Unwavering Lust

Chapter 4

I wake up slowly but feel something heavy on me look down and see wilders arm wrapped around me he must of cuddled me and fell asleep the feeling is so different but I love the feeling of him wrapped around me.

The tingling and electricity on my skin is the most beautiful feeling ever, I don’t want to leave his warmth but I need to get up and pee. I remove myself slowly from his grasp and head to the bathroom once I’m done and refreshed I walk out then jump out of my skin as is wilder sitting on my bed it about gave me a heart attack, he looks at me with those multi colored eyes I just swoon at the sight of, he points his finger at me then motions for me to come towards him, slowly I walk up to him and stand right in front of him before I can even think or move a muscle he uses his speed and grabs my hip while grabbing one of my thighs and throws me onto his lap while letting out a deep growl that makes me feel something I’ve never felt before.

My breath catches in my throat as he buries his head into the crook of my neck while inhaling my scent deeply he grazes his nose on what will be my marking spot it makes me whimper and let out a small moan I’ve never moaned in my life so I have no idea how my body just reacts to this I mean I read erotica novels but never knew what that feeling was. Another low lust filled growl comes from him when he finally speaks “You will be mine soon not now but soon my queen” he says in a low husky tone, which makes me whimper again. He grabs my face gently while rubbing his thumb on my cheek the tingles are amazing it makes me close my eye I feel him lean forward and within a second his lips are on mine my first kiss with my mate also my first kiss ever his lips are soft, full, and so gentle, my lips slowly start to mold to his without even thinking about it I thrust my hands into his hair which earns me a growl in return makes me growl back his tongue swipes against my bottom lip asking for entrance my bring is screaming not yet but my body gives into him his tongue explores my mouth as I do the same to his. I think I’m gonna get addicted to his taste of coffee and vanilla. I break away from him breathless my wolf whines in my head wanting to close to her mate just like I do.

I cover my face and look down he bends alittle to look at my face “was it that bad” he laughs which in turn makes my giggle I shake my head “no it was wonderful that was the most perfect first kiss” he looks at me and studies my face “I’m glad I’ll get to be your first everything I hope from what I can smell you are still a virgin am I right?” He looks at me with his eyebrow raised I nod my head “just so you know that was my first kiss as well” I look up at him shock covering my face “I wanted everything to be with my mate not some other she wolf that won’t spend my life with I want my queen to have everything first” just hearing this almost makes me cry my eyes start to water he starts to worry I can see it in his face and eye “shhhh my queen don’t cry beautiful” I look at him then look down but keep a tight hold on him with my hands “I never thought I deserved a mate because of my past I will tell you one day but not yet” I say just above a whisper he cups my chin to make me look at him he kisses my forehead “when you are ready you tell me but baby you deserve the world I’ll give you anything you want except a rejection I will never do that” he says lowly.

After our small talk he grabs my hand and leads me down stairs it’s only two pm when we emerge from my room. Slowly we walk down the stairs towards the kitchen then the most wonderful smell hits me homemade donuts just like I used to make with my mom but when I walk in I see Ryan is making them which makes me gush with happiness, I walk over to him and wrap my arms around him “when did you get so grown up” he turns around and looks at me “I wanna be big and grown so I can take care of you and have my wolf sissy” I squeeze him into a tight hug “you’ll be all big and grown soon enough but just enjoy being young” I kiss him on the top of the head and start to help him make the donuts I get the sugar and powdered sugar to roll the donuts in after they are done. Ryan and I get into our groove of cooking together wilder sits at the table watching us work in sync starting to feel comfortable as Ryan and I are working I start to sing *I’m not perfect

But I keep trying

'Cause that’s what i said I would do from the start

I’m not alive if I’m lonely

So please, don’t leave

Was it something i said or just my personality... I love the song Perfect by hedley it always makes push myself outside my comfort zone with my singing level.

Once I turn around to start finishing the donuts final touches I look to wilders multicolored eyes and see him smile the most boyish grin which in return makes me giggle and smile back “You have the most beautiful voice” he gets up from his chair and walks over to kitchen counter. Ryan turns around and looks at him “She used to sing me to sleep every night I love her singing it reminds me of our mom she used to always be singing too” Ryan smiles at wilder “thank you bubba and yes she did I miss her singing” I say as I look down and focus on what I’m doing.

Wilder looks at me “Where are your mom and dad if you don’t mind me asking?” I tense just even hearing him ask it something I’ve been dreading telling I look at him and say the truth of what I know “I don’t know one day we were being attacked the next they were gone into thin air” I look at him and sighed “I want to know what happened but don’t know where to start all I know is my parents were protecting me from what I don’t know.” I looked down and finished off the donuts by placing them on a gold tray.

Placing them on the table I walked back to the kitchen to make some actual food and not just treats I was craving some sandwiches so I started pulling out everything I need, “would anyone like a sandwich?” I ask to no one in particular. All I hear is people shouting from different areas all saying yes I set everything on the counter wilder walks up to me “I’m sorry about your parents I will do everything in my power to help you if that’s what you want?” I ponder on that I finally look at him “let me think on it cause I don’t want to drag anyone into what has happened I can’t lose anyone else” I whisper the final part. He leans close to me I can feel his breath fan my face he finally leans down even more and kisses where my mark will go it makes me shiver he growls lowly which makes me shiver again, “Let me help you make the food it will go faster,” he and I get to work making the food and within ten minutes we have all the sandwiches made. “Good team work yessss” I say and raise my arms up in excitement he watches me and ends up laughing “You are to cute you know that” he says which makes me blush bright red I can feel it.

After everyone has eaten I get to work on cleaning the kitchen but before I can even start putting dishes in the dishwasher Marie walks up to me “Don’t you dare touch those young lady you get your butt back up stairs and rest wilder hun get her upstairs” before I can even move wilder walks up behind me and scoops me up bridal style which makes me squeal from the sudden movement and rushes me upstairs with his werewolf speed and gently set me on my bed. “You my queen need to get some more rest,” as he said this I did start to feel sleepy and before I even know it I feel into a blissful sleep.