Physiotherapist

11. Crush

"wait, how do you mean, maybe I met him before, I'm confused" Sophia groaned at me after I told her everything what happened yesterday between Ben and me

"I'm confused because of everything what I just told you, that's why I wanted to talk with you, I don't know what to think nor even do" I said

"that's insane Els and also so exciting and interesting" she said as I was sitting there on the couch next to her, head leaned against back of the couch and eyes closed

"there is nothing exciting about this" I said and looked at her

"yes it is Els, you probably have been knowing Ben Chilwell, English and Chelsea footballer, before few years you went to school the same as him and he still remember you" she said

"there is no proof we know each other since then" I said

"and what do you want me to do?" she asked

"I don't want you to do anything, I just wanted to hear what you have to say about it but clearly you just see Ben and me as something" I said looking at her and raising my eyebrow

.....

"ELA, HEY, WAIT PLEASE" I heard him shouting and running after me

"what?" I asked and turned to him

"I remembered" he said

"you remembered what?" I asked

"I remembered how you seem familiar to me and how we knows each other" he said looking at me seriously

"and?" I asked waiting for him to tell me

"it's not a good idea to tell you in here" he said "would you come to mine at 7?" he asked

"okay" I said and turned away from him leaving Chelsea house and going home

....

"where you're going?" Sophia asked me

"I'm going to meet with Ben, he remembered some things so he wants to tell me" I said and she just smiled

"okay have fun" she said

Gladly she decided to stay for three more days so later tonight when I will come at my apartment I will have her there so I could tell her what Ben will tell me.

On the way to Ben's I felt really nervous, I didn't know what to expect nor even think what he could remember. The way to his seemed much longer than it actually is.

"hey" he said opening doors for me

"hey" I said and nervously smiled entering his apartment

"do you want something to drink?" he asked from the kitchen as I sat on the couch in his living room

"no, thanks" I said wanting to find out what he have to tell me as soon as possible

"here" he said giving me a glass of tonic

Of course, he is so stubborn how could I forgot that.

"so?" I broke silence of nervousness

"I don't want you to be mad at me because of something what happened few years ago" he started

"just spill the tea Ben" I said

"it will be kind of creepy but when we were at school together I was some kind of stalking you" he said and I got confused

"I had a crush on you, I didn't know you then but I knew you were different and I just wanted to meet you and hang out with you, yeah I had feelings for you without actually knowing you but it was kind of your fault because you never gave anyone opportunity to meet you, you were barely seen on hallways of school and you were leaving school right after your class finished" he said looking at me

"just few times I heard your laugh and it stay carved in my mind" he said

"are you sure in that?" I asked

"yes" he said

"I don't know" I said putting hands on my face

"that can't be, someone like you will never like someone like I was then, that's impossible" I said

"why would you say that? Why would you think that?" he asked taking his hands away from my face

"because I was fat, I was ugly, that's impossible to some cute, handsome, talented guy like you to like someone like I was then" I said as small smile played on his face

"you fat and ugly?" he asked laughing

"never Ela, never, you were beautiful on the way you were, you are now beautiful on the way you are and my eyes never saw fat and ugly Ela, she was always beautiful in my eyes just because she was herself and special on the way she were and still is"he said cupping my face

"I liked you just because of that who you were, I am just sad because you didn't gave me a chance to get closer with you then, it all could be different" he said looking me straight into eyes

"I don't this to change something between us, I don't want you to be mad at me because of that" he said leaning his forehead on mine

"let us be friends, no matter on what happened few years ago" he said still cupping my face

....

It past four days since Ben's and mine conversation about what happened few years ago. To be honest, we didn't talked much, we stayed on professional relationship. Outside work we don't talk either, we didn't hang out nor anything else.

"I twisted my ankle" I heard his voice as he walked into my physiotherapist room

"lay please" I said staying on professional voice

"which one?" I asked sitting in front of him as he laid down on bed

"right" he said with serious voice what made me look up at him, he wasn't looking at me what made me worry

He was the one who said let's be friends no matter on what happened few years ago and now he is the one who decided to stay distance even more than we already are.

"take this, put it on your ankle at least once a day, if pain won't went away in next two days or if it will hurt you more, we will record it but it doesn't seem to be something bad, you just twisted it, nothing bad" I said giving him gel

"thank you" he said and left the room taking gel with him