Make it Work

Discharged

28 June 2019, Friday

Second day in the hospital, my eyes feel heavy as I open them up and deep down, I wish that when they are fully open, everything that has occurred up to now was a nightmare. But who am I kidding? I might just have to accept everything that has happened and move on with life like nothing ever happened. That will be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, let alone if I am able to accomplish it. I just have to lie in this little bed for a while as I gather up my strength, waiting for my sister to come and pick me up from here and hopefully she is the one who is coming to pick me up. But if it is her that comes to get me from here, my day with people will start off in bad way. I will keep my fingers crossed.

Getting myself up into a sitting position, “I will need something to strengthen my fingers so that will not happen to me today I want to have a good day today.”

“What do you wish not to happen today?”

Startled by her voice, I quickly place my hand on my heart and freeze for some time with a terrified look on my face. I take some more time to settle my riled-up fear so I can speak well. At least I am not inclined to look at her and I do not want to look at her.

Clear my throat, “What are you doing here?”

“What do you mean, what am I doing here? Am I supposed to be elsewhere?”

“I do not know, you tell me!”

“Are you going to punish me for that one mistake I did at a moment of weakness? I am sorry for what I did.”

“I can almost consider giving you a role in my upcoming movie. (laugh) Tell me something, who is the father of your child? And do not try to divert or s**t on me right now!”

“Steve!”

I pause with a blank stare on my face, “Please tell me it is not the person who I think it is!”

“Your friend Steve!” she confirms.

This just gets getting heavier and heavier on me. But why did he not sleep with me and pin it on me though? Why is she doing this to me?

“I need you to leave.”

“Can we not just talk about ……...”

“Leave!”

A tear would help ease my pain but this too much for me even my tears are refusing to flow out of my eyes. My mother said to me that I should get myself a wife that goes to church but this is my reality, what God hides in his precious religion promiscuous things such as her. And it seems she has not moved at all and she does not have any intention of doing so. I can feel her staring at me and it feels like her eyes will not be moving for a while.

“Are you going to leave or should I leave? I mean it is a pretty simple thing to do. The door is over there and you are here and it will not even take you a lot of steps and time to get up and just leave.”

“Why are you being like this, can we not just wait till we get home so that we can talk about this?”

“Me? I did and am not doing anything and I will not anyway. There nothing to be discussed here. I just want you to close the door behind you. That is all”

“I do not know why I loved you so much and why I gave you so much trust and had faith in you. After all that you played me and you are here acting up with an innocent face thinking I will buy it?”

I laugh out loud and I think those outside heard me laugh. But who cares? I have been forced to chew what I cannot swallow, so a little cough to relieve myself should be expected at this point.

“Now leave!”

Growing up I was always told to get myself a beautiful wife but what is beauty when inside the woman is rotten and poisonous? I do not want to hate her; she just needs to leave me alone. This thing here will not even work. It was built on a foundation of deception. All those things my mother told me saying they are good about women are turning into lies. Finally, she is leaving, I can get a little bit of calmness because this is just too much for me.

Right now, I just wish I had some music with me to help calm my nerves and I have got to applaud myself for not wavering like I always do.

At that moment my sister budges into the room, she stops observes for a while looking at the gloomy expression on both our faces. What will she ask now? If she learns about what happened she will kill Vimbai at this spot.

“Good Morning!”

“Why do I get the feeling that it is not as good as you want it to look?”

“What do you mean?” I ask her acting confused to what she is saying.

Tanyaradzwa continuously exchanges glances back and forth between me and Vimbai, “The atmosphere in here seems tense!”

I laugh, “Do not try to get in too deep with this, you might get devoured.” Breathe heavily and continue, “I just want to get home and sleep now.”

“How rude! Good morning to you my sister in law,” she says so jocundly

Vimbai forces a smile, “Good Morning to you too, how are you?”

“I am good and you? Can you tell me what happened here?”

“There is nothing wrong really, trust me sis!” I quickly cut off the question to Vimbai.

Her face gradually changes, “I recall enquiring what is wrong from Vimbai this time and with you trying to block her from answering shows there is something wrong.”

“Not now sis, we will talk later. Right now, let us just get home.”

“Okay, let us wait for the doctor to clear you out of this place.”

“Thank you.”

From her on when my sister stops insisting on me telling what the issue is and for a long time there is an awkward silence. With me trapped in my mind contemplating on what is going to happen after this because none of the events that have occurred were never in my plans but here, I am, in need of a plan on how to overcome or side step this disaster I blindly invited into my life. But it does not feel like we will be alright. Instinctively get up out of bed and head straight for the door.

“Where are you going?”

“I am going to get some water to drink and we do not have to do play by play am not a baby.” I forget to keep my emotions in check as I answer her.

“Yooh! What is wrong? Where did that come from? Is everything okay with you?”

“I am fine Tanya; I just have a lot on my mind.”

Leave the room with haste before she says anything else leaving the two of them alone in the room. The times change but when they drastically change at a pace you cannot keep up with you need to shut the world out and figure out what you need to do on your own.

“Where are you going?”

I remain trapped in my thoughts, but it seems the voice is still enquiring something of me. Continue on my journey to get some water and fresh air. But the road seems too long and my mind is all over the place not on a focused point. I turn to return to the room without getting the water I wanted. With my mind now blank and no longer pondering on too many thoughts about how my life is and how it is going to be. Open the door only to see the three-seated waiting for me.

“What is going on here?”

Tanyaradzwa and Tendai (both), “That is what we would like to know.”

The harmony in their answer terrifies me right now. Did she tell them about her shameful deeds? If she did how am I going to handle this situation now? She is looking at me and her eyes have that sadness feel to them and I feel like if I keep on looking at them, I would give into her so I will just look down whenever it feels like I am about to look at her.

“Guys, it is nothing really.”

“Mike, I have known you long enough to be able to tell whether you are telling the truth or lying and right there right now you just lied to both our faces and I do not know why she is not telling us anything but I hope you two resolve whatever is going on between you two.”

Right now, I wish I could just scream out to you both, tell you everything about what is bothering me. But to think how humiliating it would be to me as a man and how much it would hurt mother if she ever hears about this. What am I to do with this situation that life has put me in? they are both looking at me right now as if they will find all the answers whilst looking at my face. Rush on to the bed and sleep holding my pillow tight.

“Tell me when I will be leaving, for now please let me rest.”

“Actually, you are good to go right.” Tendai looks disappointed at me too now!

“Thanks, Tindo, I will make sure to drive them both homes safely.” Tanya

“Where is my clothing? I need to change.”

Vimbai pulls out my clothes from a bag she is holding and gives it to me.

“Should we leave so you can change or you are going to do so in the bathroom.”

“No Tanya, make yourselves feel at home, I will just change in the toilet.”

She points at Vimbai, “Mrs Zimuto, you must go with him and help your husband change.”

“I think I can manage.” I quickly interjected to prevent my sister from getting her way.

Tanyaradzwa scoffs, “Why are you being difficult? What is going on really?” she raged on me.

Calmly as I leave the room, “I think I am going to change now and while I am at it, you need to chill out a bit.”

“This sister of mine is really pushy though!” lisped as I head for the bathroom.

Increase the pace, reach the bathroom enter and take off my clothing, change them fast. Leave the bathroom and head towards the hospital room.

“Ohh look, he is back!” Dr Shamhu cackles as she announces my return into the room.

Continues to speak after straightening out herself, “I was telling your wife and sister here that you are free to go, and if there is any issue with your body either give me a call, call an ambulance or drive here quickly.”

“So, now that I have been cleared, I guess we can go…….! Right?” exclaimed over the news that I am able to leave for home immediately.

“Slow down, Flash, subside the electrical buzz inside you! I am the one who is driving.” Tanyaradzwa hops in to point that out.

She looks at Vimbai who still has not said a word, “Why are you still silent? Have you no word for your husbands’ recovery? Honestly, what is it with you two?!” she laments as she gets up to leave.

“Okay, now that our business I can see you all of you out!” Dr Shamhu says as she takes the lead out of the office.

Tanyaradzwa and Vimbai follow behind Dr Shamhu with me right behind them, I would not want to hear them blab about their girl stuff, so I stay behind. And I have that stuff I watched that Nhamo gave me. Should I bring it up when we get home or some other time? About that tablet where is it?

“Hey, Tanya! Did you by any chance see a tablet by my bed side? A black iBall Slide 3G Q something, brand new a true beauty!?” painted a verbal picture.

She puts her hand on her head reminiscing, “You mean the one that scoundrel Nhamo left you?” she recalls.

“Yes, that one!” I quickly a replied.

“Yes, I have it. Do you want it now?” she asks.

“Yes, I do!” I answer her.

She stops to check it for it in her bad, takes it out and hands it to me and return to her conversation with Dr Shamu.

This tablet that I was left with by Nhamo should not be in anyone’s hands. So, I will keep it close to me. And Vimbai has been awfully quiet too, it is like she is disappearing. According to what I was told she did not even bother to stay by my side rather go and sleep with other men. Her presence is both infuriating and soothing but I shall not change my stance.

“Heyy, Michael!” Dr Shamhu calls me.

“Yes, Tendai?” I reply increasing the pace towards them.

She went on, “Take care of this beautiful young lady! Ohh and Vimbai, if he gives you a hard time just give me a call and I promise I will come and deal with him.” says while grabbing my ear.

Vimbai giggles upon seeing me being pinched and nods in agreement.

Dr Shamu continues, “I have witnessed enough to know he is being a bad husband and me pinching him is to show you that I can and I am just a phone call away.”

“I was going to tell her something like that later but with no immediate practical but since you initiated the protection program, I too will be there if he is too hard on you.” Tanyaradzwa interjects and gave her word to her to.

“Tendai, I will be seeing, let me drive this couple home and return to my place or residents!” she goes on conclude.

“You two ladies have no love for me at all!” lisped while opening the door.

“The fact that we do not want you to get lost shows how much we care about you!” Dr Shamu responds to my bleating.

“Okay now, You three should go now, I have work to do!” she stressed.

“Great then, I will see you later.” Tanyaradzwa speaks her last as she begins to drive.

And for me, I know this is going to be a very long journey sitting at the back of the car. What should I do to avoid be catechised by Tanyaradzwa, I know Vimbai will not tell her anything but I might end up gloating. So best I decide to pretend to be asleep back here. But it seems like the two are going to be talking a lot along the way. Maybe at this point I should ask for earphones so that I can actually not hear them speak.