Psychosis

It's just a dream.

"Ok remember Melina, if anything just give me a call. I'll be able to help you" I waved goodbye to the woman who had taken care of me my whole life, smiling almost proud to see me go and make a proper woman of myself. With tears in her eyes and tears in mine, smiling and saying our goodbyes,

I waved at my therapist.

Once she was gone back inside the house I stopped smiling and wiped the tears from my eyes. I would not be calling her ever again. Last time I did, she kept me locked up and i was not set free from her sessions until today. I'm now 27. I have know this woman since the age of 15. She practically raised me, but she was no mother.

Dr. Ross thought I was getting a job for the government as an assistant, and that's were I was currently heading over too. My government job.

"Welcome, name and badge number?"

"Recruit Gristel, badge 5607"

"Alright recruit welcome to base"

This was a special forces base.

I secretly had been training to join the war recruits, but believe it or not, I'm quite the coward. So instead, I realized around the age of 20 that I was getting a good enough skill of pretending to be someone I wasn't. So I might as well use it in my favor.

"Your Melina right?" I turned around to see a man around 5'8 more lean than muscular with a very noticeable temper.

"Yes sir" my mind went blank and I was in Surface mode. My 'person' for this job.

"Do you realize your late?"

"I'm sorry, I had stuff to wrap up at home" he flipped through his paper work and raised his eyebrows.

"A mental institution is home?. Should I be concerned of future episodes?"

"No sir, I dont have episodes" the urge to roll my eyes was there.

"Oh then your sane but have been in there since the age of 15?" he sounded skeptical. I knew they would know, but not pry.

"Yes sir. It happens when your mother dies and you have nowhere else to go" He didnt even blink. Woah.

" Well here are your room keys and your badge" and just like he arrived he left.

I set my bag down in my new room and threw myself on the bed. I was already set for a job at the end of the week. So all I had to do was wait until then. I fell asleep.

It was a sunny day, my mom came to pick me up and we started walking home. She would ask me how was my day and we would talk normal stuff. I couldn't really see her face but I recognized her long black hair that she braided almost every day.

"Did you hear me?"

"Yes"

"Good, then we will go there tomorrow"

The scene changed and I was sitting down in front of a desk speaking to Dr. Ross.

"I don't know" I said, Dr. Ross smiled.

"That's ok, that's ok , so why don't you tell me your story instead, its fascinating " She heard it once before but it seemed that she didnt really pay attention at the time, since my mom was the one explaining it.

"There was a boy who saved me from a car on the street..." she smiled

"In your dream?" I nodded.

I didn't realize at the time, but I had met him before. He had saved me from a car as I was about to cross the street. As all dreams do they turn weird.

He would show me how to float In the air and mostly we would spend our time on the roofs of houses. After that in real time I tried drawing the boy but I could never draw his face. I forgot all about it, until I turned 15.

I don't remember the whole dream anymore just the ending. I was with a guy and it seemed we were older, I looked at his hand and he was holding mine, both had rings on our fingers. He squeezed my hand and I smiled at him. We then suddenly stopped and he turned me to face him he held on to my shoulders and said We would never meet again. I woke up almost immediately and as soon as my brain caught up with my memory , I felt the most painful heartbreak I had ever felt, i cried, my tears felt hot as they dripped down my face. I grabbed onto a pillow an could not help my sobs from coming out. It was painful. I truly believe I was in love with him.

Dr. Ross looked up at me as I stopped.

"Then what happened?" she stared at me.

"I woke up"

"Why did you wake up"

"He told me we were not going to meet again, and he let go" The doc nodded her head.

"And that's why you woke up crying"

"Yes." I turned away embarrassed.

"But Melina your mother said that she heard you sobbing and screaming and that you told her you could not breathe" I didn't say anything I continued looking at the floor.

Another scene

"Dr. Ross she is still writing about it" My mom had found one of my journals. I had another dream of us married, and he said the same thing. That we wouldn't see each other again. I woke up sobbing again but this time I bit into my hand. She saw my hand the next day.

"I suppose this is more serious then" a few weeks later my mom passed.

Her last words to me were.

"Melina it's just a dream"