23In certain circumstances, even the most trustworthy person can only judge. So I did too: I thought the attitude of the father was all an artifice, even if it was for good. He did not have to look favourably on our possible union. With the marriage I would have taken away the only female daughter he had and then, according to what a family friend had told me in the past, but he esteemed me very much, the "South Italians" or the southerners received little confidence, because considered "rebel and violent beings" and sometimes fierce hunters of "dowry". If they thought this of me they were very wrong ... and in the meantime I tormented me!
The thoughts crowding my mind became more numerous and even more serious. I needed a little distraction and the only remedy would have been to spend Ch
