Chapter 3
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“I trust him, more than I trust myself.
I could spend my whole life just to describe how good he makes me feel,
He makes me feel like I am not a want, I am a need, a very important need.
Like air for breathing,
Like water for living..
Maybe …even more important than this..
I can live without water or air for a moment…but not without …."him”.
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Ara, walking through the beautiful corridors of the castle, wore a dress that wasn’t as luxurious as the golden curtains, which were made with fine gold thread... but still, it wasn’t shabby at all.
It was her grace.
The grace made her look still alive.
Ara stood at 5'3, her figure graceful, her posture quietly commanding. A rounded face framed by long, black locks fell gently over tired eyes—green and shaped between almond and Eastern, holding centuries of sorrow. Her skin was pale with a warm golden glow, like faded sunlight. A mole beneath her eye and another just above her lips added to her haunting beauty.
Her lips were full, her nose straight, and her eyebrows softly defined. Though undeniably beautiful, she looked worn—drained, hopeless, as if life had taken more than it gave.
She wore ancient, dark gowns with little ornament, walking like a queen lost in time.
The beauty she was, the beauty that can birth to peace on the land she steps on. She was enjoying the quiet hum of birds that were just present outside.
The open balconies allowed their voices to drift in, turning it into music for her.
She smiled lightly, a very faint smile only meant for herself.
……..Ruby loves bird chirps ……
She knew every happiness of her beloved little world, the cheeky smile Ruby would give when she heard the birds.
As Ara passed through a chamber, which she disliked the most, she found something utterly surprising.
She went inside to check what was happening…and felt like her soul left her body.. Earlier that evening, when the storm struck her soul…
That evening
Loud sobs were heard, and the door was slammed shut. And the sobs grew louder like a constant plea to take away pain, like a glass that has shattered into so small pieces, that nobody can even put the glass together,rather tie it..
“WHY!?!? …WHY!?..”
Ara sobbed louder — maybe hoping God would hear her plea, her endless wave of pain, her collapsing body… There stood an old woman outside the chambers in very royal robes, a simple crown on her head, but it spoke everything for who she was, the mother queen.
Inside the chambers, there she lay on the cold floor, her face flushed with tears, swollen eyes..and her little world, trying to soothe her but tears were falling from her eyes too …looking at the only mother
-no!
“ Mama”.. she spoke
“mama,stop chying,..…don't chy”
She constantly spoke the line again and again like a mantra.. but her mother, her own world, was not listening to her.
“I will not forgive him ! I will not forgive him for this !!NO NEVER!!”..
She spoke about her grief, how hurt she was, how she wanted the floor to open up and flush her inside, how she wanted this to be a dream.
They heard noises at the door.
The chamber doors were now forcefully opened, and there stood the queen mother, and beside her was a mere maid, a beautiful woman but with a secret that disgusted Ara..standing with a child beside her..Ara got up, her eyes red with tears, her face was wet with tears, her body was nearly collapsing. She glared at them with such intensity that could pass through their souls.
“Here to poison me, right? I know… You’ll kill me. I mean nothing to you. Nothing to him. Nothing to anyone here!” Ara screamed, her voice sharp with betrayal. A wave of anger that passed over her before she fell again to sob loudly.
The maid looked at her in utter guilt. Her eyes showed helplessness and regret, a reality she never wanted to face."I am sorry, so sorry, so sorry.. I wish …. I wish that … I was dead before this day came, my lady..I can't bear this, I am sorry”
The maid as she looked down, her face was flushed and tears fell in regret, After all she was a woman.
But how can Ara listen to this?
How can she?
The man she loved, the man who she thought she could trust with any problem, whom she gave herself whole, who she thought looked perfect in red robes, who she showered with sweet talks before they slept, who she loved deeply,…had.. cheated on her.
She wanted the whole world to know her desperation! At that moment, she realized no one ….no one …not even the one who promises to stay life long …cares for you.
People, humans, and their hearts ..
What do they want?...only ..happiness .
They want peace, happiness, and calmness in their heart ..
It doesn't make them a bad person for wanting happiness, but the way they try to get it does justify their intentions. Even when they think they are right, they can be completely wrong. And …
In this process, they hurt, sometimes ruin a person from inside, and this is the thing that makes them guilty for their crime. Nobody stays forever ….how can they? Some die, some leave... Everyone leaves beside the one who created us.
People will be with you till they find their happiness with you, and as soon as this “happiness” leaves, they get bored of you. They ignore you, treat you like you are nothing, because it's true…..you remain nothing to them now.
Zustan was a nice and loving guy until he lost his happiness with her and found someone else to get his happiness. He didn't care about her. He cared about himself, his happiness.. because if he did care, he would have been treating her a bit nicely.
He never saw the pain she went through, what she bore, just thought of his happiness and to get it, he cheated….he cheated on the woman he once made a promise with to love her till death do them apart…
Ara eyes glanced at the baby beside the maid, looking older than 5!....
…older than 5…
She let it fade into the background to acknowledge, to learn how long it had been..
“...even before Ruby”
She whispered with more of a surprised tone than an empathic one …she pitied herself.. how can more of her feelings be played with?..she doesn't know...
Does she have something left to be happy?
She looked at the child still holding her, trying to calm her mother down, tears flowing out of her big eyes..
...her little world, the reason for her to be happy.. again.
Her daughter, straddling her lap, silently patted her arm with hands so tiny, their touch was barely there... but in that moment, she realized — not him, but she was her whole world, whose world is none other She ownself....
Ruby's world also started with Ara..with the first word of..ma!.ma!..ma?...mama.
She silently stood up, clutching her daughter. Nana came to hold Ruby, calming her down. She knew–Ara needed some space of her own.
“I will accept this only, If he would not be the heir, …not this one.”
Ara spoke, wanting assurance that nothing can remove from what she is. Her place as a Queen was at stake, the little bit of honor she had.
“Done”..the queen mother, a woman with wrinkles on her face, her hair blonde, a very strong scent coming from her, Meliora spoke with an indifferent tone.
And her wish was fulfilled quickly.
Ara slowly walked out of the room, slowly slowly walking towards a place she didn't know. She didn't feel like home in this palace now, not anymore …
She was walking silently, the people of the scene left behind faded long before…
As she took a step to walk more, she felt nothing…
Soon loud dying screams were heard, those deadly screams were hunting everyone in the palace, even the birds in the nearby trees were silent now, listening to the music of pain, the cries, the loud screaming of a woman.
Ara clutched her stomach, feeling hopeless. She was screaming in pain, but her eyes showed nothing, as if she was acting out a scene with no emotions in her eyes but doing the script….rather too…perfectly.
Blood was pooling out on the floor. It was a horrific scene,
A scene to awaken a dead soul inside a person …soon many people surrounded her, her blurry eyes–not being able to make their faces, to identify who they were?...
Her eyes slowly traveled downwards to the floor, the pool of blood, the red color, the color of her pain, but still …this blood wasn't enough to describe the deadliness inside her.
At the moment, she truly understood what was happening.
It hit her hard…the reality, that…this again was only..and only…her loss, her pain.
Her eyes started to get more blurry.
What was happening, she thought. Why is she feeling so numb?...is she going to die?...
Wait, what about her babies?
What will happen to her unborn baby?
Who will be with Ruby then?
She thought…the people's voices were now fading slowly, and she noticed..
“T..this…c…cant …b…be”
She spoke for the last time before shutting her eyes gradually.
eyes shutting down as the maids' noises faded.
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“Within those eyes,
Nights come alive,
Lost in their depths,
Where passion thrives,
The tales they tell,
The wonders they glean,
In the depth of those eyes,
…..A world unseen”
- Writer
