Chapter 5
1007 Words
Parang binibiyak ang ulo ko sa sakit nang magising ako. I groaned when I felt sore all over. Ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. Pagod na pagod.
I opened my eyes and saw the white ceiling. My forehead creased. Nahagip ng mata ko ang nakabukas na kaunti na bintana sa gilid ng kwarto. Tama lang para pumasok ang sinag ng araw na galing sa labas na nagsasabing umaga na.
Nagawi ang mata ko sa aking sarili. Nanlaki ang aking mata sa nakita. Tinaas ko ang kumot at nakitang wala akong ni isang saplot sa katawan.
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon at napasinghap ng makita ko na may katabi ako sa kama.
Confusion was written on my face while looking at Nicholai who was still sleeping in the bed, n***d.
No! No! No! This can’t be happening!
Sinubukan kong alalahanin ang nangyari. The last thing that I remembered, I was at the shore drinking with Nicholai’s cousin after he walked out.
Another memory flashed. I was with Nicholai already. We were in the kitchen and he gave me a glass of water to drink. After that. Everything was blurry.
How did I end up sleeping with Nicholai?
I groaned again. Ang sakit ng ulo ko. Damn liquor! Damn hangover!
Ginala ko ang aking paningin sa loob ng kwarto. Hindi ito ang kwarto ko kung saan ako nakaukupa! Nahagip ng mata ko ang mga damit namin na nakakalat sa sahig.
Fuck! It was so obvious that something really happened between us. I could even feel that I was sore down there.
Nasapo ko ang aking ulo.
Holyshit! Denima! Ano ba talaga ang nangyari?
I might be drunk last night but there was no way that I would allow myself to sleep with Nicholai.
Nicholai stirred beside me and I saw how his eyes opened slowly. Napatingin siya sa gawi ko at ngumiti.
How could he smile like that to me? Did he plan all of this? How could he do this to me?!
“What the f**k was happening, Nicholai?! Why did we end up like this?!!” I said in gritted teeth. I took the blanket ang covered myself.
I saw how his brows furrowed while looking at me. Bumangon siya at humarap sa akin.
“We made love, Denima. You even liked it,” he said with a smug.
“What the f**k, Nicholai?! Made love? s*x, Nicholai. We had s*x! I don’t love you to make love with you! I don’t even remember what happened!” Nahilamos ko ang kamay sa aking mukha. I was frustrated. I saw how his jaw clenched from what I said.
“I don’t care what you called it. But it was obvious na may nangyari sa atin. I might get you pregnant. I didn’t use protection.”
Nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya. He didn’t use protection? Oh my god!
“You didn't?!” Nanlalaki ang aking matang nakatitig sa kanya. “Did you plan this?” He just stared at me. And I knew right there that he did. “You did! How could you do this?! You are like a brother to me, Nicholai!” Tears started to run down my cheeks. Nanginginig ang kamay ko sa galit.
Fuck! What if he got me pregnant? What am I going to do?
Philip’s face suddenly pop-out of my head and it made me burst out crying.
Fuck! I f****d up!
“Plan or not. It’s already done. We already did it. Stop wailing as if you didn’t like what happened between us.” He stood up and picked up his clothes on the floor and changed.
What the hell?!
“You are the worst!” I shouted at him. I harshly wiped the tears from my face and looked at him angrily.
“I know. I thought you already knew that?” he scoffed.
He picked up my clothes and threw it to the bed, closed to my side. “Change first and then we are going to talk about us.” He was about to get out of the room when I stopped him.
“You are not going anywhere, not until you tell me why did you do this?!” I snapped angrily.
Umigting ang kanyang panga at mabigat ang kanyang mga hakbang na lumapit sa akin. I could see anger in his eyes. Tinapatan ko ang galit niyang tingin sa akin. If he was angry. Well, I was more angry because of what happened to us!
I bet he did something unforgivable that was why we ended up in this bed.
Nagulat ako ng sumampa siya sa kama ang hinawakan ang magkabilang braso ko. I winced a bit ng dumiin nang kaunti ang pagkakahawak niya sa akin. Napatingala ako kay Nicholai habang nakatungo siya sa akin habang nakaluhod sa harapan ko.
“You want to know the truth? Yes! I planned it. I was desperate when I saw the f*****g ring in your finger!” May diin na sabi nito.
I glanced at my finger and saw the ring that he was talking about. Philip gave it to me. It was our engagement ring. I was already engaged to Philip. He proposed to me a month ago and I didn’t tell anyone about it. We planned to announce it after Philip settled with his firm.
“You are f*****g engage and you didn’t even told me about it!” Napakunot-noo ako habang nakatingin kay Nicholai.
“Why do I need to inform you, Nicholai? The last time I checked, we were only friends. Magkababata lang tayo. You don’t have a say about my life and who I want to spend it with!”
Biglang dumiin ang paghawak niya sa braso ko. “Let me go. Nasasaktan ako, Nic!” I never saw him act like this before.
“f**k, friends. Who told you that I only see you as a friend?” I was flabbergasted from what he just said.
“W-What?” What the hell was he talking about.
“Remember this, Denima. You are mine to begin with. I only let Philip borrow you. And now I’m getting back what was supposed to be mine. You will end up with me no matter what happened. Mark my word.”
- Writer
