I was trembling when one of the nurses accompanied me out of the ICU. Pinaupo nila ako sa labas at binigyan ng tubig para kumalma.
Nicholai was already out of danger. I really thought that I already lost him. My heart almost jumped from my chest while looking at him helplessly. I cried again because of relief. I should be mad at him because of what he did to me, but seeing him lifeless a while ago made my heart broke down into pieces.
What was wrong with me? I shouldn’t feel like this. Heck! Hindi naman ako ganito kay Nicholai noon. Kahit na noong na-ospital din siya. I never had this kind of feeling for Nicholai. I love Philip. He was my safe haven. But why do I feel like I was just convincing myself?
Was this because I was so guilty of what happened to him? I didn’t know anymore.
