Manon I was a little surprised by the while shower incident. He didn't even attempt to f**k me, which is weird and out of the ordinary. I miss him inside me though. I want him, but I'm scared. What if we have s*x, and then he leaves again, because he got what he wanted? What if I'm just too easy, and that's why he never stays. What if— “What's going in your beautiful mind?” He whispers, as we drive toward home. I mean, the estate. “Nothing,” I say, and he drops it. My mind starts wandering. He's such a strong lover. I mean, he takes care of me in bed. I bite my lips. Good care of me. He's the best I've ever had. The way he strokes into me— His warm, strong hand brings me back to reality. Is it hot in here? It feels so hot. “You clench your thighs together any tighter,” He rasps,

