Still Me

Welp

    "So like I mentioned he was a mechanic he would always build and make his own tools David took on hobby of building and creating his own s*x toy"

    "Gasp sounds like my type of guy," I say while nodding my head with a playful smirk.

    "Look if you have children around and stuff they shouldn't be watching this . . ." I pause the Youtube video and look around the waiting room to see if there are any kids. The room is in a plain beige color, with chairs set up around the room. I see a lovey-dovey couple sitting across from me then I feel my usual horrible heartache from seeing disgusting stuff like that. I quickly look away and look at the old lady a few chairs away with white hair sitting on her head and a, very cute, black with all different color flower dress reading a book, right in front of her a dark-haired little boy playing with the toy this place has for small people like him here. I notice her eyeing me and my phone. I try not to look in her eyes cuz I know what it'll say there's a child here young lady turn that mother fuken thing off before I beat yo Gadt damn ass . . . well maybe not like a seven-foot black guy ready to beat you up but I feel like it has the same energy. 

    I shiver at the thought of looking in her direction again. Then I look at this beauty here three chairs down to my right shiny golden locks cascading down his or her body. She or he looks my way a couple of times and catch his or her eyes and make a sign for him or her to come to me. I know he or she wants me as badly as I want him or her. He or she is so close bet yet so far, but I can't I cry out in my head I can't she or he has a job to do. 

    To protect hi or her mommy you go do your, job baby. She or he looks my way again and I look away cuz this puppy needs to do his or her job plus I can tell his or her mommy is getting a little pissed. Which I get it she can die if the puppy doesn't react like he or she is supposed to and my annoying ass is not helping.

    sowy

    God a lot of avoiding eye contact today especially with this other blond sitting beside me I smelt her when she came in and let me tell you it wasn't just me who smelt her. Everyone in the room turned to look at her and bowed their head in respect towards alpha here. This is why I'm kinda nervous because I'm a rouge and wolf who are in a pack don't fancy us at all. But, she plopped right next to me surprising everyone in the room I think I heard the old lady gasp. 

    She keeps trying to make small talk with me which is annoying because I'm not good at them at all and alphas always look down upon rogues because of this when she casually brushed up on me I jump in fear. I don't like people touching me especially alphas or them being in my bubble I love my personal space. I want to move one chair away . . . or a few but that would be rude and I don't want piss off an alpha. 

    I look at her right in time and make good eye contact with her. f**k me in the ass. I just made eye contact with an alpha.

    I take a good look at her features. She has a heart-shaped face with small plump lips slightly tinted, with light blonde hair loosely curled shaping her face sitting on it is the most beautiful hazel eyes you can see the colors swirl in the most entrancing way. Along with her beautiful eyes she's wearing diamond earrings with a small heart chain necklace and a thick knitted white dress with thigh high light green boots. Beside her I can see a big dark brown sweater layin on the chair on top I can see a green small bag with a silver chain, I think it's Gucci because it has a double cc facing away from each other. 

    She reminds me of a trophy wife. I hope she's not a b***h it looks like she's wearing a whole wardrobe that can be worth more than my life, and let me tell you all I'm worth is . . . okay washed out blue jeans five dollars in a garage sale, black with bleach tie-dye t-shirt aka I accidentally dropped bleach on it, three dollars, grey sweatshirt from an unknown university that I probably couldn't get in two dollars, and then black converse chucks fifty-five dollars, my uncle bought me with the extra money he got in one of his mysterious side jobs. all that turned out to be sixty-three dollars. Wow worth less than the small purse doesn't help that I didn't brush my hair this morning so my dark brown hair is all tied up in a messy ponytail which brings me down to . . . back to zero Yaaay me.

    She smiles and says something to me and points with her perfectly manicured hands, I smiled back trying to figure out what she said for a solid five seconds. She opens her mouth to talks again and at the same time I open mine and . . . 

    "huh!" I give a very loud and ugly sound.

    Surprisingly she doesn't cringe back she even chuckles.

     "I think you better make sure the little kid isn't watching," Wow I didn't think she would be any more perfect she has a soft like and angle but strong like a bull seeing red. She nods her head. Why is he nodding her head?

    I tilt my head and look at her confused, "kid. not. watching?"

    She giggles and shines me the whitest straight teeth I've ever seen.

    "No dimwit. . . " She stops mid-sentence and looks at me with a straight face.

    "Did you just?"

    "yep," she looks up while scratching her head awkwardly.

    "why... ?"

    "Because" 

    "But?"

    "Ahhh!"

    "Why?'

    "Ahh."

    "you,"

    "I"

    "Called me?"

    "Look I didn't call you dimwit," She interrupts and she slowly tells me like am a little f*****g kid.

    I without thinking I start talking back to her, "But, you just admitted calling me a dimwit," I state to her.

    "No, I didn't," Crossing her arms like a little brat then turning away.

    "Yes! Yes! you did not even Five seconds ago you just admitted it to me" I throw my hand up exasperated.

    "I know what I said and I didn't say that,"

    "yes, you did"

    "No, I didn't"

    "yes,"

    "No,"

    "yes,"

    "No,"

    "Lick my hairy feet," I finally say to her.

    "She faces towards me quicker than a human eye can see and grabs me by my collar and brings me close to her, "I rather lick something else . . ." she takes a quick pause to slowly looks at me up and down she had this weird look on her face before she looked around the room but it was replaced quickly with a blank face, she then continues still holding me. "I rather lick anything else than a useless disgusting rouge," with every word said hurt me more then it should have. I can never get used to the insults that gets thrown at me, 'I'm too weak ' I tell myself 'you are useless and disgusting not even your mate wanted you'. I realized what I did 'I broke a promise' I disrespected an alpha. Guilt, hurt and mostly shame overcame me I bowed my head to her to show I submitted to her. She leans back a bit 'hopefully this satisfies her' I think myself, "S...so what if I called you a dimwit I'm an alpha," she says the last part with as much authority in it to almost bring me to my knees and beg for her forgiveness. 'I should do that I'm probably in her territory she can kill me right now and all I will get is cheers from other people around the room'  

    I quickly move to the floor and lay my head on it, "I'm so sorry alpha I shouldn't have disrespected you like that, I should've kept my mouth closed and never argued or insult you, it wasn't my intention please spare me alpha," 

    Silence that's all heard for a good while. I was scared to look up or to move I didn't want to die and leave my uncle alone he needed me more than I needed him. No matter how much it pains me to be with him I can't leave him he's my only family in the world and I need to protect that.

    I was such in deep thought that I didn't hear my uncle come in the room I felt a hand on my arm that brought me to my feet with my head still down, my uncle speaks "what happened?" my uncles' worried voice brings me back to reality. 'worried?' I question my self. I look up to see that he is worried and angry 'angry? no furious a new emotion?' he's been showing more emotions lately and every time he does it surprises me and it almost brings me to tears but I stop myself 'almost time' I remind myself.

    "Nothing!" I smile sweetly, " we were just playing," 

    "Playing what?" he asks me, looking at the alpha untrustingly.

    " We were just playing she was the empress of Japan and I was her samurai who dishonored her and know has to commit Seppuku, hence me on the floor," I smile again.

    He looks at both of us trying to figure out what really happened. I release my arm from his grip, "uncs it's okay we were really playing," he looks at me when I say his nickname he looks at me softly then cups my face. He stays quiet for a minute searching for something and for a long while he drops his hand with a big sigh.

    "If you say so camalion," he hits me with his own nickname to me. I haven't heard it in years it makes me smile to know that he remembers what he used to call me.

    "You," he points to the alpha, "better stay away from her, you should have better things to do than to bully other people," I look at my uncle surprised, how can he talk to an alpha like that. 

    I look back at her and she has this bored expression on her face she turns to look at me and for a second I see regret is plastered on her face, but quickly as it comes she replaces it with the same board face's been having. She then stands up and walks into the office. 

    Welp!  there it is.