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The Var I left in the Forest wasn’t the same man I found again. He was… calmer, sadder, overtaken with melancholy. I wasn’t sure what changed, but it seemed like he lost all hope and joy. I wasn’t sure whether that was a good or bad thing, but he agreed to teach me and that was all that mattered. As long as I could save my friends and control this darkness within me, I would be alright. I hoped…
Maybe it was idle hope to believe I could change what I was, what I carried with me. But all I could do was try. All I needed was a glimmer of hope to keep myself from falling into the abyss and surrendering to my fate.
With that in mind, I took a deep breath and sat down next to the tree Var chose for me. We were doing a new kind of meditation that he claimed would allow me to tap into the V
