Endless pain

Chapter 12

Sometimes promises are just as empty as the bottom of the bottle you hold. Sometimes people leave with a reason but keep it to themselves. Sometimes people lose their hearts along the way and forget about yours. This year has consisted of many losses for me, some good, some bad and some I'm indifferent about. I would be lying if I said I refuse to miss people who don't deserve my time or who don't miss me back. I am learning to grow, I am learning to try and be better. As I think these things I open my eyes, my ears are ringing but my body feels numb. Everything is in ruins around Rory and I, it's all in ashes and the thick smoke that surrounds us looks like mist. I can't see a dam thing but I do know I feel like hell. Rory hasn't woken up yet which is freaking me out even more but I can hear his heart beating which is a good sign I guess. Whoever bombed the house is long gone, well thank f**k for that I mean who just randomly throws a bomb into someone's house, what a bunch of wankers. I roll off Rory's body as I punch him in the arm he groans and sits up, as I finally get up off the ground, I head towards the closest exit. When we're both finally outside in the backyard we're both standing next to each other absolutely speechless. I take my bag off and search for some drugs to calm me down after what we just went through. When I find some I'm so happy and take out some water and a MDMA pill, i undo the lid and gulp down half my water. As I put the water bottle back in my bag I feel a bit light headed but it's probably just the shock of the after effects of the bomb. Rory looks over towards me very concerned I don't understand why he looks so shocked right now. As I look towards what he's staring at i realise that there's a massive piece of glass in my left shoulder. Well f**k this can't be good the last thing I remember is laying on the ground, while Rory was saying something that I can't hear because everything just turns black. I can't stay locked in this pain forever as another memory comes back to me in a dream.

I remember being alone on the run as I don't remember what day it would of been or what the time was. I don't even know what month it was all I had was that book that I wrote everything down in. I remember running into a shed i though it was abandoned but it turned out it wasn't. I saw some lowlife who I recognised from about a month ago he slammed my head against a glass table. He tried to r**e one of the girls that I had begun to become friends with her name was Alice. He neared her so I grabbed a lamp and smashed it over his head then I pushed him hard through the glass window and I saw him fall to his death. I guess he lived through that, Alice and I escaped and were on the run but we were found two weeks later. We took a lot of pictures together and tried to keep a low profile but for escaping they made me watch as my best friend got tortured. Her last words to me were I love you I cried and promised her I would get revenge for her. I still remember her long purple hair, her unique black eyes she was tanned and just a burst of energy some days. So when I saw him there in the shed I remember grabbing some rope tying the son of a b***h to a chair. I tortured him for hours then when the time was right I set the whole shed on fire with him in it and had no regrets I did it for Alice. I scream as I wake up and tears stream down my cheeks as I lay in a comfortable bed. I look towards my left shoulder it's healed completely but I don't understand how could this be possible. I'm sweating as I pull the covers off me and get up out of bed and stare out the nearby window. Where the f**k am I because where ever I am it's to good to be true. Someone knocks on my door as I yell "come in" I turn towards the door as Rory walks in. He's changed clothes and how is it he looks sexy all the time what is with that "can we talk now finally" I nod as he walks towards me standing right next to me. Xxx