My Undoing

Chapter 13- Through the Looking Glass

Olivia's P.o.v

I feel almost weightless, like I'm floating in a shallow pool.I feel almost serene, then I notice it's getting darker out and I begin to shiver. That's when I feel something trying to pull me under and I begin to panic. I try to find something to help push me up but my weightlessness is suddenly snatched from under me and it's like I'm being held down in a pit of tar.I feel something or someone wrap around my neck and make their way down my breast then coil around my thighs. Almost like a snake, I feel their grip becoming tighter and tighter but I can't fight it.I look back and I can't see their face, it's getting harder and harder to breathe. I scream but nothing is coming out. I try to scream again and it's as if my I could feel my lungs filling with tar. That's when I open my eyes...."Olivia...Olivia WAKE UP..."

I'm met with his warm stare and he wipes away a tear streaming down my face. When did I start crying? He caresses my cheek and I lean into as if his hands too are made of warm honey. I can't suppress my tears and they begin to fall freely..."Hey..It's okay, you were having a nightmare...take a deep breath..." He wrapped his arms around me and I welcomed his embrace. I tried to break his hold, feeling utterly embarrassed and I feel as if I'm doing something wrong.But why? Is it because of who he is, or because I'm afraid of the consequences if the one who thinks he owns me finds out.

Owen feels me tense under him and slowly backs away but doesn't fully let me go.He looks at me with so much intensity that I try to look away. The way he looks at me makes me shift uncomfortably in bed... "You're ok, I promise...Do you want me to stay til you fall asleep?.." I nod sheepishly for him to stay and he takes a seat on the floor.

..."You could lay down if you want.." I don't know what compelled me to say this but before I can take it back he smiles and starts removing his shoes..."Maybe just over the covers.."He winks at me and I turn over before he sees the red flush all over my face. I feel the bed dip and then I feel his warmth wrap around me and I feel safe. I feel so relaxed laying beside him that I can feel myself drifting back to sleep slowly.

I feel his hand brush my hair back a bit and I have to control my breathing ..."Olivia...What happened? Who did this to you?..." I can feel his fingers trace the bruising around my neck so gently as if I were made of paper. I don't say a word knowing if I did I would lose the one who considered his mark permanent on my body...."Olivia look at me please.." I do as he says and I turn over avoiding his eyes purposely. "Olivia, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but please trust me you're safe.."His words washed over me and invaded every inch of my body, he caressed my cheek and my skin began to tremble under his touch.I don't know what came over me but when I looked at him it's as if someone else had control over my actions and I was too weak to fight it. I leaned in and kissed him, pressing my body close to his.With wild, vagrant desire my mouth begged for his, my hand found its way to his hair and tangled them into his curls.He let out a soft moan into my mouth and I felt it everywhere. I bit down on his lower lip and my hands were eager to undress him, then he broke my hold on him.

Both of our breathing was staggered and heavy and I know he could see the lust in my eyes..."Olivia, this is ... we should..,you should rest okay?.." I'm completely embarrassed, how could I be so stupid? Why would he want me, look at him and look at me.I lower my head in shame too afraid I'll see disgust in his eyes. I'm unable to say a word, he pulls the covers over me and rubs my shoulder but all I feel is the humiliation wash over me and wish I could disappear.

...."Sleep Olivia, and in the morning you'll feel better.." I turn over but can't fight the tears rolling down my face and I feel his arm wrap around me. Is this pity, or is he playing games with me.My head begins to pound but my body is to exhausted to fight the sleep it craves. Please let this all go away, please please please.