The Warning

I want to kiss you~ Selena Racter

Third Person POV

Rule number two: DO NOT RELY ON ANYONE! (Especially the ones close to you).

What made you happy today can make you feel sad tomorrow.

What strengthens you today can weaken you tomorrow.

What makes you feel like someone today can make you feel like no one tomorrow.

What makes you feel alive today can kill you tomorrow.

Make yourself happy and grow your own strength because relying on someone is like putting your life in the hands of a person who wants to wipe you off the face of the earth.

You don't know what tomorrow holds for you or the person who supports you.

Building your life by yourself is the safest way to ensure that no one breaks you.

Letting other people build your life gives them the  power to know where your weaknesses and strengths are. They know every button to push to destroy you.

Selena

After hours of talking and kissing, we finally walk back to the hall where the ball is being held.

As we walk down the stairs, I notice that the room is almost empty and is mostly filled with short bold men who are still discussing business; my father included.

Mother is standing next to father with the posture of a submissive; head slightly bowed down, hands held together in the front, body a bit sluggish and her mouth shut. I guess she was removed from the smiling mode due to the matters they are discussing.

Nicholas started dragging me where the men were.

My nerves got the best of me and I withdrew my hand from his seeing as we were approaching the group.

Thank God that Nicholas didn't pay much attention to it and kept walking.

As if smelling my signature scent of fear, father turns his head to look at me.

"Ah, there they are!" He exclaims towards the other men and leaves my mother to put both Nicholas and I under his arms as a gesture of hugging. "We were beginning to wonder where you were." My father chuckles.

"I hope my son didn't give you a hard time" I look at Macus who is standing opposite to us says while eyeing his son in a playful way

I was about to say something but my father beat me to it.

"I wouldn't worry about Nicholas, if I were you, he is a good man." Father says, insinuating that I am the problem that he should be worried about.

If Macus got the underlying message to what my father said, he didn't regard it much seeing as he just gave a nod.

"The driver is waiting up front for you if you are ready to go back to the hotel." He says that "if I am ready to go" but by the way he is looking at me, I know that I have no other choice but to leave.

"If you don't mind sir, I will drive her to the hotel seeing as we are staying in the same place. Keep the driver for when you are ready to go back." Nicholas says to my father with so much respect.

"That's actually a good idea. It will help us with publicity is the press sees you two together."

Everything has to turn into business with my father somehow. I am sure that Nicholas had no intention of attracting the attention of the press; he was just kindly offering to drop me at the hotel.

I wanted to tell my father that not everything is not about business but that would be just asking for it.

"Well, we are leaving now, have a goodnight." Nicholas said ignoring what my father just said and then he looked at me. "Let's go Selena, I parked my car in the back."

Guess my father's not getting things the way he wanted tonight. I didn't want to be pasted on every magazine, newspapers and social media the next morning, so I followed Nicholas without saying anything.

Only giving a nod towards the men to show respect.

When we got in his roll Royce, he looked at me with a smile on his face.

"Do you mind?" He asked after some time, but it took me some time to get my head straight on what he was saying. I just nodded as my mouth seemed to have been magically sealed by an invisible tape.

He brought his body closer to me and his lips lightly brushed against mine. I could feel my heart and my breathing quicken.

Was he going to kiss me again?

Because if he was, I would welcome him with both hands open.

Sadly, he didn't kiss me Instead, he reached for the seatbelt and clipped it.

Why couldn't he just have kissed me?

What is wrong with me? I shouldn't be acting like this, I just met him today. This is wrong.

But is it so wrong that I want him? Is it wrong that I'm acting like a normal teenager? This is how they act right?

"This thing goes so fast and I just want to make sure that your safety is on." He says with a smirk on his face and starts driving.

The sound of the engine fills in the gap of our silence.

I want to talk but I don't know what to say. As much as I feel confident around him, I also feel assertive somehow. What is I say something embarrassing or something that he won't find interesting? What is I say something that will make him think that I am lame?

It's this constant nagging, this voice in my head telling me to impress him.

"Ae you alright there?" Nicholas pulls me out of my thoughts, and I look at him with a smile on my face.

"Yeah, I'm good." I say as I fidget with my fingers on my lap.

"Are you nervous?" He asks in a playful tone, but I barely pay attention to it as I look at his hand which is now covering my hands.

"Um, I'm not nervous. Why do you think I am nervous? I'm not."

Sureeeeee. Very smooth Selena.

Nicholas chuckles. "You don't have to be nervous around me. I don't think that I am that bad, do you?"

"No, I don't think you are bad. It's nothing personal." And it really isn't. Who can blame me for being nervous when its my first time sitting next to a guy who is old enough to have fought in WW1. My first time to actually talk to someone who I am attracted to.

"I know that but just continue to do what you were doing when we were at the ball."

The kissing or the talking?

I feel my cheeks heat up and I look at the window so that Nicholas doesn't see it.

"I meant that you could ask me any questions. I would have loved to continue our kissing but its better if we do it when we get to the hotel."

Oh, my days! Is he trying to kill me or something?

How did he know what I was thinking? Did I say it out loud?

Your face gave it all away you dimwit.

I cover my face with my hands, letting out a squeal in the process.

"You're so cute." Nicholas says teasing me.

After that, no one spoke as I kept looking at the window. How can he think I am cute? I am just completely awkward that is what.

"I would have loved to continue our kissing but its better if we do it when we get to the hotel."

I blush more at the thought. I want to kiss him as well.

I have never done it before but I have seen it in some of the movies I watched. I have also heard about it when the girls from church were talking about their boyfriends.

I never understood why it was such a big deal but now I do. Its almost as if I crave it.

"Well, this is it. Do you want to stay is the car with me for a while?" Nicholas asks when we arrive at the hotel.

"Yes, I'm fine with that." I say knowing that my parents will be back after midnight so we still have some time.

And I want to stay with him.

"Good." He says taking my hand in his and playing with my fingers. "So what do you want to talk about."

"I don't want to talk." I reply back while looking in his eyes.

"What do you want to do then?" He asks even though he already knows what I want.

I don't know what possesses me but I find myself getting out of my seat and sitting on his lap.

"I want to kiss you." Before he says anything, I grab the back of his neck and bring his lips towards mine.

Where did all this confidence come from?