girl barely holding her life together.
Just me.
Which was somehow more terrifying than being ignored.
“You keep staring,” he murmured suddenly.
Heat rushed instantly into my face.
“I literally am not.”
“Lily.”
“I’m observing.”
“That sounds creepier.”
I rolled my eyes dramatically, trying to ignore the fact that he looked unfairly attractive in the warm lighting.
This was genuinely becoming a problem.
Then Ethan’s expression shifted slightly.
“You’re thinking again.”
“That sounds judgmental.”
“It’s accurate.”
I hesitated.
Then curiosity won.
Dangerous.
“Can I ask something?”
“You already are.”
“What happened to you?”
The second the words left my mouth, I regretted them.
Silence swallowed the room immediately.
Ethan’s expression closed off so fast it almost hurt to watch.
Right.
Personal question.
Excellent job, Lily.
“I shouldn’t have asked—”
“A motorcycle accident.”
I blinked.
The answer surprised me.
Ethan looked back out toward the city, voice calm and detached.
“Three years ago.”
Something inside me tightened painfully.
Three years.
Only three years ago, he had been walking around this exact penthouse differently.
Living differently.
Breathing differently.
And now—
Now he sat hidden behind expensive walls and loneliness sharp enough to cut people apart.
“That’s why everyone treats you carefully,” I realized quietly.
His jaw tightened instantly.
“I hate that.”
The anger in his voice startled me.
“They walk into rooms already feeling sorry for me,” he continued coldly. “Like my life ended and nobody informed me.”
I didn’t know what to say.
So instead—
I walked closer.
Close enough now that I could see tiny flecks of silver hidden inside his blue eyes.
Close enough to notice the tension in his shoulders.
“You know what I think?” I asked softly.
His gaze lifted slowly to mine.
“I think people stopped seeing you properly.”
Something vulnerable flashed across his face before disappearing again.
And suddenly the atmosphere changed.
Again.
The space between us felt smaller somehow.
Warmer.
My pulse thudded unevenly.
Because Ethan was looking at me now like he was trying very hard to understand something.
Or resist something.
I wasn’t sure which terrified me more.
Then quietly—
“So why do you keep looking at me like that?” he asked.
My breath caught slightly.
“Like what?”
“Like you’re trying to read my mind.”
A nervous laugh escaped me. “Trust me, your mind seems stressful.”
That earned the tiniest smile.
But his eyes stayed serious.
Focused.
Dangerously focused.
“I think,” he said slowly, “you’re the first person who’s spoken to me normally in a very long time.”
The honesty in his voice hit unexpectedly hard.
And suddenly I understood why Zara looked worried earlier.
Because Ethan wasn’t difficult in the way people assumed.
He was difficult because pain had taught him how to expect disappointment from everyone.
That kind of loneliness changed people.
Before I could respond, the penthouse doors opened somewhere behind us.
A woman walked inside laughing into her phone before freezing the second she saw me.
Tall.
Blonde.
Beautiful in the polished Manhattan way.
Her eyes moved between Ethan and me instantly.
Then narrowed slightly.
“Well,” she said smoothly. “This is new.”
The temperature in the room dropped immediately.
Ethan’s expression hardened.
And somehow—
Without understanding why—
Jealousy twisted unexpectedly inside my chest.
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