The Hole In My Soul

The Hole In My Soul

Title: The Hole in My Soul

"Maybe my feelings for you would have faded with time, but you made them evaporate like mist.

They could have returned as rain, but you had already dug a hole in the earth of my soul."

These words aren’t just poetry for me — they’re the truth I’m living right now.

My name is Mili, a 35-year-old woman who has been married for 15 years. For me, my world began and ended with my husband, Ethan. Or perhaps I should say… was my husband.

Because after 15 years of marriage, of shared meals, quiet evenings, and whispered promises, Ethan chose to leave me. For someone younger, more beautiful, and, as he puts it, more 'accomplished.' Her name is Rosey. She’s in her twenties, with perfect skin, a bright smile, and a degree I don’t have. I could have but I don't.

When I married Ethan, I had just graduated from college. My world revolved around him — loving him, taking care of him, building a home together. I never thought I needed more, because loving him felt like enough.

But now… now I’m left alone, wondering what pieces of myself I lost while trying to be everything for him.