"And she doesn't want you." Images of her with those men flashed through my mind. I couldn't get the thought of her with them out of my head. I didn't even feel as Celeste unzipped my pants and took me into her mouth. I was in a daze as the words she doesn't want you played over and over like a broken record. The alcohol and drugs in my system were messing with my head.
"Come on let's take this inside," she said pulling me into the room I both loved and loathed. It was dark and full of memories and was my only escape. At that moment I needed to escape so I let her guide me knowing it was wrong. The only thing I remembered from that point on was her handing me bottle after bottle until I passed out. When I came to she was next to me and I felt disgusted. I couldn't remember if I slept
