Florida State Prison, October 2010
Dear Ava,
I cannot tell you how relieved I was to receive your last letter; I was so worried about you. You have never gone that long without replying before. I was imagining all kinds of worst case scenarios, and I was powerless to do anything. I had this awful, sickening feeling that you were crying out but no one was hearing you, that you were struggling to breath in a panic attack and that you were drenched in an anxious sweat that sent rivers of perspiration down your body to gather in the pit of your despair; then, I woke up and realised that it was me crying out again, me struggling to breath, and me covered in an anxious sweat as I dreamt about you.
There have been many nights when I have awoken like that Ava, as if I have had some kind of psyc
