The Warning

Thoughts<3Selena Racter

Past tense POV

Nicholas was a perfect soul, true love is what I experienced when I was with him. I couldn't be more proud  to say that I felt such an intense and pure feeling like that at such a young age.  In such a short time, we built a foundation which was indestructible and authentic; every time I look back at our memories, my soul lights up. It dances freely to the harmonious tune of our peaceful and liberating love. Whoever said that great things take time was exerting energy towards pointless affairs. 

An emotion such as love is not something that you cannot control, you just feel it. I can never explain such complexity using language, it doesn't do enough justice. 

Our love was just... elevating, to say the least. 

But then I fell. 

I am sure that he would have caught me but my burden was too heavy to carry. Regardless, I still gave him a chance to try. I wanted us to work.

I thought that he would carry me since he was my angel. I thought that I would spend a lifetime with him since he was my soulmate. I thought that I was his and he was mine since we were bind together by such intense passion. I thought and thought and thought but in the end, thoughts are just things that I fed myself to make life bearable. 

Selena's POV

After eating and cleaning up the kitchen, we sit on the couch, all cuddled up. Though, technically, Nico is lying on the sofa with his head on my lap and my fingers in his hair. Massaging his scalp as he draws little circles with his index finger on my knee. 

Its distracting. In a good way. The sense of the pad of his finger gently nudging a small part of my body but the impact being a tingling feeling spreading from head to toe.

We sit through the movie without exchanging too many words but we do sneak in sessions of make outs and intimate touches. 

I surprised myself when I leaned down to kiss Nico's cheek, he also seemed to have noticed my moment of confidence  as he just smiled at me and pecked my lips before turning back to the TV.

I wish things would stay like this. But life is not that simple, my parents are going to come back and we will have to move again, changing this admirable dynamic of living on cloud nine that I have managed to create. I don't know how I am going to deal with the heartbreak of losing Nico but I just have to focus in the present for now and make the most out of these moments. 

When the movies ends, Nicholas stands up to stretch his limbs and I follow suit.

"What do you wanna do next?"

 I want to do a lot; have a sleepover, watch more movies, kiss, watch more movies, kiss. You get the gist, but I can't do that. I mean I can but I won't because that is not how I was socialised. I shouldn't be even thinking about it. It's an eternal battle of doing what my parents would expect or what happens in the movies I watch. I want to have that life where everything is interesting and romanticised, a uneventful life where I don't feel like someone is living it for me.

"I'm going to head back to my room. Thank you for spending the time with me, I had fun." I speak genuinely as I mean every word I said. 

"Like hell you are. Your parents are not here," he speaks closing the gap between us so that he is standing directly in front of me. His neck paying hell for our height difference. "My parents are not here." He looks up at the ceiling as if contemplating what to say next. "Even if they were here actually, it wouldn't be a big deal. But that's besides the point." He smirks taking my hands in his, swinging them side to side.

"I can't sleep here Nicholas." I say looking straight into his brown eyes. Spontaneously, the happy expression slips from his face as something that seems like realization dawns on him.

"Wait, do you think this is about s*x? Because I won't pressure you, I know that I was a d**k about it after the car park session but I won't do it again. If it makes you feel better, I can sleep on the couch in my room. I will even sleep downstairs if you prefer but please just stay for the night." I would have been embarrassed by the  vulgar language he used amidst his little rant, however, all I manage to do is stare at him in a suspicious way.

 Why is he so desperate that I stay over?

"Don't do the look." Nicholas mutters. "What look?" I ask as my eyebrows draw towards each other.

"That look. Don't act so surprised and confused, I am not planning to murder you or something." Exactly what a criminal would say. 

"Trust me, I have had so many chances where I would have done it but I haven't. Which proves that I don't intend to." He blubbers, everything coming out of his mouth jumbled up.

"So you have thought of murdering me then?" I ask in attempt to work him up a bit and it works as he tries to analyse what he just said.

"No! Of course not. I am just using it as an example. I know that's what you were thinking when you were giving me the look." 

I let out a chuckle, seeing how flustered he is. I decide to give the guy a break and contemplate the idea of me sleeping over. It might be a good idea because we only have a short time together and I want to spend as much of it with him. We already lost a week and I can't afford to lose more.

Why torture myself from by not acting on my desire when I have the opportunity

Third person POV

This was the stimulus to our romance. It was build on the rush of trying to fit my whole life into such a short amount of time in the name of taking opportunities. There was a blur between the beginning and the end of our romance. Everything was happening at the speed of a meteor shower. It almost felt like I had an addiction. I didn't have a past , I didn't have a future. I only had the present, that revolved around Nicholas. The thought of my parents didn't nag me. The thought of God could not stop me. Nothing could stop me from loving Nicholas.

It was an addiction but it was one that I enjoyed. I often, secretly read novels on this application called C-R-O-W-N  which was full of werewolf stories. Apparently these creatures have soulmates pre destined for them before they are even born. They have a connection, a bond that is unknown to human kind. Unknown to human kind with the exception of Nico and I.

At least that's what I thought. 

A lesson that I learned too late: things aren't as simple as our eyes deceive us to think.

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Do you think that Nico and Lena are soulmates?