Almost, Completely His

Chapter 19

My dearest love,

I have arrived at my station. This all still seems like a bad dream, and I am waiting to wake up next to you.

It isn’t until now that I’m truly understanding my fear of losing you for you are so far away.

I did the best I could to remember your face as I looked and held you one last time. Your sweet citrus scent, the warmth of your body against mine, the pink of your cheeks and red lips. I hear your soft but demanding voice everywhere I go and I will carry that with me until I come back to you.

Pearl will deliver all my letters during your stay with my family. Afterwards, please make sure to send me your new address.

I love you infinitely.

Dream of me for I will be dreaming of you.

Yours, Arthur

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Hello my love,

I can’t explain how much I miss you. I could barley leave my room after you left. But Pearl and Rachel made it bearable and kept me company.

Pearl even allowed me to sleep in your room the other night and I felt more at home there.

Charles is struggling without you here, I know he’s been crying even though he’s trying to hide it.

I’ll be leaving back to Spain in 3 days time. I will take a shirt of yours with me somehow to hold onto. Hopefully father and Enrique don’t notice.

I’ll have Pearl forward my home address.

I’ll wait for you- no matter how long it takes.

I’m yours, now and forever.

Take care.

Love, Celeste

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Celeste,

It’s been a month and I am sorry for making you wait.

I’ve been changed where I was stationed and hopefully I’ll be able to write more.

I hope you have taken something of mine with you- it’ll keep me close to your heart.

Men here talk about their wives and lovers, and I know I am not alone when I tell them I’m fighting to get back to the woman I adore. They understand and we promised eachother to help one another get back to our loves.

I even made a friend, his name is Frank Sanders. He’s as of now my closest companion.

I saw a giant tree here today and I thought about how much you’d love to read under it. There is a slight breeze as I write this and I swear that I can almost smell your perfume.

My heart breaks when I realize I don’t know how long I’ll be away from you. It’s hard to wake up in the morning knowing there’s no way of counting down the days I return to you. But I know I have to be strong and fight so I can hold you again.

I can’t lose hope because if I do, I lose you.

I’ll write to my brother, I miss him and want only the best for him. We’ve never been separated for too long and so far.

Please keep in contact with him too, I know your care for him too and he can use a friend.

Hope this letter gets to you quickly, I love you.

Stay strong, I will too.

Love, Arthur

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Arthur,

Your mother is heartbroken. Your father is at a loss for words and Charles is battling his own sadness.. all of this is coming from Pearl who has been so kind as to keep me updated.

I’ll write to Charles and your mother to be a friend, to be someone they can share their pain with.

Being back in my own bed, my room, my house and all doesn’t feel like home anymore. I don’t feel the security I did in your arms, holding your hand, hearing your voice or seeing your smile.

Father and Enrique are becoming impatient about my social season and my preparations. I have 3 years at most left and I fear they’re already looking for an arrangement.

They want my security and happiness to be prioritized.

But I’ll wait as I promised.

Nothing can change that.

Yours, Celeste

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Arthur,

I haven’t heard from you in over a month. I’ve sent you about 3 letters ever since the last.

I’m beginning to suspect the worst.

I’ve heard from both your mother and brother who haven’t heard from you either.

I do hope these letters are getting to you.

If this letter ends up in another’s hands please respond to this as well for I need to have an answer of where my love is. Even if he is not the one reading it.

Arthur, I hope to hear from you soon my love.

Yours, Celeste

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Arthur,

It’s been three months. I hope to hear from you my love.

I’m so very worried. How are you? Talk to me. Is there anything I can do?

Your family is also very much worried.

In the next season I’ll be visiting your family again. I hope that will make me feel closer to you.

Write back to me, make it back to me my love.

My heart and I are still waiting for you.

Celeste

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* three years later *

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Arthur,

Something has happened. Please write to me my love.

Please.

I must talk to you.

Be safe.

Celeste