30 AIDEN I stood in the shower, resting my forehead on the cool tile, scalding water beating on my sore muscles. Michael and I had pushed ourselves at the gym, and having started with that damn bike, I didn’t have much energy left. Jell-O legs, a shaky mind, unsettled emotions…I was a f*****g mess. All I could think about was Jed—how he fared at work, where his current headspace had taken him. I shut off the water and dried my body, scowling at my scruffy reflection. Telling myself I hadn’t made a mistake by pushing him away didn’t lessen the unease inside me. That whole if you love them let them go s**t…what if your love wanted you, your strength, your support, and you stepped back at the exact moment they needed you most? What if I’d made the wrong f*****g decision by forcing Jed t

