Esther Waters

Chapter 4

“I believe there’s going to be a trial this morning,” said Margaret; “Silver Braid was stripped—you noticed that—and Ginger always rides in the trials.”

“I don’t know what a trial is,” said Esther. “They are not carriage-horses, are they? They look too slight.”

“Carriage-horses, you ninny! Where have you been to all this while—can’t you see that they are race-horses?”

Esther hung down her head and murmured something which Margaret didn’t catch.

“To tell the truth, I didn’t know much about them when I came, but then one never hears anything else here. And that reminds me—it is as much as your place is worth to breathe one syllable about them horses; you must know nothing when you are asked. That’s what Jim Story got sacked for—saying in the ‘Red Lion’ that Valentine pulled up lame. We don’t know how it came to the Gaffer’s ears. I believe that it was Mr. Leopold that told; he finds out everything. But I was telling you how I learnt about the race-horses. It was from Jim Story—Jim was my pal—Sarah is after William, you know, the fellow who brought you into the kitchen last night. Jim could never talk about anything but the ‘osses. We’d go every night and sit in the wood-shed, that’s to say if it was wet; if it was fine we’d walk in the drove-way. I’d have married Jim, I know I should, if he hadn’t been sent away. That’s the worst of being a servant. They sent Jim away just as if he was a dog. It was wrong of him to say the horse pulled up lame; I admit that, but they needn’t have sent him away as they did.”

Esther was absorbed in the consideration of her own perilous position. Would they send her away at the end of the week, or that very afternoon? Would they give her a week’s wages, or would they turn her out destitute to find her way back to London as best she might? What should she do if they turned her out-of-doors that very afternoon? Walk back to London? She did not know if that was possible. She did not know how far she had come—a long distance, no doubt. She had seen woods, hills, rivers, and towns flying past. Never would she be able to find her way back through that endless country; besides, she could not carry her box on her back…. What was she to do? Not a friend, not a penny in the world. Oh, why did such misfortune fall on a poor little girl who had never harmed anyone in the world! And if they did give her her fare back—what then?… Should she go home?… To her mother—to her poor mother, who would burst into tears, who would say, “Oh, my poor darling, I don’t know what we shall do; your father will never let you stay here.”

For Mrs. Latch had not spoken to her since she had come into the kitchen, and it seemed to Esther that she had looked round with the air of one anxious to discover something that might serve as a pretext for blame. She had told Esther to make haste and lay the table afresh. Those who had gone were the stable folk, and breakfast had now to be prepared for the other servants. The person in the dark green dress who spoke with her chin in the air, whose nose had been pinched to purple just above the nostrils, was Miss Grover, the lady’s-maid. Grover addressed an occasional remark to Sarah Tucker, a tall girl with a thin freckled face and dark-red hair. The butler, who was not feeling well, did not appear at breakfast, and Esther was sent to him with a cup of tea.

There were the plates to wash and the knives to clean, and when they were done there were potatoes, cabbage, onions to prepare, saucepans to fill with water, coal to fetch for the fire. She worked steadily without flagging, fearful of Mrs. Barfield, who would come down, no doubt, about ten o’clock to order dinner. The race-horses were coming through the paddock-gate; Margaret called to Mr. Randal, a little man, wizen, with a face sallow with frequent indigestions.

“Well, do you think the Gaffer’s satisfied?” said Margaret. John made no articulate reply, but he muttered something, and his manner showed that he strongly deprecated all female interest in racing; and when Sarah and Grover came running down the passage and overwhelmed him with questions, crowding around him, asking both together if Silver Braid had won his trial, he testily pushed them aside, declaring that if he had a race-horse he would not have a woman-servant in the place…. “A positive curse, this chatter, chatter. Won his trial, indeed! What business had a lot of female folk——” The rest of John’s sarcasm was lost in his shirt collar as he hurried away to his pantry, closing the door after him.

“What a testy little man he is!” said Sarah; “he might have told us which won. He has known the Gaffer so long that he knows the moment he looks at him whether the gees are all right.”

“One can’t speak to a chap in the lane that he doesn’t know all about it next day,” said Margaret. “Peggy hates him; you know the way she skulks about the back garden and up the ‘ill so that she may meet young Johnson as he is ridin’ home.”

“I’ll have none of this scandal-mongering going on in my kitchen,” said Mrs. Latch. “Do you see that girl there? She can’t get past to her scullery.”

Esther would have managed pretty well if it had not been for the dining-room lunch. Miss Mary was expecting some friends to play tennis with her, and, besides the roast chicken, there were the côtelettes à la Soubise and a curry. There was for dessert a jelly and a blancmange, and Esther did not know where any of the things were, and a great deal of time was wasted. “Don’t you move, I might as well get it myself,” said the old woman. Mr. Randal, too, lost his temper, for she had no hot plates ready, nor could she distinguish between those that were to go to the dining-room and those that were to go to the servants’ hall. She understood, however, that it would not be wise to give way to her feeling, and that the only way she could hope to retain her situation was by doing nothing to attract attention. She must learn to control that temper of hers—she must and would. And it was in this frame of mind and with this determination that she entered the servants’ hall.

There were not more than ten or eleven at dinner, but sitting close together they seemed more numerous, and quite half the number of faces that looked up as she took her place next to Margaret Gale, were unknown to her. There were the four ugly little boys whom she had seen on the race horses, but she did not recognize them at first, and nearly opposite, sitting next to the lady’s-maid, was a small, sandy-haired man about forty: he was beginning to show signs of stoutness, and two little round whiskers grew out of his pallid cheeks. Mr. Randal sat at the end of the table helping the pudding. He addressed the sandy-haired man as Mr. Swindles; but Esther learnt afterwards his real name was Ward, and that he was Mr. Barfield’s head groom. She learnt, too, that “the Demon” was not the real name of the little carroty-haired boy, and she looked at him in amazement when he whispered in her ear that he would dearly love a real go-in at that pudding, but that it was so fattening that he didn’t ever dare to venture on more than a couple of sniffs. Seeing that the girl did not understand, he added, by way of explanation, “You know that I must keep under the six stone, and at times it becomes awful ‘ard.”

Esther thought him a nice little fellow, and tried to persuade him to forego his resolution not to touch pudding, until Mr. Swindles told her to desist. The attention of the whole table being thus drawn towards the boy, Esther was still further surprised at the admiration he seemed so easily to command and the important position he seemed to occupy, notwithstanding his diminutive stature, whereas the bigger boys were treated with very little consideration. The long-nosed lad, with weak eyes and sloping shoulders, who sat on the other side of the table on Mr. Swindles’ left, was everybody’s laughing-stock, especially Mr. Swindles’, who did not cease to poke fun at him. Mr. Swindles was now telling poor Jim’s misadventures with the Gaffer.

“But why do you call him Mr. Leopold when his name is Mr. Randal?” Esther ventured to inquire of the Demon.

“On account of Leopold Rothschild,” said the Demon; “he’s pretty near as rich, if the truth was known—won a pile over the City and Sub. Pity you weren’t there; might have had a bit on.”

“I have never seen the City,” Esther replied innocently.

“Never seen the City and Sub!… I was up, had a lot in hand, so I came away from my ‘orses the moment I got into the dip. The Tinman nearly caught me on the post—came with a terrific rush; he is just hawful, that Tinman is. I did catch it from the Gaffer—he did give it me.”

The plates of all the boys except the Demon’s were now filled with beefsteak pudding, potatoes, and greens, likewise Esther’s. Mr. Leopold, Mr. Swindles, the housemaid, and the cook dined off the leg of mutton, a small slice of which was sent to the Demon. “That for a dinner!” and as he took up his knife and fork and cut a small piece of his one slice, he said, “I suppose you never had to reduce yourself three pounds; girls never have. I do run to flesh so, you wouldn’t believe it. If I don’t walk to Portslade and back every second day, I go up three or four pounds. Then there’s nothing for it but the physic, and that’s what settles me. Can you take physic?”

“I took three Beecham’s pills once.”

“Oh, that’s nothing. Can you take castor-oil?”

Esther looked in amazement at the little boy at her side. Swindles had overheard the question and burst into a roar of laughter. Everyone wanted to know what the joke was, and, feeling they were poking fun at her, Esther refused to answer.

The first helpings of pudding or mutton had taken the edge off their appetites, and before sending their plates for more they leaned over the table listening and laughing open-mouthed. It was a bare room, lit with one window, against which Mrs. Latch’s austere figure appeared in dark-grey silhouette. The window looked on one of the little back courts and tiled ways which had been built at the back of the house; and the shadowed northern light softened the listening faces with grey tints.

“You know,” said Mr. Swindles, glancing at Jim as if to assure himself that the boy was there and unable to escape from the hooks of his sarcasm, “how fast the Gaffer talks, and how he hates to be asked to repeat his words. Knowing this, Jim always says, ‘Yes, sir; yes, sir.’ ‘Now do you quite understand?’ says the Gaffer. ‘Yes, sir; yes, sir,’ replies Jim, not having understood one word of what was said; but relying on us to put him right. ‘Now what did he say I was to do?’ says Jim, the moment the Gaffer is out of hearing. But this morning we were on ahead, and the Gaffer had Jim all to himself. As usual he says, ‘Now do you quite understand?’ and as usual Jim says, ‘Yes, sir; yes, sir.’ Suspecting that Jim had not understood, I said when he joined us, ‘Now if you are not sure what he said you had better go back and ask him,’ but Jim declared that he had perfectly understood. ‘And what did he tell you to do?’ said I. ‘He told me,’ says Jim, ‘to bring the colt along and finish up close by where he would be standing at the end of the track.’ I thought it rather odd to send Firefly such a stiff gallop as all that, but Jim was certain that he had heard right. And off they went, beginning the other side of Southwick Hill. I saw the Gaffer with his arms in the air, and don’t know now what he said. Jim will tell you. He did give it you, didn’t he, you old Woolgatherer?” said Mr. Swindles, slapping the boy on the shoulder.